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Glitterland by Alexis Hall

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zarahzoe's review against another edition

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2.25

Fatshaming as a cutesy bonding moment and a protagonist who never manages to get over his classis  views. Also I couldn't get over how easily Ash was forgiven for his hurtful, atrocious actions. I know this is supposed to be a HFN (with possibilities for a HEA) but I just don't see the possibilities. 
Alexis tends to be quite hit or miss for me, but the hits hit so high that I sometimes have to endure the misses, but... Uhm. Was this ever a miss.

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adrienanthony's review against another edition

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dark emotional hopeful sad medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0


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graceheartsbooks's review against another edition

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challenging emotional funny hopeful informative reflective fast-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? N/A
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

This is my seventh Alexis Hall book as I’ve been trying to get through all of his catalog after reading and falling in love with Boyfriend Material last year (and Husband Material/Mortal Follies/Something Fabulous/Something Spectacular and 10 Things that Never Happened).

It was interesting to read his debut novel after reading so many others. And maybe because I’ve read so many of his other works that I’m not really sure how to feel about this one.

I really appreciated how Glitterland covered mental illness and the self loathing you can feel while going through that (especially as someone going through her own mental health journey as I learn to cope with social anxiety). However, I don’t know if I really felt the connection between the two leads but Ash and Darian both grew on me (even if Darian’s accent was a bit distracting to decipher…then again, I am an American and I barely know the distinct differences between British accents let alone American ones lol)

I also really liked the annotations and seeing Alexis Hall’s insights through the writing process—it’s interesting to read about what makes an author tick, you know?

Fair warning: Ash is an unlikable protagonist although unlike a lot unlikable protags, I did not get annoyed by him as much—although I did say aloud ‘Ash no’ when he f’ed something up lol

I do kind of wish we saw some of Darian’s POV. Not that I would’ve expected it because Alexis Hall doesn’t seem to do dual POVs but for some reason, sometimes I wanted to know what Darian was thinking.

I didn’t really have an strong reaction to most of the side characters (I say most because one in particular got on my nerves near the end for reasons I cannot reveal except in a spoiler👀)

Still everyone needs to start somewhere and I appreciate this novel for exsisting because without it would not have a new favorite author to enjoy❤️

So I was pretty neutral towards Niall, right? He’s a bit overprotective maybe but I didn’t really have an opinion of him…unlike chapter 12 that is. I hated Niall after he outed Ash’s mental illness. Like WTF? He wanted to Darian in his own time NIALL. Why the hell would you do that in public🙃 I already have strong feelings on outings, I didn’t realize I had strong feelings about someone’s mental health being outed was a trigger for me as well😅 I just can’t imagine doing that to someone, especially if this is a close friend of yours (granted Ash/Niall’s relationship is complicated). I’m a person who highly values her agency/privacy so I can’t imagine how violating this would feel


Chapter 19…my god chapter 19. Ash and Darian were doing so well and then Ash opened his mouth and said something stupid at the wedding. Alexis Hall mentioned in his annotations that this was one of his most awkward scenes and I have to agree. Like the Blackwood garden party in Boyfriend Material was pretty awful—I hate parents that try to control their kids—but this scene crushed my heart. Just straight up stabbed in the chest with how brutal it was. Like Ash, why? What are you doing talking about the man that you love that like that🥲 I mean, obviously he did it because the judgement of people at the wedding made him panic but still hurts, okay? lol

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emrosenq's review against another edition

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dark emotional sad medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.5


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bibliophiletricia's review against another edition

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5.0

I loved Glitterland by Alexis Hall. Ash’s journey of self-awareness thru his mental illness, and fighting past the way he and his oldest friends see him, is heart rending. And Darian loves him thru it all. I loved Nicholas Boulton’s narration, especially the differences between Ash and friends’ posh Oxford accents and Darian’s Essex accent. I couldn’t have done that in my head. Human narrators are magical. 

This new audio edition includes Aftermath, which previously was only available in the old ebook edition, and is of an important discovery Darian makes. Also includes a couple other bonus thingies. 

Content advisory for detailed talk and experiences of self harm, depression, spiraling, and mania. 

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the_lady_librarian's review against another edition

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challenging dark emotional reflective medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.25

Excellent! This is the third book from Alexis Hall that I've read and I am continually surprised by how different each of their books are. Giltterland is a bit absurd, the characters are weird and eccentric, yet somehow charming. .Ash and Niall are characters we should categorically dislike- they are not good people. They are shallow and malicious and way too egotistical but somehow you find yourself loving them. Perhaps because of their humanity. Hall brings light to a mental illness that is drowned in negative stigma too often and does a good job of neither romanticizing or sugarcoating it. I do wish the author could have made it clear that this is Ash's life at this point but that it can change-for the better. There is a lot of catastrophizing of Ash's illness and sometimes it felt like there was no hope. Maybe that was the point, to make the reader feel like they are living in a depressive episode but I think it was to the detriment of the work the author put in to destigmatize bipolar depression. It made it seem like people with mental illness can't have long-term, healthy relationship. That the relationship will always be that of the ill person/ caregiver. The narrator did a wonderful job, especially with the Essex accent. Overall, a very enjoyable book with deep and profound moments that could have benefited from a bit more joy.

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lololovesthings's review against another edition

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challenging emotional funny reflective sad medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

4.5 stars!

