Reviews with content warning for Physical abuse - The First Day of Spring

I read this book twice back to back.

It’s taken me some time and a second read to fully process everything this book made me feel, considering it made me feel A LOT. Which is exactly what I look for in a book - something I can emotionally connect with that makes me feel real things. That’s a huge A+ for me.

However, that definitely doesn’t dampen just how brutally dark, tragic, and devastating this book is.

The First Day of Spring delves into the ripple affects that mental abuse, emotional abuse, neglect, malnutrition, and genetic mental issues can cause in the life of a young child.

Chrissie is only eight years old when we meet her and we are introduced as she is murdering another child. From that point on, the book leaps into Chrissie’s history and begs the reader to consider many questions.

Who would Chrissie be if she were cared for, loved, and not mistreated?

What are the responsibilities of individuals on the outside? The ones looking in who only see glimpses of the tell-tale signs of abuse and neglect? How far should they go to reach out and truly try to help an individual - especially a child - in need?

Is it truly best for a child to stay with their biological parents if one or both parents are mentally ill or in some way simply unable to take care of their child the way they should?

Is it okay for a child to stay with their biological parent who has mental health struggles, but, despite that, is putting in the work to cope and do the best they can to raise their child?

This book paints a very clear picture in the ways, often, that school systems, adoption agencies, police, and children protective services fail children who most desperately need help. How could we, as a society, reform these institutions to better support and care for children in need? What resources could we supply teachers, for instance, with where they could not only better care for kids in school but perhaps even extend help for kids who need it at home?

My first read through, I read this book in a day. The pace is little slower than some, but I didn’t find it sluggish or difficult to get through at all. In fact, I would say the style of writing in this book is some of the best I’ve ever encountered. It manages to blend beauty and poetry with themes of pain and tragedy. I absolutely have to praise the author for an outstanding job of creating prose that is elegant and eloquent despite the devastating scenes she delivers to the reader.

I found Chrissie’s internal thought process and the way in which she navigates the world to be both fascinating and, at times, unfortunately relatable. If you live with certain forms of mental illness or disorder or if you lived with abuse or neglect growing up, you will definitely find many instances where you can relate to some of Chrissie’s experiences.

One of the only “flaws” I noticed with this book is the pervasive use of the word “fat” as an insult or derogatory word. However, ninety-nine percent of these instances are out of the mouth of a young child who has a severe eating disorder and malnutrition. I believe the language is used with the intention of showing the child’s envy that other kids are actually being fed and perhaps even because the malnourished child is so thin that everyone else looks “fat” to their perspective. Nonetheless, the presence of fatphobia is sprinkled throughout.

The only other issue I noticed in this book was the term “Chinese burn”, which is used twice. I’ve never heard this term, myself, but I do live in the US so perhaps it’s more of a UK phrase. The phrase seems to have the same connotation as “Indian burn” had here in the US, from what I can find online, and because of this I can only assume it’s an outdated, culturally insensitive phrase that probably could have been easily replaced.

Overall, I think this is an excellent book that I will probably read again in the future. The author delves into much deeper topics than just the murder of a child, and the intricacies of the story are what kept me deeply invested from start to finish.

There is a lot of nuance in this book and I would definitely recommend not forming judgments as you read but considering every situation from multiple avenues. Chrissie is not always a reliable narrator and it’s important to be able to determine the ways in which things might not always be as she presents them.

There are definitely a lot of trigger warnings for this book, and I recommend checking them out if you have any concerns before venturing in.

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