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ellsbells02's review against another edition
adventurous
challenging
dark
emotional
sad
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
- Strong character development? No
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.5
An important story to tell, and wonderfully crafted with all the perspectives and timelines, however this is a very heavy book with a very dark subject and graphic depictions of real (and fictionalised) events. It took a long time to get into, and is not for the faint of heart.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Addiction, Drug use, Rape, and Sexual assault
laurarevelesg's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
2.5
"You're luckier than me, Jessie said, as if she were reading her mind.
Why? I miss my dad too.
Yes, but there's just too many ways to miss your mother. There's like a hundred thousand ways"
Me tomó 4 meses leer esta novela porque cada cierto tiempo tenía que dejarla debido a la dureza de sus temas. Ahora que la terminé, solo puedo decir que tengo sentimientos encontrados.
La protagonista, Marina, sufre de todo tipo de violencia. Leer sobre esto, tragedia tras tragedia, fue exhaustivo. Sin embargo, esto no quiere decir que la historia de Marina, así como la de otras mujeres (ficticias y reales) no sea importante o no deba ser contada.
Las notas de autor finales dan nuevos ojos para apreciar la novela, por eso, a pesar de que el "trayecto" fue duro, y pocas veces disfrutable, regresar a la novela da una sensación agridulce, pues es tan cruel como bella.
Algo que no disfruté fue la intercalación entre los capítulos y la narración del aswang. Me ppareció que me distraía más de lo que verdaderamente guiaba la historia. Además, como había capítulos muy largos, al llegar a la parte del aswang ya no recordaba muy bien todo lo que había sucedido anteriormente.
Why? I miss my dad too.
Yes, but there's just too many ways to miss your mother. There's like a hundred thousand ways"
Me tomó 4 meses leer esta novela porque cada cierto tiempo tenía que dejarla debido a la dureza de sus temas. Ahora que la terminé, solo puedo decir que tengo sentimientos encontrados.
La protagonista, Marina, sufre de todo tipo de violencia. Leer sobre esto, tragedia tras tragedia, fue exhaustivo. Sin embargo, esto no quiere decir que la historia de Marina, así como la de otras mujeres (ficticias y reales) no sea importante o no deba ser contada.
Las notas de autor finales dan nuevos ojos para apreciar la novela, por eso, a pesar de que el "trayecto" fue duro, y pocas veces disfrutable, regresar a la novela da una sensación agridulce, pues es tan cruel como bella.
Algo que no disfruté fue la intercalación entre los capítulos y la narración del aswang. Me ppareció que me distraía más de lo que verdaderamente guiaba la historia. Además, como había capítulos muy largos, al llegar a la parte del aswang ya no recordaba muy bien todo lo que había sucedido anteriormente.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Addiction, Alcoholism, Child abuse, Death, Domestic abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Emotional abuse, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Racial slurs, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Violence, Blood, Car accident, Murder, Gaslighting, Abandonment, Alcohol, Sexual harassment, and Classism
reading_and_roaming20's review
challenging
dark
emotional
sad
tense
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
I honestly don’t even know where to begin. Perhaps with a note to @fsgbooks to express how wildly grateful I am that they sent me this beautiful finished copy.
When I first read the synopsis, I was intrigued by the Filipino folklore and magical realism. I went in unsure of what to expect.
What I found was an unflinching, raw, difficult story of a girl who is faced with ugly, brutal circumstances. The story became more than the aswang’s mission to avenge Marina’s untimely death at the hands of a serial killer, and dove into an eye-opening social commentary on the child welfare system and missing women, particularly those of color.
I loved the alternating chapters of Marina’s journey to the time, place and person that ended her life and the aswang’s narrative. It felt as though MELISSA CHADBURN was holding my face in her hands, forcing me to keep looking at the scenes that unfolded in such a horrific way. It is natural to want to look away from such violence and heartbreak, but the trauma is not for shock value and has purpose. Brutal stories of so many women are represented in these pages and CHADBURN will not allow us to be willfully ignorant to them.
