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Normal People by Sally Rooney
challenging
dark
emotional
hopeful
informative
inspiring
mysterious
reflective
sad
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
I've actually watched the adaptation first before reading this one. Of course, watching it had made me read this, though I don't thoroughly enjoyed the story, I love how realistic and humane the characters are. There were moments I could relate to them and kept asking myself: if given their situations, would I have reacted the way they did or it depends as we all are individuals with different personalities.
This book tackles more on the characters personalities and situations and doesn't really depend on the plot. I think the plot depends on the characters very much.
Though, admittedly, reading the book made me understand them better, like there were moments from the show that seemed ambiguous, though reading this does that too but by reading this, there's a specific certainty that that was the understanding.
Kept thinking about how to review this book, as it was told chronologically and just by dates told in chapters and if there was something that happened, it was told in a flashback. I felt like I was also watching the adaptation whilst reading this.
I think, I would like to discuss more about the characters here, particularly our protagonists, Marriane Sheridan and Connell Waldron.
Firstly, their personalities are somewhat unlikeable but I love their humaneness and their vulnerability. The way they were written are so humane that I felt like I was inside of them, being able to read and savor their thoughts. They are role models characters in a way that you get to learn something from them. Also, they felt genuinely real, maybe even someone that someone can relate to.
Connell for me embodied the term "nice guy". He is a nice guy but that doesn't mean he was good or kind person for that matter. This was shown through the years of interaction with him and Marianne. During their years in high school, though he didn't bully Marianne (he also didn't stop others from bullying her except that one time when Marianne was assaulted during a party but they were ready fucking that time), he did somewhat taken advantage of her, setting a parameter between him and her so called relationship that seems to involve only around sex and that Marianne should never ever tell anyone about it. Then somehow he felt bad when Marianne stopped going to school altogether when he invited Rachel to the Debs (somehow the way he tried to evade any responsibility about that and acted somehow felt like a manipulation or gaslight though I don't know if it was for the people around him or maybe to himself). Later in college he met Marianne and their lives are entangled again but this time there's a huge gap between them as it has been now evident in his conciousness their massive disparity on their social classes. Though I don't like how he initially treated Marianne, specially emotionally, he knows he has to work om himself and he did. Just like how Marianne describe him at the end that his life has opened into new and different directions which also offers that Connell will be shaped and changed into something different. Hopefully something good different.
On Marianne's, I just feel generally sorry for her. Admittedly, I also feel incredulous the way that she lets Connell treated her at the beginning and then whilst reading, you slowly understand the psyche that had led her to grow the way she is. Unfortunately, just like the rest of us, it's also up to Marianne to heal herself. It's just that somehow, as it was evident that both characters were academically smart, both of them unfortunately are dense and are unintelligeable emotionally. A lot of their issues stems from miscommunication. Connell giving vague comments and Marianne giving apathetic response. But both of them shows their vulnerabilities to one another, though there's openness between them, if still puzzles the readers how they could miscommunicate the way they did in the book. Sometimes I think, their socio-economic class did affect their interaction somehow as Marianne is comfortable whilst Connell is struggling. Probably why Connell felt he had to continually prove himself, not just because of his class status but also because of the reputation that envelops him and his mother. Marianne, though, knows there is disparity between their social classes, acts that it doesn't affect her but there are this subtle hints, that sometimes comes off as ignorant and insensitive to Connell, such as that scholarship grant in their school or that she could somehow slack off of her future, not just because she doesn't know yet what she'llbe but also because she has the security of her money.
I think the reason that Marianne wasn't able to discern's people's intentions towards her was because of her family situation. This was evident when she realized Peggy and Jaime's true colors when Joanna gave her opinion. Probably why on early of her and Connell's relationship, she also tolerated Connell's attitude towards her.
I also loved that as flawed as they were, both Connell and Marianne recognized their flaws and tried to improve themselves to be better. For instance, as nearing the end, Connell realized how he had the hold between his and Marianne relationship and how also over the years he also tend it and took it to his advantage. By recognizing this pattern, he was able to improve himself to be a better person, ro be an actual good friend to Marianne, trying to understand her and constantly proving that he loved Marianne and that Marianne is loved. For Marianne, during her stay on Sweden, we then finally see how she finally realize and acknowledge her feelings, like the way others treated her (such as Peggy, Jaime and Lucas) was not what she was supposed to be treated as. Slowly, she was able to acknowledge the trauma she endured in her family and was able to stop avoiding it but confront it finally, that the treatment she received from these people and her family are not because of who she is but ratherof who are they themselves. She was able to break the cycle of enduring the pain but acting nonchalantly but confronting it and wanting to heal herself.
