zellapaige's review against another edition
challenging
emotional
sad
slow-paced
- Strong character development? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
2.25
I rather hated this book. I don’t think that is the book’s fault though. This was sold to me as a romance, and while I think it technically qualifies for the genre, the romance is such a tiny portion of this book. Despite the characters all being mid/late 20’s this is a coming of age book way more than a romance. And a coming of age story filled with uniquely queer trauma I was entirely unprepared to read. The book is well written and interesting cover to cover, but if you are looking for a happy queer romance this isn’t the book for you. There is an incredibly satisfying happily ever after, but the queer trauma it takes to reach that point is a lot.
Sometimes she felt guilty for staying closeted at the bakery, both because she was pretending to be someone she wasn’t and because she was allowing her colleagues’ homophobia to go unchecked. (6)
This book is in a way a love story to Tusla. Tulsa has never been on my radar as a place with lots of cool stuff or somewhere I wanted to visit, but this book genuinely made me want to go. As a southerner along the Arkansas river the depiction of Tulsa’s queer community in the book felt so authentically familiar to me. That sense of small city tight knit southern queer community added a whole other layer to my new Tulsa appreciation. The way Tulsa and the character’s love of Tulsa shines in this book is one of it’s biggest strengths.
She picked apart each outfit in the mirror, trying to guess what kind of girl Charley might like. … Something simple would have to work until she figured out Charley’s type. (65)
The queer trauma in this book is overwhelming. Add to that the interpersonal conflict Amy experiences with her best friend in the book and this book felt like a chore to finish rather than an entertaining pleasure. While everything in this book ends happy Amy and her best friend Joel have a falling out in the book. Not only was that falling out painfully emotional, but felt horribly unrealistic for decade long best friends to literally not talk for months, rather than any kind of conflict resolution. Ultimately just not the read for me.
Amy worked so hard to always be positive and helpful, to make the day a little brighter for everyone she encountered. Joel and Damien were some of the only people around whom she’d felt like she could drop the act. Did that mean the true Amy was negative and draining to her loved ones? (279)
Book is oddly pro-oil/pro-fracking which felt weird for such an otherwise conscious queer book.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Outing and Homophobia
Moderate: Sexual content
Minor: Medical content and Cancer
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