This is not to say that this book is nightmare through and through. CHADBURN’s unique writing drew me in and had its way of creating moments of tenderness and warmth. I look back on this book thinking about Marina’s sweetness and childhood innocence that were never entirely lost, even as her life eventually progressed to prostitution as a means of survival.
There was something special about the descriptions and storytelling that I can’t quite put into words. I simply adore CHADBURN’s writing style. I am blown away that this is a debut and will be thinking about it for a very, very long time.
TW / CW :: This book comes with a serious need to consider trigger and content warnings prior to consuming. Marina’s story is graphic and will not be for everyone. There are play-by-play accounts of r*pe, child abuse and drug use, among other potentially triggering topics. Please look into these further.
When I first read the synopsis, I was intrigued by the Filipino folklore and magical realism. I went in unsure of what to expect.
What I found was an unflinching, raw, difficult story of a girl who is faced with ugly, brutal circumstances. The story became more than the aswang’s mission to avenge Marina’s untimely death at the hands of a serial killer, and dove into an eye-opening social commentary on the child welfare system and missing women, particularly those of color.
I loved the alternating chapters of Marina’s journey to the time, place and person that ended her life and the aswang’s narrative. It felt as though MELISSA CHADBURN was holding my face in her hands, forcing me to keep looking at the scenes that unfolded in such a horrific way. It is natural to want to look away from such violence and heartbreak, but the trauma is not for shock value and has purpose. Brutal stories of so many women are represented in these pages and CHADBURN will not allow us to be willfully ignorant to them.
This is not to say that this book is nightmare through and through. CHADBURN’s unique writing drew me in and had its way of creating moments of tenderness and warmth. I look back on this book thinking about Marina’s sweetness and childhood innocence that were never entirely lost, even as her life eventually progressed to prostitution as a means of survival.
There was something special about the descriptions and storytelling that I can’t quite put into words. I simply adore CHADBURN’s writing style. I am blown away that this is a debut and will be thinking about it for a very, very long time.
TW / CW :: This book comes with a serious need to consider trigger and content warnings prior to consuming. Marina’s story is graphic and will not be for everyone. There are play-by-play accounts of r*pe, child abuse and drug use, among other potentially triggering topics. Please look into these further.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Child abuse, Drug use, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Violence, and Murder
Moderate: Addiction, Suicidal thoughts, Murder, and Abandonment
bookmaddie's review against another edition
challenging
dark
sad
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
3.5
I only vaguely knew about the subject matter of this book before going in, and I think it's definitely one that deserves a more detailed understanding of trigger warnings before beginning. Because, dang, this book is dark.
I knew it revolved around a girl named Marina and her killing by a serial killer in Canada, but I didn't realize how much darker and sadder the story would get as it delves into Marina's past and how she wound up at the hands of such a horrible man. And while so many horrible things are told within these pages, Chadbum writes with tenderness, understanding and hope.
Outside of subject matter, I did have a bit of trouble getting into the story. It took maybe 30% of the book for me to start getting into it and reading at a steadier pace. I think Chadbum's writing just didn't connect with me as much as I wanted it to. And maybe also had to do with the fact that a lot of the early narrative is about Marina as a young girl (below 11ish), and I feel like I don't enjoy narratives that focus on young children as much. When she got a bit older, I got more interested in the story.
I also thought the story might be a bit more mystical (and lyrical in the writing), so I think that threw me off a bit.
More of a 3.5 for me, but definitely one to pick up if you're interested in the premise!
Thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for providing me with an advanced digital copy for review.
I knew it revolved around a girl named Marina and her killing by a serial killer in Canada, but I didn't realize how much darker and sadder the story would get as it delves into Marina's past and how she wound up at the hands of such a horrible man. And while so many horrible things are told within these pages, Chadbum writes with tenderness, understanding and hope.
