A review by lovelylittleladd
Swimming in the Dark by Tomasz Jedrowski

emotional hopeful reflective sad medium-paced

5.0

I think this is one of those books that will stick with me for a long time. I finished it about an hour ago and I still just keep thinking about it, pondering many of the concepts it makes you think about. I love historical fiction. I think this does a great job of being realistic for the place and time period it’s set in. I’m not the biggest fan of second person, but Jedrowski made it very likeable for me. It made sense with the narrative and Ludwik writing to Janusz. 

There is a LOT that can be discussed about this book which is super impressive to me considering it’s not even 200 pages! There are so many different lenses you can look at it from and discuss. I applaud Jedrowski. The pacing never feels too quick with it being a smaller novel. It feels quite natural! 

As a lesbian in the southern United States, I really admired the different takes the characters have on how to live and go through life. Although I don’t live in a communist nation and am in the 21st century, there’s still a lot that I resonated with. In the Southern United States, especially in the “Bible Belt,” there’s the constant question of “do I play it safe and abide by the traditions I’ve grown up around or do I choose a path of freedom that might feel quite lonely and alienating at times?” Sometimes, it’s a battle Queer people fight their whole lives. Some choose to be like Ludwik. Others choose to be like Janusz. Some go back and forth. Some never admit they are like either character. I don’t think there should be shame surrounding these choices. Oftentimes, the cards feel stacked against you as a Queer person in the world just simply trying to exist, especially in areas and countries where it doesn’t feel safe to do so. I really liked having the different perspectives and it made me reflect a lot. 

I also really admired that despite this not having a typical “happy ending,” it still gives you hope. I wouldn’t necessarily consider this a tragedy. It is sad, but unfortunately it’s quite realistic. It shows you that hope can always exist alongside pain. You can look for that light even when it feels dim or blown out. You can swim in the dark. You can do hard things. 

There’s so many other aspects of this book I could get into but I’ll choose to save it for book club. I cannot wait to discuss this with my book club tomorrow night!! Wonderful first book of the semester.