"Glitterland" is another fantastic, emotional, beautiful book in author Alexis Hall's repertoire. This story is captivating, dark, honest, depressing, and powerful. Please check the trigger warnings as there are quite a few touchy topics discussed here. I appreciate how Hall can touch upon sensitive topics like suicidal ideation, bipolar disorder, and mental health with a mix of devastating frankness and shocking mirth. I will be thinking about Ash and Darian for months and years to come. What a couple of characters! This is one of the more interesting grumpy x sunshine books I have read. I have a hunch many readers will be turned off by Ash and his rude and frank but uncouth mannerisms. By all accounts, he is a huge w4nker. Still, I found him slightly endearing even with a mountain of flaws. His struggles are familiar, and I found myself identifying with him on many levels. I also saw a little of myself in Darian, who is a sweetheart of a person who radiates light and love and uniqueness. He knows who he is and isn't afraid to be exactly that person. He is naive where Ash is practical, and together, they complement each other in ways I didn't think would be possible given the selfishness of Ash at the start of the book. Darian tears down Ash's walls slowly but surely. Their pairing is complex and not without its faults and flaws, but they make it work best for them. These characters are spectacularly brought to life by audiobook narrator Nicholas Boulton. Talk about a fantastic performance! his shifting cadence, animated style, and various voices make this one of the best audiobooks I have ever had the pleasure of listening to. I just adored this book so, so much. I highly recommend it! 

Thank you to NetGalley, Alexis Hall, and Dreamscape Media for the complimentary ALC of this book. All opinions are my own. I was not compensated for this review.

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challenging dark emotional funny hopeful informative inspiring reflective sad tense fast-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

[[SPOILERS]] 
Okay, I absolutely loved this book. I found the characters like Darian very enjoyable and I liked how it balanced with Ash and how he has his struggles. There is a lot of talk of mental health and triggering scenes but it was done well and I liked how Darian stood by Ash even with not much understanding of bipolar. I found the dynamic of Niall, Ash and Max very interesting. Toxic but interesting in a way that I just want to know so much more about there Uni days. Overall i really loved the book which is why I give it 5 stars. It just made me feel so much emotion and it was done so well. I love Darian and Ash <3

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_isabel_'s review

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challenging dark emotional sad medium-paced

5.0

 What a ride. "Glitterland" was absolutely, freaking gorgeous.

I've been waiting for a chance to read this series, and the re-releases seemed like the perfect opportunity; I can't believe I ever doubted these books would work for me. Because wow: I think I love Alexis Hall the best when his writing and his stories are like this, an emotional punch to the gut in book form.

< I seized another kiss, swift and sweet from the corner of his lips. “All my smiles, you can have all my smiles, whenever I can find them.” “See,” he said, as though it was the simplest, most obvious thing in the world. >

I loved this book with my whole soul: it's packed with so much raw, unadultered angst and feels, so many hard, complex themes, and so many beautiful, hideous complicated human emotions. I read it at the precisely right time in my life as well: 2023 was a hard year for me, and seeing Ash struggle with his depression, with his out-of-control feelings, with his hopelessness, with not recognizing himself anymore, was hard, of course, but also cathartic. I think this genre needs more representation like his: it's important, necessary even, to see more mental health rep (and not only that!) on page, authentic, realistic, thought-through rep.

I didn't find the darkness to be overwhelming though: this is still a romance, and oh god, what a romance.
I didn't think it would work for me, but yep, it totally did: Ash and Darian's romance stole my soul. I loved them so damned much. They're so different from one another, but that's why they work; Darian's never known a different Ash, and Ash can be himself around Darian in a way he never could when so many people in his life are expecting the "broken, uncapable of change, bipolar depressive".

< “Darian. Darian.” He rolled over, tousled and lovely, blinking dazedly in the half- light. “What’s wrong, babes?” I stared at him, for a moment utterly speechless at the magnitude of everything. “I’m going to make you so unhappy,” I blurted out. “What? When? Can’t you like do it in the morning?” >


I loved their relationship, I loved how lighthearted and sweet and sexy they were with one another, and I loved their most difficult conversations and moments too.

Darian was a total sweetheart. I don't know how to describe him, but if I knew I person like him in my life, I'd probably be ready to go to war for them. He's lovely. Absolutely, 10000%, one of the loveliest love interests I've ever had the pleasure of meeting on page. He deserves the whole damned universe. He's funny and sweet and genuine and forgiving and friendly and kind, and just, the best person ever.

< “I’m not a fucking plural,” I snapped. “What?” I pointed at myself. “Item: one babe.”
“Ahwight,” he said. “Mister A.A. Winters, Esquire."


AND ASH. God, I don't know where to start, but boy, did I see myself in him. Not in his self-destructive ways, but in the way he's constantly doubting what he sees and feels and knows. He's complicated and rude and sarcastic and insecure and afraid, and I adored him even when I wanted to kick him (or maybe hug him?) for being all of that. I love a complex protagonist, a walking, talking contradiction of a mess of a MC, and Alexis Hall delivered (and then some) on that front.

The writing was lovely (if a bit flowery at times, BUT it was probably in line with the way Ash's mind works) and the humour was just right (and totally on brand for Alexis Hall: a bit hard, a bit rude, but thankfully it never reached Luc's levels) (YES, OKAY, after this one I will stop dropping hints about how angry "Husband Material" made me, I swear).
The romance was fantastic and the main characters stole my heart; the side characters were as complex and interesting as the two protagonists, and I wanted to hit Niall with something blunt, but I can't wait to read his book. Also, Amy? I loved her, I soooooo hope we'll get to see more of her (and Max, together thanks).
The ending was... abrupt, but thankfully there's an "Aftermath" short story that made it sweeter and more satisfying.

I'm excited to jump into book two! With brand new characters, but I can't wait to meet them.

TWs/CWs: mental illness (depression, bipolar disorder), suicide attempt and self-harm (referenced), panic attacks, one brief instance of biphobia (side characters), suicidal thoughts. 

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o3tri's review against another edition

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medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? No
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

1.5


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