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Dead Inside by Chandler Morrison

16 reviews

reading_beyond_the_book_cover's review against another edition

dark funny fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? Yes
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Miscarriage, Pregnancy, Medical content, Child death, Gore, Body horror, Car accident, Abortion, Sexual content, Addiction, Fatphobia, Drug use, Cursing, Blood, Cannibalism, Suicidal thoughts, Rape, Toxic relationship, and Suicide

dreamyari's review against another edition

dark tense fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

0.5

content warnings: necrophilia, rape, cannibalism, child death, animal death, gore, drug abuse, body horror, misogyny, self harm, miscarriage, abortion 

this is just like. shock factor porn for edgy incels. i wanted it to be more because i’m so desensitised and want something that will make me recoil and uncomfortable, and while the subject matter itself is enough to do that the writing is just so.. cringey? (“so I figured I’d bite the bullet and just do it, Nike-style” LIKE CMON) and i hate that word. i don’t know. this could have been so fucked up and engaging but instead it was just fucked up and embarrassing. so many of the positive reviews for this book stem from ‘well it’s fucked up and appalling because that’s the point!’ yes we know, but that doesn’t mean we don’t also deserve good writing and an actual plot over just the same gore porn for however many pages. extreme horror can be good! this is unfortunately not an example of that. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Drug abuse, Gaslighting, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Suicidal thoughts, Car accident, Drug use, Misogyny, Abortion, Animal death, Body horror, Cannibalism, Blood, Child death, Pregnancy, Self harm, Alcohol, Injury/Injury detail, Mental illness, Miscarriage, Murder, Pedophilia, Sexual content, Addiction, Fatphobia, Physical abuse, Violence, Death, Gore, and Rape

darrow69's review against another edition

challenging dark sad tense fast-paced

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Abortion, Gore, Sexual violence, Sexual assault, Violence, Suicidal thoughts, and Death

cherie_cheriri's review against another edition

dark funny reflective fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

Tiktok once more influenced this read and purchase, mostly to see if it was really as bad as people said it was. The cringe dialogue supposedly written by an edgey high schooler, the gore for the sake of shock and how extreme it can get cus it can, and people wanting Chandler Morrison to be on a watchlist and his internet search looked upon.
Besides all that, this is my first step into the splatterpunk genre, though I am the kind of person who watched the Hills have Eyes movies, and all of the SAW films so I can say that - while some stuff was creative I wasn't that affected by it in the want to go to church to confess my sins and or hurl over what I read.
What the hell is this book about? We have unamed security guard (that is never named so I ended up calling him Nick for a while) is a necrophiliac whom meets a maternity ward doctor who eats dead babies - and is higher than a kite, something you find out early on. So these two meet, and it's security guard having to now deal with another human living being that is honestly after reading it all is captivated by him cus he doesn't give a shit on wanting to be "normal" as Helen - our doctor - wants to be and something might bloom there, but he'll be damned if he does. It's a one sided love story on Helen's end and our security guard wanting nothing to do with it, seeing suffer was entertaining to say the least.
I'll be honesty, I ended laughing more than getting grossed out as it somewhat reminded me of the Evil Dead (2013) movie for some odd reason. But anyway, is the dialogue cringey? Sure, our security guard has a lot to say and is pretty apathetic overall that can get real old real fast. Is the gore for the sake of shock and how extreme it can get cus it get - absolutely. Should Chandler Morrison be on a watchlist, I don't know. A lot of people generally seem to dislike this book either due to its subject or they just dislike the writing, which makes me wonder for Morrisons other books as they have better ratings.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Body horror, Drug abuse, Drug use, Blood, Cursing, Rape, Child death, Death, Cannibalism, and Gore

Minor: Pedophilia, Sexual content, Medical content, Pregnancy, Sexism, Miscarriage, Suicidal thoughts, Abortion, Body shaming, and Self harm

necrophilia with woman of old to young, eating dead babies, descriptive gore and necrophilia acts

luckyseven's review against another edition

dark funny fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? N/A
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

