I want to start this review by addressing what other people are saying about this book. First, it is a young adult book and was marketed as such. This book is not steamy, it is not smutty. The most that happens is a bit of kissing. Expecting more from a young adult book seems like you weren’t actually expecting to read a young adult book. The sexiest moment of this story was when Aristelle and Xander did their dance together. That’s as spicy as it gets, people.
Second, I saw a lot of people felt the side characters weren’t likable or that there wasn’t enough supporting evidence that we should care about them. I strongly disagree with that point, as I felt like I got to know the side characters well enough to consider their well being and thoughts throughout the book. I felt like I found that I cared about their stories, especially Diantha and Reina. I felt they had a lot to offer the story and had some pretty badass moments, too. Aristelle was a bitch but that’s her character in a nutshell.
Lastly, some people said this book was too simple. I disagree. I found the novel to be appropriate for the age group, with enough complexity to be interesting. There were several moments with plot twists and surprises and I think they propelled the story forward. Overall, I felt this story was appropriate for the age group it was marketed towards.
As far my own personal review, I adored this story and was raving to my friends about it since the first day I read it. I was about 70 pages in and going off to my friend for 8 minutes straight about it. Right from the start, there were some really interesting lines that stuck out to me and pulled me in. I liked that the author gave metaphors and intriguing comparisons without super flowery language. To me that felt like a good way to keep the punches packed right. For example, Ava isn’t a flowery, soft spoken girl. She’s direct and to the point and she’s going to play her cards precisely. It made sense that the writing reflected that.
I felt like I really enjoyed how Fuston brought things full circle. For example I really enjoyed how she brought up Ava’s issues with the foster system multiple times throughout the book, which really brought the point across that she’s been through some shit without getting too traumatic when describing it. I also really enjoyed all the loose ends being tied up the way they were- it was a very satisfying ending, though I was hoping for something that suggested a second book.
I enjoyed the love triangle, even though it was clear who she really was going to choose from the start. I enjoyed getting to know both love interests, and I think they both had interesting stories and motivations.
The betrayals in this story hit hard. I felt like I was experiencing exactly was Ava was feeling with each betrayal. I was also proud of how she bounced back from each betrayal despite the odds being against her in some cases.
I adored the side characters. I was genuinely surprised with Stacie’s arc. I was appreciative of getting to know all the side characters, especially my beautiful lesbian couple, Reina and Diantha. Anyone who says they didn’t care about them didn’t read the book properly. Their stories were very interesting and kept me motivated to continue the story. I appreciated their badass moments, especially with the woman on the date and in some of the very end chapters.
I can’t write a review without talking about Xander and Roman. Oh how I loved these men. It was clear from the start she was going to pick Roman but I still loved the angst and the turmoil anyway. I loved Xander’s spunk and I loved how stoic and wide eyed Roman could be. The amount of times this man’s eyes widened at Ava in shock was comical and very sweet. I also appreciated that this story could have been good even if Ava didn’t end up with anyone romantically due to the (sort of) found family she gained along the way, as well as her actual family with Parker and the foster family.
All in all, this was a fast favorite and a beautiful five star read for me. Based on the cover alone, I had been anticipating this story to be incredible and I was quickly proven right. I will be rereading this story in the future as well as anything else Margie Fuston writes in the future.
Graphic: Bullying, Death, Violence, Blood, Grief, Death of parent, Fire/Fire injury, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Gun violence, Toxic relationship, and Vomit
Minor: Toxic friendship and Abandonment
There’s a brief mention where it’s suggested a man is attempting to take advantage of a woman sexually but the attempt is stopped by characters.