A review by pbanditp
The Dark Matter of Natasha by Matthew R. Davis
5.0
“Don’t tell me it’s wrong, that life is beautiful. It’s fucking not. So much easier now I don’t give a shit. Nothing hurts anymore.”-Natasha
I can’t express how this hit me correctly but I’ll try.
Told in the first person without ever given his name made me become the main character. This one is DARK because I see how rape changes people for the rest of their lives. It affects the victim and those close to them.
The longing for an apathetic Natasha who is overburdened with mental scars and absolutely drips sexuality.
Fuck…I became a teen again…you know it’s wrong, your head says no but then your mouth says “yeah, sure, I’ll follow you anywhere.” It was just so damn relatable.
You want to be in her presence, to help, to fix something that is so badly damaged. Her indifference to everything let’s you go where you never imagined, leaving you with a frustration of no reciprocation of feelings. You know she is wrong for you but you are helplessly drawn in.
The only thing Natasha expresses interest in is the band Slayer and the author drops a couple of song titles in the book like Easter eggs.
I started this yesterday and found myself not able to stop thinking about her and why good kids get lured in. I had to finish today as I could not let her haunt my thoughts anymore. I don’t think I’m free though.
Dance with the dead in my dreams,
Listen to their hallowed screams,
The dead have taken my soul,
Temptations lost all control.
SLAYER-Dead Skin Mask
I can’t express how this hit me correctly but I’ll try.
Told in the first person without ever given his name made me become the main character. This one is DARK because I see how rape changes people for the rest of their lives. It affects the victim and those close to them.
The longing for an apathetic Natasha who is overburdened with mental scars and absolutely drips sexuality.
Fuck…I became a teen again…you know it’s wrong, your head says no but then your mouth says “yeah, sure, I’ll follow you anywhere.” It was just so damn relatable.
You want to be in her presence, to help, to fix something that is so badly damaged. Her indifference to everything let’s you go where you never imagined, leaving you with a frustration of no reciprocation of feelings. You know she is wrong for you but you are helplessly drawn in.
The only thing Natasha expresses interest in is the band Slayer and the author drops a couple of song titles in the book like Easter eggs.
I started this yesterday and found myself not able to stop thinking about her and why good kids get lured in. I had to finish today as I could not let her haunt my thoughts anymore. I don’t think I’m free though.
Dance with the dead in my dreams,
Listen to their hallowed screams,
The dead have taken my soul,
Temptations lost all control.
SLAYER-Dead Skin Mask