A review by lachateau
What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma by Stephanie Foo

adventurous hopeful informative inspiring

5.0

I got a recommendation from a friend to read this memoir.. He said that I would love it and it will make me burn in tears. Well, he hits the spot, though! Haha. I placed my hold about a month ago to have this copy from my library and I must say, this book speak volume for everything I feel and think all this time. It's like a midnight call, a study group with cup of pumpkin spice, and a paper for you to pursue. Foo declared the book will be the happy ending.. Once I realized that whether I will be ready to face it or not. She, also, normalize us to skip some of chapters in case it's too triggering. Well, yes, I felt that on the early chapter on her early ages when she gained lot of abusive behaviours from her surroundings. Pages turned by, they changed into... something more adventurous. A journey. 

It's a memoir about Stephanie Foo and her diagnosis to face her complex PTSD since she was a child until four years to go from her diagnosis. It taught us about a trigger: a reflexes designed to protect us from things our brain has encoded as threats. Traumatized brains tend to have an enlarged amygdala— a part of the brain that is generally associated with producing feelings of fear. How to the habit effected our entire life forward. 

This book offered us a whole scientific journal and we can access it freely too. Most memoir books I ever counted before never have this point, which makes me love this book even more. Maybe that's why the genre of this book also counted as self-help too! One of the method they used to measure the telomeres; that are like little caps on the ends of our strands of DNA that keep them from unraveling. As we get older, those telomers get shorter and shorter. When they've finally disappeared, our DNA itself begins to unravel, increasing our chances of getting cancer and making us especially suspectible to disease. Because of this tendency, telomeres are linked to human lifespan. They encore the polymerases chain reaction (PCR), a machine to measure the duplicate the DNA coded so we can read it through electrophoresis with the biomarkers (Foo had 6 for her hypothetical score which means the average of someone with > than that are sixty years). I learned it a lot in my major so it becomes more, more interesting to me. And be more precious to my understanding, too. 

They also offered us some research from mice-stress that came from inside each cell is both our DNA: or our genome and the epigenome, a layer of chemical markers that sits on top of our DNA. So the epigenome helps decide which genes actually get represented by our bodies. They encode a FKBP5 gene, which helps control stress regulation by comparing a Holocaust survivors and their descendants shared their same epigenetic tags and the Jewish people who lived outside Europe. Their epigenetic tags weren't altered. It was clear that the trauma of experiencing the Holocaust specifically created DNA methylation on the FKBP5 gene of survivors.. and their children. 

I have been dwelling in some therapy too and got homework from my doctor so I can live well, too. This book is quite similar with An Unquiet Mind by Dr. Jamison, another memoir that I've read but it comes from the therapist point of view. One thing I acknowledge here: she must have been through a lot until remember all of these to the details. How she was fighting through it all the time. The CBT, EDMR, and all sort kind of therapy to works on that.. there are lot of things to do to write gratitude lists which it comes as baseline seared by the pain of existence to living a largely satisfying life. How it comes to accept the lifelong battle and its limitations now. Even though we must always carry the weight of grief on our back, we have become strong. Our legs and shoulders are long, hard bundles of muscle. The burden is lighter than it was. We no longer cower and crawl my way through this world. Now, we hitch the pack up. And as we wait for the beast to come, we dance.

What My Bones Know is a book about survive, adventure, a whole journey... that someone probably have gone through in sort small part of their lives but have gone through that almost for the rest of their lives, too. This book isn't that triggering, for me. Since I expected highly from the title to show more of her dark days all alone, but thank God it didn't. It will show you more of research and all of her ten doctors journey that examined her to heal her completely. This book hits me close to home in so, so many ways until I don't realize that I have wrote this long.. but that's how dearly this book to me. 

"Experts say it’s all part of the three P’s: We think our sadness is personal, pervasive, and permanent. Personal, in that we have caused all the problems we face. Pervasive, in that our entire life is defined by our failings. And permanent, in that the sadness will last forever."