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vgartner's review against another edition
5.0
I started listening to the audiobook knowing that the author was Mormon and didn't receive a formal education until some later point in her life, but not really knowing much else about her story. Most of what I know about Mormonism comes from pop culture (The Book of Mormon, the drama Under the Banner of Heaven, etc.), and while this book is very much about a Mormon family, I wouldn't say I learned a much more about mainstream Mormonism from this memoir.
What Tara Westover centers in her writing is her childhood and adolescent experiences of physical and emotional abuse and her subsequent struggle to become herself and find an understanding of those experiences as part of her history but not the measure of her worth as a person. It's a story of survival and overcoming the deeply ingrained self-betrayal hammered into her via her abusive family members.
Many of her realizations and reflections on her experiences were familiar to me in my own path towards healing similar emotional wounds, but one passage in particular stopped me in my tracks with its clarity of insight:
This moment would define my memory of that night, and of the many nights like it, for a decade. In it I saw myself as unbreakable, as tender as stone. At first I merely believed this, until one day it became the truth. Then I was able to tell myself, without lying, that it didn’t affect me, that he didn’t affect me, because nothing affected me. I didn’t understand how morbidly right I was. How I had hollowed myself out. For all my obsessing over the consequences of that night, I had misunderstood the vital truth: that its not affecting me, that was its effect."
Westover excels at not only describing her experiences with vivid detail and raw emotional honesty, but in identifying how each experience contributed to the story of her life - what decisions she made (which decisions she felt she was able to make); how she tried so hard to exist according to the limits and expectations put to her; how, ultimately, she realized she could no longer continue to obey her family's twisted rules without losing herself totally; the utter devastation she felt in trying to choose herself over her abusers.
One theme that reappears throughout is her father's and brother's use of misogyny to belittle and control her, which, through the course of the book, she slowly begins to understand is just another way they can maker her feel worthless. What I find really interesting is the chapter when she is at BYU and discussing polygamy with a classmate, and how she feels so devalued by that part of her religion, and when prompted by her classmate, refuses at first to acquiesce to her classmates expectation that she simply "pray for faith" for her lack of understanding. She comes so close to explicitly connecting the misogyny employed by her male family members as a more general tool of subjugation of women sanctified by her church's teachings, but never goes there.
Throughout, Westover mostly avoids discussing her personal feelings about Mormonism directly beyond this scene and later, during her PhD, how her chapter on Mormonism was her favorite to write (though maybe this is not fair of me, as I consider her love of Mormon choir music as a more general human experience than specifically part of her faith, which maybe others would disagree with me about). My impression from what little she says and what all she does not say is that she never left her Mormon faith behind when she sought out a path independent from her family, and maybe is unwilling to open that part of her life to public knowledge and discussion. Part of me feels greedy in wanting to know more about how her beliefs changed during her time living as her own person. And possibly she simply decided that was too big a topic for the story she wanted to tell here. But I was left wanting just a bit more on this subject, although overall I wouldn't say the book felt incomplete at all!
Graphic: Bullying, Child abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Racial slurs, Sexism, Violence, Grief, Medical trauma, Car accident, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Sexual harassment, and Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Panic attacks/disorders, Terminal illness, and Stalking
summerashley's review against another edition
5.0
Graphic: Cancer, Child abuse, Death, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Physical abuse, Racial slurs, Racism, Sexism, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Medical content, Religious bigotry, Medical trauma, Stalking, Car accident, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , and Injury/Injury detail
greatexpectations77's review against another edition
4.5
Graphic: Bullying, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Toxic relationship, Religious bigotry, Car accident, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Child abuse, Misogyny, Sexism, Violence, Blood, Pregnancy, Abandonment, and Classism
Minor: Animal cruelty, Animal death, Cancer, Death, Gun violence, Racial slurs, Medical content, Grief, Stalking, and Alcohol
Big content warnings about bodily injuries.ealfving's review against another edition
5.0
Graphic: Bullying, Child abuse, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Sexism, Violence, Medical trauma, Stalking, Car accident, and Schizophrenia/Psychosis
hairtye's review against another edition
4.5
The only reason I did not give this book 5 stars was that I found the writing style slightly choppy. I find that memoirs can be like that (as it's a fast rendition of a life story), but it sometimes took me out when I wanted to learn more but the memory was already over.
Graphic: Body shaming, Bullying, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Violence, Blood, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Panic attacks/disorders
Minor: Racism, Religious bigotry, and Stalking
steenabean's review against another edition
4.5
Graphic: Child abuse, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Gore, Mental illness, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Racial slurs, Sexism, Torture, Toxic relationship, Grief, Religious bigotry, Stalking, Car accident, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Gaslighting, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Animal death
scoobygirl93's review against another edition
4.0
Graphic: Ableism, Animal cruelty, Animal death, Body horror, Body shaming, Bullying, Cancer, Child abuse, Chronic illness, Cursing, Death, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Gore, Gun violence, Mental illness, Misogyny, Panic attacks/disorders, Physical abuse, Racial slurs, Racism, Sexism, Terminal illness, Torture, Toxic relationship, Violence, Xenophobia, Blood, Vomit, Police brutality, Antisemitism, Medical content, Grief, Religious bigotry, Medical trauma, Stalking, Car accident, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Pregnancy, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Abandonment, and Injury/Injury detail
glitterdeww's review against another edition
5.0
In Educated, Westover has given an incredible, inspiring, and heartbreakingly traumatic story of her life. I know it will stay with me for the rest of mine.
Graphic: Bullying, Child abuse, Chronic illness, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Mental illness, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Racial slurs, Racism, Toxic relationship, Violence, Antisemitism, Medical content, Religious bigotry, Medical trauma, Stalking, Car accident, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Pregnancy, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Sexual harassment, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Animal cruelty, Animal death, and Panic attacks/disorders
taynicole2698's review against another edition
4.0
Graphic: Body horror, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Gore, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Sexism, Toxic relationship, Violence, Medical trauma, Stalking, Car accident, Fire/Fire injury, Gaslighting, Abandonment, and Injury/Injury detail
jspain's review against another edition
4.5
Graphic: Fire/Fire injury and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Animal death, Emotional abuse, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Medical content, Religious bigotry, Medical trauma, Pregnancy, and Gaslighting
Minor: Body shaming, Cancer, Child abuse, Confinement, Domestic abuse, Panic attacks/disorders, Racial slurs, Sexual content, Terminal illness, Blood, Antisemitism, Stalking, Car accident, Schizophrenia/Psychosis , Colonisation, and Classism