A review by haletostilinski1
Loose Cannon by Sidney Bell
5.0
4.5 stars
This was really good! So many times I was basically forced to put it down (work, school, sleep, etc,) and I REALLY didn't want to. Most of the book had me going "but I don't want to put it down, I want to keep reading until the end!"
I do feel that this was kinda light on the steam, and that while the chemistry was good between Miller and Church, that because Miller was SO resistant to them, almost throughout the whole book, because of his internal homophobia, it felt like the chemistry was less than it could have been. Because Miller held back, it felt like the writing was holding back too. Don't get me wrong, there were a few really hot sex scenes...but when Miller was uncomfortable, I felt uncomfortable, and even as he enjoyed the sex, there was still always a line or part of Miller's internal dialogue that was STILL uncomfortable with it at the same time, so it lowered the chemistry and steam for me at times.
Still, this book was engaging, the characters intriguing and complex (I REALLy want the book for Ghost. I think Ghost might have been my favorite character in this book, even though he was secondary - and kinda scary at times. But that just makes me want to see him find love all the more.) and never one sided or one dimensional. Making me both frustrated and happy with Church and Miller at times made me love the writing even more (as well as with Shelby, who I ultimately loved but who had her moments of "really???" from me) and the story.
Ultimately I get why Miller was so resistant, why he was so scared, but that didn't make my frustration with him go away, even as I understood him. Same with Church, when Church blamed everything on himself -- I get WHY, with what his father did to him, how he was abused -- but that didn't make not frustrated when he thought it was all his fault when he was really just at the wrong place at the wrong time.
These were two very flawed and very real men, who were ultimately good men, who made bad decisions sometimes and said stupid things - but ultimately wanted to do the right thing and help others.
Low on steam this may have been for me, but I still loved Miller and Church together, their connection, their bond, how they fell in love.
Definitely enjoyed this book a lot, and can't wait for the next in the series :D
This was really good! So many times I was basically forced to put it down (work, school, sleep, etc,) and I REALLY didn't want to. Most of the book had me going "but I don't want to put it down, I want to keep reading until the end!"
I do feel that this was kinda light on the steam, and that while the chemistry was good between Miller and Church, that because Miller was SO resistant to them, almost throughout the whole book, because of his internal homophobia, it felt like the chemistry was less than it could have been. Because Miller held back, it felt like the writing was holding back too. Don't get me wrong, there were a few really hot sex scenes...but when Miller was uncomfortable, I felt uncomfortable, and even as he enjoyed the sex, there was still always a line or part of Miller's internal dialogue that was STILL uncomfortable with it at the same time, so it lowered the chemistry and steam for me at times.
Still, this book was engaging, the characters intriguing and complex (I REALLy want the book for Ghost. I think Ghost might have been my favorite character in this book, even though he was secondary - and kinda scary at times. But that just makes me want to see him find love all the more.) and never one sided or one dimensional. Making me both frustrated and happy with Church and Miller at times made me love the writing even more (as well as with Shelby, who I ultimately loved but who had her moments of "really???" from me) and the story.
Ultimately I get why Miller was so resistant, why he was so scared, but that didn't make my frustration with him go away, even as I understood him. Same with Church, when Church blamed everything on himself -- I get WHY, with what his father did to him, how he was abused -- but that didn't make not frustrated when he thought it was all his fault when he was really just at the wrong place at the wrong time.
These were two very flawed and very real men, who were ultimately good men, who made bad decisions sometimes and said stupid things - but ultimately wanted to do the right thing and help others.
Low on steam this may have been for me, but I still loved Miller and Church together, their connection, their bond, how they fell in love.
Definitely enjoyed this book a lot, and can't wait for the next in the series :D