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Pageboy by Elliot Page

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5.0

Mini-review: If one thing was to be said about my early teenage years, it was that I was completely obsessed with Elliot Page. After watching Juno (my favourite movie of all time!), I would scour to find every film or TV show I could find with him (and, in all honesty, Michael Cera too) on it. When I found out Elliot was queer, I loved to think of him as a person who was happy while defying stereotypes — but now, after reading this book, I have a sour taste in my mouth. All the abuse, all the pain and suffering Elliot went through is inhumane. He did not deserve people taking advantage of him like that. No one does. In the end, I am just happy that Page is still with us, thriving and comfortable in his own body. If you are considering reading this book, be ready: as important and sad as it is, it is guaranteed to take the magic out of Hollywood (and the safe haven we sometimes think it is for queer people) for you.
Pageboy: A Memoir by Elliot Page

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5.0

Mini-review: If one thing was to be said about my early teenage years, it was that I was completely obsessed with Elliot Page. After watching Juno (my favourite movie of all time!), I would scour to find every film or TV show I could find with him (and, in all honesty, Michael Cera too) on it. When I found out Elliot was queer, I loved to think of him as a person who was happy while defying stereotypes — but now, after reading this book, I have a sour taste in my mouth. All the abuse, all the pain and suffering Elliot went through is inhumane. He did not deserve people taking advantage of him like that. No one does. In the end, I am just happy that Page is still with us, thriving and comfortable in his own body. If you are considering reading this book, be ready: as important and sad as it is, it is guaranteed to take the magic out of Hollywood (and the safe haven we sometimes think it is for queer people) for you.
Carrie Soto Is Back by Taylor Jenkins Reid

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  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

Mini-review: I had way too many thoughts going through my mind when I finished this book — and the truth is now, almost a month later, I still think about it on a regular basis! It is SO GOOD and definitely deserves all the hype it might have (even though I feel like it is TJR’s least talked about book — WHY?!). This is my third book by TJR this year, and I love how it cemented my love for her writing. Never in a million years would I think that I would say that a book about sports is now one of my all-time favourites. It deals, in a nuanced way, with topics such as discipline, self-respect and feminism. And throughout the book, even though I really wanted to, I could not force myself to hate Carrie Soto. Love it, love it, love it!
Sex and Lies by Leïla Slimani

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4.0

Mini-review: In a world obsessed with women's bodily and societal autonomy, Leïla Slimani cranks a window wide open into Morocco's reality. These raw reality bites help the reader frame the several faces of the Moroccan reality through stories of brave women and men who dare to speak up and out about these issues. If you are interested in feminist perspectives outside the Western world, this one is an excellent book to start with.
Malibu Rising by Taylor Jenkins Reid

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  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

Mini-review: Well, I guess TJR did it again? At certain times, I felt like I was almost getting into a reading slump with this one... Only to devour it through the description of the party of the century. While the characters and their stories seem like they just came out of the pages of a tabloid magazine, the truth is their actual personal stories pack up a punch. TJR brilliantly showed us, once again, that nothing is what it seems. Underneath all the glitz and glam, celebrities are humans, just like you and me. Carrie Soto awaits me now.
Dear Dolly by Dolly Alderton

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4.0

Mini-review: More and more, I am convinced that Dolly Alderton could perfectly be my therapist. She's the best agony aunt, especially with all her Normal People references. Loved it!
Dear Dolly: On Love, Life and Friendship, Collected wisdom from her Sunday Times Style Column by Dolly Alderton

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4.0

Mini-review: More and more, I am convinced that Dolly Alderton could perfectly be my therapist. She's the best agony aunt, especially with all her Normal People references. Loved it!
Crying in H Mart by Michelle Zauner

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5.0

2023 Reading #13 | Spring (& AAPI Heritage Month) Reads
(Did I finish this book, or did this book finish me?)
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Mini-review: did I just finish this book, or did this book just finish me? Reading Crying in H Mart was a whole experience: having been both in Michelle’s and, more recently, Chongmi’s shoes, this book had a whole lot of triggers for me. I was always on the verge of crying, but the flood works only really came at the very end. I had to take many breaks while reading to clear my head, and sometimes I even felt like I was dissociating, having some sort of out-of-body experience… yet I persevered. And I am so glad I did. Hands down, one of the best reads of this year!
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Looking for an extraordinary memoir delving into questions of identity, loss and nostalgia? Look no further, Michelle Zauner has got your back! Crying in H Mart was an absolute powerhouse, captivating me from the very beginning with Zauner’s seamless storytelling. Her ability to perfectly convey her emotions in a way you could (almost) feel them resonated with me on a deeper level.

