A review by heresmika
A Long Way Down by Nick Hornby

challenging dark emotional funny hopeful inspiring reflective sad fast-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.5

(maybe you should look at content warnings before reading the book / my review !)
every character in this book was so unlikeable, but i was still rooting for them. we follow four people who meet at the top of a tower, ready to jump off and end their lives. a mother with a highly disabled son, a teenage girl who is a little bit crazy and made some questionable actions, a guy whose band broke apart and hasn’t found anything to do with his life since, and a news broadcaster who went to jail after sleeping with a 15 years old. they have nothing in common other than wanting to end it all, and they all made a lot of mistakes.

i didn’t think that a story about suicide can be this ridiculous. i like how they just decided to fuck with the media and pretend an angel stopped them from jumping just to get money. this plot line is one of the silliest thing that i read, but i enjoyed every moment. they got to a point where they couldn’t see the consequences of their actions (since they didn’t believe they had a future), so they were okay with doing so much dumb shit.

the story is told from the pov of the four characters, and every few pages we switched to a different pov. there isn’t a lot of dialogue, but you can still understand all the characters because of quick changes in perspectives. 

my problem is that i genuinely disliked these characters; how can i support a married man who slept with an underaged girl and didn’t feel regret? martin’s character was just so horrible it ruined most of the story for me. jess was so judgmental and didn’t try to understand the others - but she was young and really improved towards the end. maureen said some uneducated stuff about the lgbtq+ community. and jj tried to romanticize suicide when he talked about why he wanted to do it.
they were better when they were together since they could hold each other accountable, but some of the scenes were uncomfortable. they didn’t have any empathy, and even when they tried to help each other, they were so rude.

i really enjoyed reading maureen’s story. it made me feel so sad, but she had some powerful lines :(
“So I didn't know what to say when Martin asked me if I really wanted to die. The obvious answer was, Yes, yes, of course I do, you fool, that's why I've climbed all these stairs… But there's another answer, too, isn't there? And the other answer is, No, of course I don't, you fool. Please stop me. Please help me. Please make me into the kind of person who wants to live, the kind of person who has a bit missing, maybe. The kind of person who would be able to say, I am entitled to something more than this.”

this sentence is so heartbreaking: “I was crying because all I wanted in the world, the only thing that would make me want to live, was for Matty to die. And knowing why I was crying just made me cry more.”

jess’ intervention was so sweet. she spend so much time trying to get support for the others (and hoping it might also help her), and i really wish she would have better luck in her future.

overall, interesting, and sometimes funny, story. even if i didn’t like everything, i found something to take away from it.