Outside of subject matter, I did have a bit of trouble getting into the story. It took maybe 30% of the book for me to start getting into it and reading at a steadier pace. I think Chadbum's writing just didn't connect with me as much as I wanted it to. And maybe also had to do with the fact that a lot of the early narrative is about Marina as a young girl (below 11ish), and I feel like I don't enjoy narratives that focus on young children as much. When she got a bit older, I got more interested in the story.
I also thought the story might be a bit more mystical (and lyrical in the writing), so I think that threw me off a bit.
More of a 3.5 for me, but definitely one to pick up if you're interested in the premise!
Thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for providing me with an advanced digital copy for review.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Addiction, Child abuse, Drug abuse, Drug use, Rape, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Murder, and Alcohol
Moderate: Confinement and Abandonment
tenten's review against another edition
dnf at 44%, which i know is a large chunk of the book and normally i would keep pushing through but this was too much, even for me. i normally have no issue with triggering content, i throughly enjoyed Roxane Gay's Difficult Women despite the heavy subject matter, but this ...
bad things already happened to Marina and i know there's more to come based on other reviews. the author of this novel has done reporting on the child welfare system and was featured on the Netflix doc, The Trials of Gabriel Fernandez so she's probably encountered some heavy horrible shit that might be the basis for the stuff that happens in this book. i couldn't even sit through five minutes of that documentary. this is too bleak for me, especially after just finding out about the SCOTUS draft opinion on overturning roe v wade. much too bleak.
i feel bad DNFing this, and i might pick it back up again considering it's not due back to the library for another 10 days and i'm already nearly halfway through it but idk man. it has great reviews and it is well-written and it's a debut by a woc featuring characters from a culture that i don't know much about but ... sheesh it's heavy
bad things already happened to Marina and i know there's more to come based on other reviews. the author of this novel has done reporting on the child welfare system and was featured on the Netflix doc, The Trials of Gabriel Fernandez so she's probably encountered some heavy horrible shit that might be the basis for the stuff that happens in this book. i couldn't even sit through five minutes of that documentary. this is too bleak for me, especially after just finding out about the SCOTUS draft opinion on overturning roe v wade. much too bleak.
i feel bad DNFing this, and i might pick it back up again considering it's not due back to the library for another 10 days and i'm already nearly halfway through it but idk man. it has great reviews and it is well-written and it's a debut by a woc featuring characters from a culture that i don't know much about but ... sheesh it's heavy
Content Warnings
Graphic: Drug abuse, Drug use, Rape, Sexual violence, Trafficking, and Murder
nini23's review against another edition
challenging
dark
3.0
A Tiny Upward Shove is a fictionalized account of a real life serial murder case that occurred in British Columbia, Canada. Canadians will instantly recognize the name Robert Pickton and 'pig farm, Port Coquitlam,' in association with a very grisly crime scene, the victims missing and murdered women from Vancouver's Downtown Eastside. https://www.thecanadianencyclopedia.ca/en/article/robert-pickton-case A wider government inquiry was launched from the lengthy serial killer investigation, into the Missing and Murdered Indigenous Women and Girls (MMIWG) in Canada, with an extensive report and recommendations released on this critical human rights issue and systemic failures. Progress on the recommendations https://globalnews.ca/news/8891593/mmiwg-action-plan-progress/
Accordingly, this novel has disturbing content which includes rape, sexual violence toward women and minors, drug use, separation of mothers from children by the state, sex trafficking, child neglect and abuse, racism, confinement, murder.
Onto this real life case, Melissa Chadburn has grafted a fictional backstory for Willie Pickton's forty-ninth victim - biracial American Marina Salles with a Filipino mother and Black absent father in the military. The text is liberally peppered with Tagalog. An omniscient narrator of Filipino folklore, a ferocious aswang, tells of how she has been in the maternal family for seven generations since the Spanish colonization of Phillipines. Young Marina grows up amid the teachings and admonishments of her lola (grandmother); how to behave as a female, how to get ahead in life.