Zauner starts her narrative by reflecting on her childhood and the constant struggle to find her place in the world. Navigating between Korean and American cultures, she grapples with a burning desire to belong and the societal pressures that come with it. The glimpses we get from her visits to Seoul lead one to realise how disconnected she feels — and it is truly amazing to see how it all starts to shift when she loses her mother and embarks on a soul-searching journey through her Korean heritage. Traditional Korean food is the catalyst, leading Michelle to immerse herself in H Mart (a Korean grocery store) and find a meaningful way to honour her mother.

Among its many memorable moments, Crying in H Mart’s most impactful parts were the ones concerning Zauner’s raw and brutal accounts of how it is to see a loved one battling cancer. Having dealt with this awful disease on both sides of the spectrum, I can only say this book meant a lot to me. I felt seen in more ways than one, both as a caretaker and patient. The pain, the apathy and the agony she described are very, very real. At times, it was so profoundly triggering that I had to take a step back and take a breather before I could keep going. Even if, in the end, I was lucky to have never personally experienced such a loss, I am grateful to have read this. It gave me the opportunity to confront my own conceptions of death and grief. Needless to say, it will always make me feel deeply and personally connected to Michelle.

This book serves as a poignant reminder of the importance of cherishing and appreciating our loved ones — especially our parents/parental figures — while they are still with us. It emphasises the urgency to express our love, gratitude and respect towards them. The void their absence will leave might be unbearable, but not having reminded them of how much you love(d) them can be overpowering. That is why this memoir goes beyond the boundaries of a typical mother-daughter story: it is a hauntingly beautiful portrayal of the fragility of life. It left me on the verge of tears SO MANY TIMES, devastated but wanting to read more, feeling the inevitability of what I was being told yet not wanting to believe it. In the last stretch of the book, the flood works came in full force — and, obviously, I had to call my mom afterwards.

Now, whether she knows it or not, Michelle Zauner and I are friends for life. I will read anything she puts out. Her wisdom, her humour, her writing — nothing is short of remarkable with her. Every new page made me feel a connection, making this book an emotional journey like no other. I am immensely grateful to Zauner for sharing her story with the world. It is truly a masterpiece, solidifying Zauner’s talent as a writer and a musician as a force to be reckoned with.


[Read between 3 May 2023 - 12 June 2023. | Review written on 24 June 2023. || I am also on Bookstagram and Goodreads as @asreadbycatarina!]
Crying in H Mart by Michelle Zauner

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5.0

2023 Reading #13 | Spring (& AAPI Heritage Month) Reads
(Did I finish this book, or did this book finish me?)
_______

Mini-review: did I just finish this book, or did this book just finish me? Reading Crying in H Mart was a whole experience: having been both in Michelle’s and, more recently, Chongmi’s shoes, this book had a whole lot of triggers for me. I was always on the verge of crying, but the flood works only really came at the very end. I had to take many breaks while reading to clear my head, and sometimes I even felt like I was dissociating, having some sort of out-of-body experience… yet I persevered. And I am so glad I did. Hands down, one of the best reads of this year!
_______

Looking for an extraordinary memoir delving into questions of identity, loss and nostalgia? Look no further, Michelle Zauner has got your back! Crying in H Mart was an absolute powerhouse, captivating me from the very beginning with Zauner’s seamless storytelling. Her ability to perfectly convey her emotions in a way you could (almost) feel them resonated with me on a deeper level.

Zauner starts her narrative by reflecting on her childhood and the constant struggle to find her place in the world. Navigating between Korean and American cultures, she grapples with a burning desire to belong and the societal pressures that come with it. The glimpses we get from her visits to Seoul lead one to realise how disconnected she feels — and it is truly amazing to see how it all starts to shift when she loses her mother and embarks on a soul-searching journey through her Korean heritage. Traditional Korean food is the catalyst, leading Michelle to immerse herself in H Mart (a Korean grocery store) and find a meaningful way to honour her mother.

Among its many memorable moments, Crying in H Mart’s most impactful parts were the ones concerning Zauner’s raw and brutal accounts of how it is to see a loved one battling cancer. Having dealt with this awful disease on both sides of the spectrum, I can only say this book meant a lot to me. I felt seen in more ways than one, both as a caretaker and patient. The pain, the apathy and the agony she described are very, very real. At times, it was so profoundly triggering that I had to take a step back and take a breather before I could keep going. Even if, in the end, I was lucky to have never personally experienced such a loss, I am grateful to have read this. It gave me the opportunity to confront my own conceptions of death and grief. Needless to say, it will always make me feel deeply and personally connected to Michelle.

This book serves as a poignant reminder of the importance of cherishing and appreciating our loved ones — especially our parents/parental figures — while they are still with us. It emphasises the urgency to express our love, gratitude and respect towards them. The void their absence will leave might be unbearable, but not having reminded them of how much you love(d) them can be overpowering. That is why this memoir goes beyond the boundaries of a typical mother-daughter story: it is a hauntingly beautiful portrayal of the fragility of life. It left me on the verge of tears SO MANY TIMES, devastated but wanting to read more, feeling the inevitability of what I was being told yet not wanting to believe it. In the last stretch of the book, the flood works came in full force — and, obviously, I had to call my mom afterwards.