1.25

There was a lot of potential for character development but this book was written for (tasteless) shock value.  Repetitive scenes and a wannabe edgelord.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Murder, Vomit, Suicidal thoughts, Car accident, Drug abuse, Rape, Pregnancy, Abortion, Child death, Cannibalism, and Gore

kathleenabby's review against another edition

dark tense fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? No

2.0

I just… I dunno this was all kinds of messed up. I don’t have words but I couldn’t put it down. It was horrific but I was weirdly fascinated by it from a psychological stand point. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Sexual content, Murder, Abortion, Blood, Body horror, Sexual violence, Cannibalism, Physical abuse, Rape, Sexual assault, Child abuse, Child death, Gore, Miscarriage, Death, Medical content, Pregnancy, Pedophilia, Self harm, Suicide, Suicidal thoughts, Violence, and Suicide attempt

becaboo77's review against another edition

dark tense fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? It's complicated
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

I don't even know what to say about this book! I feel like a terrible, dirty person for giving it the rating I did. I was NOT at all prepared for this. Ive heard stuff about it, but this... This was fucking insane! 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Mental illness, Sexual violence, Blood, Cannibalism, Child abuse, Gore, Rape, Self harm, Sexual assault, Suicide, Violence, Suicidal thoughts, Toxic friendship, Toxic relationship, Ableism, Body horror, Death, Drug abuse, Murder, Pregnancy, Miscarriage, Child death, and Drug use

The content warning, yeah it's a lot, but it has it all!!!!

fairytalefootnotes's review against another edition

dark fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.0

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Self harm, Sexual violence, Gore, Medical content, Child death, Death, Pregnancy, Drug abuse, Pedophilia, Cannibalism, Rape, Miscarriage, Blood, Body horror, Sexual content, and Suicide

Moderate: Abortion, Murder, Suicidal thoughts, and Infidelity

little_bean's review against another edition

dark fast-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? A mix
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? It's complicated
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

2.5

Almost DNF'd this. Bought after seeing it on Amazon and just thought "why the fuck not?" Holy shit. Bad, slow start until about 60 pages and then it started to pick up. I think the spicy scenes were a little unnecessary and being in the medical field, a lot of it was disengagingly unrealistic, but I honestly still enjoyed it. But the fact Helen even referred to herself as a "Maternity Doctor," that's not a thing! You're Obstetrician! Oh well, the end was honestly a surprising and appreciated twist. I couldn't see how it was going to end but that was definitely a decent way.

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Suicide, Sexual content, Body horror, Cannibalism, Death, Drug abuse, Miscarriage, Pregnancy, Blood, Gore, Suicidal thoughts, and Abortion

Moderate: Addiction, Drug abuse, Medical content, and Injury/Injury detail

Necrophilia

howlinglibraries's review against another edition

dark tense medium-paced

• Plot- or character-driven? Character
• Strong character development? No
• Loveable characters? No
• Diverse cast of characters? No
• Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

1.5

 

If only she were dead.
None of this would be an issue.
But she isn't.
She's alive.
And something has happened—is happening—and it terrifies me.

Let's go ahead and address the obvious: this book is hyped as an incredibly fucked up, extreme horror story, and it definitely fits the bill when it comes to depravity. The main character's necrophilia is on full display from the beginning, but we also delve into some scenes of cannibalism, pedophilia, and glorification of rape. Morrison doesn't hold back from the messy details in any way, so this isn't a book I'd recommend to anyone who isn't already accustomed to extreme horror.

All of that said, something about the detached and repetitive nature of the narrative voice made even the most disgusting and graphic scene in this book fall short of actually affecting me. I thought based on the hype that this would be the rare book that would be "too much", but honestly, I frequently found myself bored and wishing for the story to end.

I feel bad giving this such a harsh review, but I have to say my piece: the main character is so focused on being as much of an antisocial edgelord as he possibly can be, it overshadows the gruesomeness of the entire plot. I'm not saying I needed him to feel guilty or be less of a "monster", I just needed him to stop devoting his entire life to impressing 14-year-old white boys on reddit.

I see a lot of people saying Morrison's writing is brilliant and unique because all of this is intended as satire, and maybe that's true and I'm the one who's missing something here, but either way, Dead Inside didn't work for me, and not for the reasons I expected. I'm glad it's such a successful and harrowing novella for so many other people, but given that my issues with this story were so similar to my issues with the last Chandler Morrison novella I read, I'm thinking it's time to accept that his writing isn't for me.

Also, the character who talks about how much she loved being raped at 7 years old? That entire segment made my eyes nearly roll out of my skull. 

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Content Warnings

Graphic: Cannibalism, Suicide, Suicidal thoughts, Medical trauma, Pedophilia, Suicide attempt, Child death, Child abuse, Incest, Murder, Infidelity, Rape, Drug abuse, Medical content, Car accident, and Drug use