I appreciate that the author is trying to highlight the socioeconomic disenfranchisement that led Marina to her ending. The issues confronting Vancouver Downtown Eastside then and now of prostitution, homelessness, poverty, trafficking, drugs, mental illness are complex. The women who went missing were met with official apathy and indifference, falling through society's cracks.
I do have a few concerns:
1) This is a real life case with family and friends of the missing and murdered still suffering the pain and trauma. Some of the proposed memorializations of the victims in different forms have been shelved on request by the victims' families or community groups https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/british-columbia/healing-garden-pickon-memorial-port-coquitlam-1.3580342 Note in particular that a painting exhibition and artist illustrations were both deemed distressing to the families. Did the families give permission for this literary rendering of their personal tragedy?
2) The main character Marina spends the majority of her teen years in Los Angeles, United States. She is in placement in her later teen years and after emancipation, lives on her own in LA before heading to Vancouver for a nebulous plot reason. A significant number of Pickton's victims were from First Nations communities
https://toronto.citynews.ca/2007/01/22/who-were-picktons-alleged-victims/ and small Canadian towns.
a) I noticed in the text that Canada was written as if it was an amorphous blob country eg 'Early the next morning, Sabine and Alex left the house and drove home to Canada. Their house sat high on a hill where trees whistle,...' and 'First she knew she needed money for rent, then money for a train ticket to Canada.' Where in Canada?! Ten provinces, three northern territories. Very different distances.
b) For MMIWG, the discussion would have to be about the Indian Act of 1876, broken land treaties, reserves, residential schools, sixties scoop, intergenerational trauma. Because of the Filipino American backstory that the main character is given, we get instead Spaniard colonialist history and the Rodney King LA riots.
c) If we're going to delve into socioeconomic inequalities that ultimately led to the tragedy, then it should be about these Vancouver Eastside dwellers. The vast difference in worlds between East Vancouver and West Vancouver. The harm reduction tactics in use there like safe injection sites. Availability of mental health and addiction recovery services. First Nations child welfare system. Housing unaffordability. The attitude and policing by the RCMP in the area, their ignoring of the initial reports of the crime because the witnesses were deemed 'unreliable.' Instead we get a detailed examination of the child welfare system in LA, child placements by the state and even exactly how much an emancipated teen gets for a stipend there. https://www.theglobeandmail.com/canada/british-columbia/article-jury-says-bc-should-stop-use-of-group-homes-for-indigenous-foster/
There are significant differences in the Canadian social security system, Canadian health-care delivery, Canadian political systems, Canada's laws governing prostitution, Canada's labour standard regulations. Even if the author is more well-versed in American inequalities and the LA child welfare system, it is disingenuous to shoehorn and graft that onto a Canadian national tragedy.
3) A thirteen-year-old Marina is raped and deliberately lies to the police about the identity of her rapist, naming instead her mother's boyfriend I don't think I have to explain why this storyline is disturbing especially when police are already disinclined to believe rape victims.
Thanks to Farrar, Straus and Giroux for providing an eARC via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
Accordingly, this novel has disturbing content which includes rape, sexual violence toward women and minors, drug use, separation of mothers from children by the state, sex trafficking, child neglect and abuse, racism, confinement, murder.
Onto this real life case, Melissa Chadburn has grafted a fictional backstory for Willie Pickton's forty-ninth victim - biracial American Marina Salles with a Filipino mother and Black absent father in the military. The text is liberally peppered with Tagalog. An omniscient narrator of Filipino folklore, a ferocious aswang, tells of how she has been in the maternal family for seven generations since the Spanish colonization of Phillipines. Young Marina grows up amid the teachings and admonishments of her lola (grandmother); how to behave as a female, how to get ahead in life.
I appreciate that the author is trying to highlight the socioeconomic disenfranchisement that led Marina to her ending. The issues confronting Vancouver Downtown Eastside then and now of prostitution, homelessness, poverty, trafficking, drugs, mental illness are complex. The women who went missing were met with official apathy and indifference, falling through society's cracks.
