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clichemarker's review against another edition
5.0
"Men all hurt us in their own unique ways. None of us carry the same bruises."
It started a bit slow, but holy shit. Andrew J White hasn't missed yet.
Definitely read with caution, as there are a lot of tough topics here. The whole book has very impactful negative self talk. Also the medical details are pretty brutal (apparently accurate too). Just fantastically written
"I have never been anything but this. Neither of us have ever been anything but this."
Graphic: Ableism, Adult/minor relationship, Body horror, Child abuse, Deadnaming, Death, Emotional abuse, Gore, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Self harm, Torture, Transphobia, Blood, Medical content, Abortion, Death of parent, Pregnancy, and Injury/Injury detail
minanonim's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
4.75
Please check the trigger warnings before proceeding!
Subjectively, having grown up in a very religious community (although not being religious myself), the portrayal of misogyny and patriarchy really rang a bell. Above all else, what really stood out for me was the way different characters responded to the culture they were forced into. While frustrating at times, the book very accurately showed the double standards, the internalised misogyny, the fight/flight/freeze/fawn response each person has. It may be hard to understand or believe the actions of some characters by the end, but having personally experienced a similar cultural context, they were entirely believable and reminiscent of people in my own life.
Graphic: Body horror, Child abuse, Confinement, Gore, Misogyny, Transphobia, Blood, and Abortion
Moderate: Animal cruelty, Deadnaming, Death, Domestic abuse, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Physical abuse, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Torture, Forced institutionalization, Medical content, Religious bigotry, Murder, Pregnancy, Gaslighting, Colonisation, Dysphoria, Injury/Injury detail, and Classism
basil_touche's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.75
I also loved how Silas' experiences of transness and autism felt real and how these facets of himself are able to be explored without the modern terminology.
The one thing that kept it from being perfect was the love story, while it was sweet I felt that it needed more time to be fully convincing rather than just a relationship for survival.
However, I am still deeply impressed and I hope to read more of White's work in the future.
Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Body horror, Child abuse, Child death, Confinement, Death, Domestic abuse, Emotional abuse, Gore, Misogyny, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Self harm, Sexism, Suicide, Torture, Transphobia, Violence, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Medical content, Kidnapping, Grief, Medical trauma, Abortion, Suicide attempt, Murder, Gaslighting, Abandonment, Dysphoria, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Ableism, Bullying, Deadnaming, Mental illness, Panic attacks/disorders, Rape, Sexual assault, Sexual content, Sexual violence, and Pregnancy
Minor: Cursing, Suicidal thoughts, Vomit, Cannibalism, and Death of parent
ezpressomacchiato's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
this was so good! honestly haven’t read something this well written and attention-grabbing in a long time
the historical references are phenomenal! Andrew J. White did a fantastic job at depicting the realities of psychological abuse and what it does to a person
i also love how this book portrays the historical use of mental illness as a way to discredit people and justify their oppression and abuse, as well as how words like “sick”, “crazy” and “hysterical” have been weaponized against women and minorities
i am an extremely squeamish person and the medical gore in this book was at times hard to get through, so keep that in mind if you’re like me! regardless, i made it through and i loved it
the black pages containing the spirits’ perspectives were genius!!! i thoroughly enjoyed them and the depth they added to the narrative
i also love the trans, queer and neurodivergent representation! (Daphne, you own my heart, girl s2)
final notes: i hate cishet white men
Graphic: Mental illness, Misogyny, Pedophilia, Physical abuse, Self harm, Sexism, Sexual violence, Transphobia, Medical content, Medical trauma, Abortion, and Pregnancy
Moderate: Rape and Sexual assault
Minor: Miscarriage and Vomit
em_of_swags's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Graphic: Deadnaming, Gore, Violence, Blood, Abortion, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Ableism, Body horror, Sexism, Sexual assault, Transphobia, Forced institutionalization, Medical content, and Pregnancy
Minor: Animal death, Pedophilia, Religious bigotry, Death of parent, and Classism
milooo's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.5
Graphic: Gore, Abortion, and Sexual harassment
helixlhart's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
Graphic: Body horror, Deadnaming, Misogyny, Transphobia, Medical content, Medical trauma, and Abortion
Moderate: Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual violence, Forced institutionalization, Pregnancy, and Dysphoria
tamara_joy's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
4.0
Graphic: Adult/minor relationship, Biphobia, Body shaming, Confinement, Death, Emotional abuse, Gore, Homophobia, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Self harm, Sexual assault, Torture, Toxic relationship, Transphobia, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Medical trauma, Abortion, Murder, Pregnancy, Lesbophobia, Dysphoria, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Animal death, Grief, and Classism
Minor: Miscarriage and Pedophilia
joey_estrada's review against another edition
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
5.0
I am not as in touch with my identity, whether that be me being autistic or trans, as I'd like to be. Reading some of these descriptions and explanations and just the thoughts of the narrator was healing and safe as well as scary.
I enjoy reading fiction more than nonfiction/informational books, so being able to read someone's thoughts and feelings as an autistic trans person during certain events rather than in a clinical way was refreshing and comforting.
I like how the narrator talks about and compares things to surgery and the body. It was very interesting. The gorey scenes were also very well written and detailed in an interesting and easily understandable way.
Though the ending was beautifully and satisfyingly done, I'm sad to see these characters go.
Graphic: Deadnaming, Death, Gore, Misogyny, Physical abuse, Transphobia, Forced institutionalization, Blood, Medical content, Abortion, Murder, Pregnancy, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Panic attacks/disorders, Pedophilia, Self harm, and Sexual violence
Minor: Adult/minor relationship, Cursing, Vomit, and Dysphoria
uraveragelizard's review against another edition
4.75
Being in Silas' mind was so affirming and fascinating. First time reading a canonized autistic MC I think, and I was worried it would feel forced/too modernized, but I think it was so well done and interesting. There were a few moments that didn't flow easily, but I think it overall worked well.
I think he did a good job of riding the line of being inspired by history, and commenting on it with a modern lens, without being too disingenuous or trivializing.
And I thought the romance was a little cringe/a little too convenient at first. But whatever, it's fantasy ya for a reason. Suspend your disbelief, and it was v cute and compelling. + the discussions of him finding Daphne and the groundskeeper and realizing the disparate parts of his identity were so interesting.
also shame on me for underestimating the intensity of this because it's YA- damn. Def one of the darkest and most difficult-to-read-at-times novels I've read in a long time
Graphic: Body horror and Abortion
Moderate: Ableism, Sexual assault, and Transphobia