Also, there were scenes from the adaptation that didn't much make sense to me that finally made sense after reading. Like Lukas as he was just briefly introduce and it felt like Marianne also tolerated his treatment of her and that somehow, these rumors about Marianne liking it when people hurt her was shown in tge adaptation but it bug me because I don't think Marianne really did that (but in the book, there was some certainty that she didn't, she just stayed quiet and endured it). Another one was Connell's relationship with Helen seems so abrupt in the adaptation but the book explore that further. Which actually helped to add some character to Helen and what her significance to Connell's life and in his relationship with Marianne. I think, Helen was Connell's safe choice. Like if he was like 'normal people', he would end up with Helen and they would have a normal life. But there's this magnetic pull between him and Marianne, that even if they seemed to not get in touch, once they see each other, both of them couldn't help themselves but fall back into their dynamic.
Whilst reading, I also wonder why the title was Normal People and was it because both of them think unlike most 'normal' people? But I can't help but think that they are normal peopel and maybe people just had this notion that sometimes they aren't 'normal' enough for societal expectations. Also, I think Connell is really severely anxious while Marianne is depressed. Somehow, as Connell's anxiety worsens, he had thoughts of actually killing himself which made me think: Connell wants to die while Marianne does not want to live and I know it felt like they are the same thing but I assure you not. Whilst Connell wants to die because of her crippling anxiety near the end of the book, Marianne does not want to live as she tolerated the way people treat her, like she's giving up. She already felt like a ghost, constantly wandering amongst the crowd.
Though one big question comes to mind was do Marianne and Connell loved each other or was it just their co-dependancy and the fact that they've know each other for a long time that they've confused it with romance? I liked to think that in the end, it was more of the former. I think it is, but there is this uncertainty if just like before, will theh be able to get back to one's another lives or will their roads goes comepletely away from each other? Though we aren't shown their actually healed selves, I loved that the ending insinuated that kind of path, that we've seen how much they suffered and endured those pain and now they are in their healing journey.
This book tackles more on the characters personalities and situations and doesn't really depend on the plot. I think the plot depends on the characters very much.
Though, admittedly, reading the book made me understand them better, like there were moments from the show that seemed ambiguous, though reading this does that too but by reading this, there's a specific certainty that that was the understanding.
Kept thinking about how to review this book, as it was told chronologically and just by dates told in chapters and if there was something that happened, it was told in a flashback. I felt like I was also watching the adaptation whilst reading this.
I think, I would like to discuss more about the characters here, particularly our protagonists, Marriane Sheridan and Connell Waldron.
Firstly, their personalities are somewhat unlikeable but I love their humaneness and their vulnerability. The way they were written are so humane that I felt like I was inside of them, being able to read and savor their thoughts. They are role models characters in a way that you get to learn something from them. Also, they felt genuinely real, maybe even someone that someone can relate to.
Connell for me embodied the term "nice guy". He is a nice guy but that doesn't mean he was good or kind person for that matter. This was shown through the years of interaction with him and Marianne. During their years in high school, though he didn't bully Marianne (he also didn't stop others from bullying her except that one time when Marianne was assaulted during a party but they were ready fucking that time), he did somewhat taken advantage of her, setting a parameter between him and her so called relationship that seems to involve only around sex and that Marianne should never ever tell anyone about it. Then somehow he felt bad when Marianne stopped going to school altogether when he invited Rachel to the Debs (somehow the way he tried to evade any responsibility about that and acted somehow felt like a manipulation or gaslight though I don't know if it was for the people around him or maybe to himself). Later in college he met Marianne and their lives are entangled again but this time there's a huge gap between them as it has been now evident in his conciousness their massive disparity on their social classes. Though I don't like how he initially treated Marianne, specially emotionally, he knows he has to work om himself and he did. Just like how Marianne describe him at the end that his life has opened into new and different directions which also offers that Connell will be shaped and changed into something different. Hopefully something good different.