I do have a few concerns:
1) This is a real life case with family and friends of the missing and murdered still suffering the pain and trauma. Some of the proposed memorializations of the victims in different forms have been shelved on request by the victims' families or community groups https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/british-columbia/healing-garden-pickon-memorial-port-coquitlam-1.3580342 Note in particular that a painting exhibition and artist illustrations were both deemed distressing to the families. Did the families give permission for this literary rendering of their personal tragedy?
2) The main character Marina spends the majority of her teen years in Los Angeles, United States. She is in placement in her later teen years and after emancipation, lives on her own in LA before heading to Vancouver for a nebulous plot reason. A significant number of Pickton's victims were from First Nations communities
https://toronto.citynews.ca/2007/01/22/who-were-picktons-alleged-victims/ and small Canadian towns.
a) I noticed in the text that Canada was written as if it was an amorphous blob country eg 'Early the next morning, Sabine and Alex left the house and drove home to Canada. Their house sat high on a hill where trees whistle,...' and 'First she knew she needed money for rent, then money for a train ticket to Canada.' Where in Canada?! Ten provinces, three northern territories. Very different distances.
b) For MMIWG, the discussion would have to be about the Indian Act of 1876, broken land treaties, reserves, residential schools, sixties scoop, intergenerational trauma. Because of the Filipino American backstory that the main character is given, we get instead Spaniard colonialist history and the Rodney King LA riots.
c) If we're going to delve into socioeconomic inequalities that ultimately led to the tragedy, then it should be about these Vancouver Eastside dwellers. The vast difference in worlds between East Vancouver and West Vancouver. The harm reduction tactics in use there like safe injection sites. Availability of mental health and addiction recovery services. First Nations child welfare system. Housing unaffordability. The attitude and policing by the RCMP in the area, their ignoring of the initial reports of the crime because the witnesses were deemed 'unreliable.' Instead we get a detailed examination of the child welfare system in LA, child placements by the state and even exactly how much an emancipated teen gets for a stipend there. https://www.theglobeandmail.com/canada/british-columbia/article-jury-says-bc-should-stop-use-of-group-homes-for-indigenous-foster/
There are significant differences in the Canadian social security system, Canadian health-care delivery, Canadian political systems, Canada's laws governing prostitution, Canada's labour standard regulations. Even if the author is more well-versed in American inequalities and the LA child welfare system, it is disingenuous to shoehorn and graft that onto a Canadian national tragedy.
3) A thirteen-year-old Marina
Thanks to Farrar, Straus and Giroux for providing an eARC via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Alcoholism, Animal cruelty, Animal death, Child abuse, Confinement, Death, Drug abuse, Drug use, Gore, Mental illness, Rape, Sexual content, Sexual violence, Violence, and Blood
terriep's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
3.5
First, thanks to NetGalley and publisher Farrar, Straus, and Giroux for the chance to read this book.
This is definitely a story that needs to be told, BUT, it should come with some strong trigger warnings. Rape, abuse, drug use, child neglect, are all present and some in pretty vivid detail. This book is grim. Unrelentingly sad and just grim. BUT, the little sparkles of light here and there keep it from being too depressing.
This is the story of Marina, a girl being raised by an unprepared and self-absorbed single mother; of Alex, an unwanted baby who was severely abused as a toddler/child, and Willie, a boy who is abused and teased and has some diminished capacity. All these situations collide with huge force and tragic results. I could hardly stand to read about one more abuse. However, the friendship between Alex and Marina was such a bright spot, such an important event for both of them and I liked the way that was treated.
I did appreciate the tool of using the Filipino folklore of an avenging aswang who has been attached to Marina's family for generations, sort of an avenging angel. That technique allowed the aswang to view Marina's life as looking into her memory, so it put a step of removal between her and the reader (but it still was a harsh life). The goal of the aswang is to complete the main driving goal of the life it moves into - determining what that is becomes very important....and thus the view of Marina's past and intentions.
While I am aware that this kind of harsh life is suffered by many, this gritty story really brought all the heartache and sadness and depression to the top. I can't say it was an enjoyable read, but it was illuminating.
This is definitely a story that needs to be told, BUT, it should come with some strong trigger warnings. Rape, abuse, drug use, child neglect, are all present and some in pretty vivid detail. This book is grim. Unrelentingly sad and just grim. BUT, the little sparkles of light here and there keep it from being too depressing.
This is the story of Marina, a girl being raised by an unprepared and self-absorbed single mother; of Alex, an unwanted baby who was severely abused as a toddler/child, and Willie, a boy who is abused and teased and has some diminished capacity. All these situations collide with huge force and tragic results. I could hardly stand to read about one more abuse. However, the friendship between Alex and Marina was such a bright spot, such an important event for both of them and I liked the way that was treated.
I did appreciate the tool of using the Filipino folklore of an avenging aswang who has been attached to Marina's family for generations, sort of an avenging angel. That technique allowed the aswang to view Marina's life as looking into her memory, so it put a step of removal between her and the reader (but it still was a harsh life). The goal of the aswang is to complete the main driving goal of the life it moves into - determining what that is becomes very important....and thus the view of Marina's past and intentions.
While I am aware that this kind of harsh life is suffered by many, this gritty story really brought all the heartache and sadness and depression to the top. I can't say it was an enjoyable read, but it was illuminating.
Content Warnings
Moderate: Addiction, Child abuse, Drug use, Rape, Sexual violence, Murder, and Abandonment
_shannoncarroll's review against another edition
dark
emotional
sad
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.0
I made a mistake when I first picked up this book, and that was deciding I could read it while absolutely exhausted and waiting for the women’s Australian Open final to finally start (go, Ash Barty!). I decided I was being unfair to the story — this sounded exactly like the kind of book I’d love and deserved more than a half-awake reader — so I decided to give the book another go the next day with a fresh start. And I’m so, so glad I did, because this was a tremendous read. It’s a slow book that needs to be savored, not a book you can power through while your eyelids are demanding to close and your brain feels a bit fuzzy.
The storyline in this book is brilliant; threads are woven together elegantly. And all the (heartbreaking) happenings are talked about unflinchingly. It’s not an easy book to read, but it’s not meant to be. The topics covered here are hard, but they’re real. And the whisper of mythology in the background adds to a haunting sense — both by the aswang, a creature from Filipino folklore, and what’s happening to the characters inside these pages. Everything is rough and vulgar and falling apart, but it’s written about in such beautiful fashion, which almost makes what’s happening worse. It creates intricacies to the mundane.
As much as I was able to really get into the book, it still took me a little time to do so on my second start. Once I was about 15 percent of the way through, I found a rhythm, and some of the issues I was having with the writing no longer bothered me. In general, I think I had a love-hate relationship with some of the writing. (Well, maybe more like love-dislike.) There were times I was left stunned by Melissa Chadburn’s writing — its musicality, its boldness, its almost onomatopoeia-like energy — but there were other times I felt like I could skip two pages of prose and not really miss much of the story. Some brilliant writing felt bogged down by six other very good lines, which lessened some of the impact for me. It feels weird to say a book was overwrought with beautiful language and imagery, but this occasionally felt like the case.
This book is jam-packed with heart and longing, and the languid and descriptive writing does well to create an atmosphere that matches the plot. There’s an interesting sense of timelessness, which makes it clear that this book could really be written at any point in our history. These struggles are human and are happening all around us — and they’ll continue to do so with the broken societal structures in place. This is a heart-rending tale of life and all its ugliness, but it’s also a beautiful story of family and humanity.
Special thanks to NetGalley; Farrar, Straus and Giroux; and Melissa Chadburn for proving me with an ARC of this book in exchange for my honest review.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Child abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, and Murder
Moderate: Addiction and Drug use
Minor: Eating disorder and Suicidal thoughts