Reviews

"To see myself in that same way. To become another person. A person totally distinct from this someone I can't understand, don't want to understand. I want to heave a deep sign and call out my own name."

There's something about books with unreliable narrators that keeps you going, and this story with its messy characters and the reflection of the society in which showed the repercussions to victims when their voices had been repressed. A gray area that was used by the ones with higher advantage, by those who hold more power than they already think they have. In the oppression of women and their bodies, and mostly highlighting of the toxic culture that has been cultivated in education systems and the power play that revolves around it.

Honestly, I don't want to spoil the story that much to you guys. Its best to go into the book blind. What you'll have to know is that, for those who will be triggered by depiction of sexual assault, abuse, extreme gaslighting and rape , please proceed this book with caution. It contains a lot of scenes that are highly disturbing and the spiralling in one's mind, especially when it comes to going in the minds of a victim.

Looking back at the cover, the title and even thinking about the ending, I do feel that the author is quite the genius that she is. This book might not be for everyone, and there are parts in the book that I felt was longer than I expected, especially where the college drama had started. But, I do understand where the author is going ahead with the story, but I do wish that the issues stated at the front of the story narrated by one of the characters, had its own closure. However, in some ways, the imperfection of the book makes it more intriguing. I absolutely loved the different narrators in the story, especially in the first part of the book.

Overall, this book might not be for everyone, but its a book that spoke on the violence that has been done to women and how it had affected the victims longer than what the perpretors remembers. Its often ironic that when a crime is done, the one who is in on the receiving end was the one more affected by the ones inflicted on it. It also showed how some people will never really change, and that the perspectives of the characters in the story were told in such a way that can make you change your thoughts on them. Paired with sharp proses that will pierce your heart, this story is definitely one that I will remember for a long time.

4.25🌟 for this gem

Thank you so much to @definitelybooks for this copy!