A review by zooloo1983
The First Day of Spring by Nancy Tucker

challenging dark emotional sad tense slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? N/A
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

Gosh, this was a tough book. Weirdly not because of what had happened, because yes that is shocking and horrifying. But I found it tough because of what happened to Chrissie and how she was treated. Her entire life she was let down, and I will never look at Smarties the same way. It was shocking and damn right awful what happened to her. Chrissie didn't ask for any of that, and sadly she rebelled. However, this "rebellion" is not what we would consider normal, but you can see something break within her. How she described the judge, with the man in the white wig, and Linda's mum and her speech was heartbreaking for someone so young to hear. Someone so broken. She was not a happy child, she wasn't wanted by anyone and tried to force herself on her friends and families, to make them like her. All she wanted was to be loved and she needed to be rescued. 

Julia, a woman who is trying to run for her past, is just sad and existing, not living. Trying to "outrun" her past, but can anyone? Molly was her beacon of light,  no idea of the inner turmoil of her mum. 

It's not an easy book, and even though the ending happened, I didn't find it a happy one to some extent. The only way I can think of this being happy is if changes happened. If Julia made something of herself and found a way to live with her past and give Molly the future she deserves.

It's not an easy book to read, or listen to, which is what I did. The narrator got the aggression of Chrissie to a T. She got the hollowness of Julia too. The narrator truly captured the despair within these pages. It's a book that could haunt you for a while.