On Marianne's, I just feel generally sorry for her. Admittedly, I also feel incredulous the way that she lets Connell treated her at the beginning and then whilst reading, you slowly understand the psyche that had led her to grow the way she is. Unfortunately, just like the rest of us, it's also up to Marianne to heal herself. It's just that somehow, as it was evident that both characters were academically smart, both of them unfortunately are dense and are unintelligeable emotionally. A lot of their issues stems from miscommunication. Connell giving vague comments and Marianne giving apathetic response. But both of them shows their vulnerabilities to one another, though there's openness between them, if still puzzles the readers how they could miscommunicate the way they did in the book. Sometimes I think, their socio-economic class did affect their interaction somehow as Marianne is comfortable whilst Connell is struggling. Probably why Connell felt he had to continually prove himself, not just because of his class status but also because of the reputation that envelops him and his mother. Marianne, though, knows there is disparity between their social classes, acts that it doesn't affect her but there are this subtle hints, that sometimes comes off as ignorant and insensitive to Connell, such as that scholarship grant in their school or that she could somehow slack off of her future, not just because she doesn't know yet what she'llbe but also because she has the security of her money.
I think the reason that Marianne wasn't able to discern's people's intentions towards her was because of her family situation. This was evident when she realized Peggy and Jaime's true colors when Joanna gave her opinion. Probably why on early of her and Connell's relationship, she also tolerated Connell's attitude towards her.
I also loved that as flawed as they were, both Connell and Marianne recognized their flaws and tried to improve themselves to be better. For instance, as nearing the end, Connell realized how he had the hold between his and Marianne relationship and how also over the years he also tend it and took it to his advantage. By recognizing this pattern, he was able to improve himself to be a better person, ro be an actual good friend to Marianne, trying to understand her and constantly proving that he loved Marianne and that Marianne is loved. For Marianne, during her stay on Sweden, we then finally see how she finally realize and acknowledge her feelings, like the way others treated her (such as Peggy, Jaime and Lucas) was not what she was supposed to be treated as. Slowly, she was able to acknowledge the trauma she endured in her family and was able to stop avoiding it but confront it finally, that the treatment she received from these people and her family are not because of who she is but ratherof who are they themselves. She was able to break the cycle of enduring the pain but acting nonchalantly but confronting it and wanting to heal herself.
Also, there were scenes from the adaptation that didn't much make sense to me that finally made sense after reading. Like Lukas as he was just briefly introduce and it felt like Marianne also tolerated his treatment of her and that somehow, these rumors about Marianne liking it when people hurt her was shown in tge adaptation but it bug me because I don't think Marianne really did that (but in the book, there was some certainty that she didn't, she just stayed quiet and endured it). Another one was Connell's relationship with Helen seems so abrupt in the adaptation but the book explore that further. Which actually helped to add some character to Helen and what her significance to Connell's life and in his relationship with Marianne. I think, Helen was Connell's safe choice. Like if he was like 'normal people', he would end up with Helen and they would have a normal life. But there's this magnetic pull between him and Marianne, that even if they seemed to not get in touch, once they see each other, both of them couldn't help themselves but fall back into their dynamic.
Whilst reading, I also wonder why the title was Normal People and was it because both of them think unlike most 'normal' people? But I can't help but think that they are normal peopel and maybe people just had this notion that sometimes they aren't 'normal' enough for societal expectations. Also, I think Connell is really severely anxious while Marianne is depressed. Somehow, as Connell's anxiety worsens, he had thoughts of actually killing himself which made me think: Connell wants to die while Marianne does not want to live and I know it felt like they are the same thing but I assure you not. Whilst Connell wants to die because of her crippling anxiety near the end of the book, Marianne does not want to live as she tolerated the way people treat her, like she's giving up. She already felt like a ghost, constantly wandering amongst the crowd.
Though one big question comes to mind was do Marianne and Connell loved each other or was it just their co-dependancy and the fact that they've know each other for a long time that they've confused it with romance? I liked to think that in the end, it was more of the former. I think it is, but there is this uncertainty if just like before, will theh be able to get back to one's another lives or will their roads goes comepletely away from each other? Though we aren't shown their actually healed selves, I loved that the ending insinuated that kind of path, that we've seen how much they suffered and endured those pain and now they are in their healing journey.
Pan's Labyrinth: The Labyrinth of the Faun by Guillermo del Toro, Cornelia Funke
adventurous
challenging
dark
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
mysterious
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
5.0
I have watched the movie adaptation of this when I was a kid, and rewatched it again when I was an adult. Now, I've read it and I felt like I was watching it all over again, this time though, there were additional scenes or content which felt like a bonus for reading.
Though, my advice is that, be prepared before you read this. This book (much like the movie) opens itself as a hauntingly dark-tale historical fantasy with touch of reality. We are introduced to Ofelia as she travels together with her pregnant mom to live with her new stepfather (which is a very cruel and evil man) in a mill inside a very dark forest in the country.
Though the story jumps back and forth between the reality of living in the current time of that world and also the dangerous adventures Ofelia goes to prove herself to be the reborn/reincarnation of a princess from an underground kingdom, the story is captivating and engaging, it felt like watching it again in my head. Also, I loved the added content, particularly the stories on how the Princess Moanna got lost and wandered the Upper Realm and how that reached the story being told in the book.
And of course, as much as the actors acted and conveyed emotions from the film, something about reading their innermost feelings and thoughts added much to this already brilliant story.
Though, I'm sure that even some adults would find this book a bit gruesome, I think it is a must read book, as though it shows the horrors of the reality at that time, it also gave hope and inspiration, does not matter the suffering, good will eventually overcome the evil of this world. Also the incorporation of the reality with the fiction world within it, kinda like how fictional stories borrowed from real events or stories.
Also chapters with names and the filler chapters that filled the books are also a brilliant bonus content as it detailed too how long the princess was gone and how it is connected to the present timeline of the book. How the stories are all connected, both the fantasy and reality part of the story.
Though, my advice is that, be prepared before you read this. This book (much like the movie) opens itself as a hauntingly dark-tale historical fantasy with touch of reality. We are introduced to Ofelia as she travels together with her pregnant mom to live with her new stepfather (which is a very cruel and evil man) in a mill inside a very dark forest in the country.
Though the story jumps back and forth between the reality of living in the current time of that world and also the dangerous adventures Ofelia goes to prove herself to be the reborn/reincarnation of a princess from an underground kingdom, the story is captivating and engaging, it felt like watching it again in my head. Also, I loved the added content, particularly the stories on how the Princess Moanna got lost and wandered the Upper Realm and how that reached the story being told in the book.
And of course, as much as the actors acted and conveyed emotions from the film, something about reading their innermost feelings and thoughts added much to this already brilliant story.
Though, I'm sure that even some adults would find this book a bit gruesome, I think it is a must read book, as though it shows the horrors of the reality at that time, it also gave hope and inspiration, does not matter the suffering, good will eventually overcome the evil of this world. Also the incorporation of the reality with the fiction world within it, kinda like how fictional stories borrowed from real events or stories.
Also chapters with names and the filler chapters that filled the books are also a brilliant bonus content as it detailed too how long the princess was gone and how it is connected to the present timeline of the book. How the stories are all connected, both the fantasy and reality part of the story.
The Halloween Tree by Ray Bradbury
adventurous
challenging
dark
emotional
hopeful
informative
inspiring
mysterious
reflective
sad
tense
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
5.0
I was initially going to give this book a 4.5 because I generally thought it'd be like a children's book guide to Halloween but it was so much more than that. Something about books that explain things like grief or death (as long as its properly presented) will always have a soft spot for me.
I Loved You in Another Life by David Arnold
adventurous
challenging
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
reflective
sad
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.5
Did the review by parts of the books so be warned, spoilers ahead.
Part One: Requiem
I was genuinely thinking that I should dnf this book, but knowing myself, I knew I wouldn't. So far, it's not that great but I wouldn't say it's worse. This book seemed to have a good story, but there's something about it that felt like the story drags. We're introduced to both Evan and Shosh (somehow, very strange names) and their lives. So far, that's it.
Part Two: Nocturne
I think, for this part, it focused more on their own families, particularly their relationships with their siblings. Though, still waiting for something better (and a reason why I read this), so far it actually got good. