A review by zoes_human
Heaven by V.C. Andrews

Did not finish book. Stopped at 13%.
This year, I decided to do a 12-book reading challenge. Or, if I'm being more accurate, I decided to buy the Book Riot Read Harder Challenge book log because it was beautiful, and it contained a challenge, so I'm doing it.

Anyway ... Challenge #2 is "Read a book you would normally consider a guilty pleasure". This was a problem for me. I don't have guilty pleasures. Philosophically speaking, I don't even believe in the concept except as a manifestation of the many things wrong with our society. If what you're doing isn't harmful to another and you enjoy it, it is simply a pleasure. I'm not embarrassed by the things I love. 

After some thought, I concluded that the closest I could get to this would be to pick up a book that I had loved in my early teens. Given how much I've changed over the course of a few decades, I was bound to find something to be embarrassed about in a book I loved then. If nothing from your teens gives you cause to blush as an adult, you probably didn't do it right. I settled on <u>Heaven</u> by V.C. Andrews, because I read it when it came out. I was 13, and, oh, how I loved V.C. Andrews. How I loved this book in particular. I tore through all of the books she had written and was genuinely upset when she died in 1986. 

I thought I might feel mildly embarrassed to have loved such a soap opera as a teen. I suspected the writing might not be that great. I vaguely hoped that I would find it to be good, that I would learn that even if my taste had been somewhat more salacious at that age that I still would find some familiar seed of quality in the book. What I have found is so much worse than I expected.

These books are absolute trash. Racist, classist, slut-shaming stereotypical garbage all mixed in with every trope ever to have come out of the unhappy mind of a properly angsty pubescent teen girl and strung together into a borderline magnificently bad story. 

I DNFed this book at page 58. I'm not sure how most folks feel about DNFing a challenge book, but it's my challenge, and I choose to save my sanity rather than finish this appalling rubbish.

Last, and most importantly, I am grateful not to be the girl who adored this book anymore. This aborted reread has utterly validated my belief that human beings are capable of deep and genuine change.