Now, whether she knows it or not, Michelle Zauner and I are friends for life. I will read anything she puts out. Her wisdom, her humour, her writing — nothing is short of remarkable with her. Every new page made me feel a connection, making this book an emotional journey like no other. I am immensely grateful to Zauner for sharing her story with the world. It is truly a masterpiece, solidifying Zauner’s talent as a writer and a musician as a force to be reckoned with.


[Read between 3 May 2023 - 12 June 2023. | Review written on 24 June 2023. || I am also on Bookstagram and Goodreads as @asreadbycatarina!]
Severance by Ling Ma

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  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

2023 Reading #14 | Spring (& AAPI Heritage Month) Reads
(When life imitates art.)
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Mini-review: Well, I found a new favourite dystopia! This book is SO good it took me out of a reading slump. Taking a jab at our capitalistic workaholic society, it is the perfect critique of the modern world. Plus: it is impressive how the unfolding of the COVID-19 pandemic seems to be an exact enactment of certain parts of this 2018 book. If you are still struggling with what has been happening in our world since 2020, I would leave it for later. (I am not, but I still had to pause my reading several times because the similarities made me uncomfortable.) The ending was kind of dull and rushed but rather than that, it is nothing short of perfect!
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Wow, wow and wow again.
Get ready to be blown away by Ling Ma’s Severance. This brilliant literary fiction dystopia subtly and metaphorically defies notions of capitalism, work and humanity, all against the backdrop of a chilling pandemic… Relatable much? Eerily enough, published in 2018, this book mirrors in detail our own collective experience during the COVID-19 outbreak.

At the heart of the narrative lies the enigmatic Shen Fever, a strange and mysterious illness that spreads rapidly across the globe. Originating in China, it is caused by microscopic fungal spores lingering in the air, pushing its victims into a zombie-like state, unconsciously repeating mundane tasks until they eventually die.

Against all odds, our somewhat unloveable protagonist, Candace Chen, seems to be immune to the Fever and we get to closely follow her tumultuous journey, both before and after the pandemic’s outbreak. She often grappled with her personal opinions on the state of the world, especially on the fevered, and witnessed first-hand how the city of New York transformed as the pandemic progressed. While most of the world rapidly succumbed to the Fever, Candace kept on working in an empty office. In true millennial fashion, she kept worrying about her performance in a doomed world. There was always a looming sense that the apocalypse is near — when it was, in fact, already there. Eventually, she woke up to reality and miraculously found her way to a group of survivors in a quest to find their own promised land.

Candace’s story is one of (immigrant) family dynamics, being a millennial in a capitalistic world obsessed with work, and ultimately survival. In a patchworked timeline, it explores the influence nostalgia and memory can have on a quarter-life existential crisis — or, in this particular case, in an apocalyptic world. Candace can be annoying sometimes, but her authenticity and relatability make it impossible to not empathise with and root for her.

Reading this book back in 2020, during the height of the pandemic, when I first bought it, seemed like a daunting thing to do. Even the thought of reading it was too triggering at times. But now, with some distance from that alternative reality, I can say it was strangely comforting. Ling Ma brilliantly portrayed our society’s predictability in the face of adversity, with very realistic characters, reactions and situations that hit close to home. Her satirical and dark humour, which I would have once so vehemently despised out of fear, provided me with a paradoxical solace, offering a fresh perspective on my own anxieties. Nevertheless, I would still recommend you to think about your triggers before reading it.

Even though I initially did not like the ending and even considered it dull, I ended up having a revelation about it. Candance led Bob into fully succumbing to nostalgia and becoming fevered by telling him stories of the past and asking him how he felt about being back in a place that reminded him of his childhood. However, in the process, she inadvertently lead herself down the Fever path: her mom suddenly appeared to her in visions (when it clearly did not happen before), talking to her coherently, advising her on what to do… This was probably the beginning of the Fever for her. And what other reason could she have to disregard the low gas warning sign, keep going until the car stopped and then just keep walking? She then began living in Jonathan’s own memories of Chicago… and the rest is history.

In conclusion, Severance is an unforgettable book, a true testament to Ma’s skilful storytelling and thought-provoking ability. Her exploration of societal themes, coupled with the unsettling familiarity of the pandemic backdrop, creates an immersive reading experience — one that will stay with you long after you finished it.


[Read between 24 May 2023 - 27 May 2023. | Review written on 18 June 2023. || I am also on Bookstagram and Goodreads as @asreadbycatarina!]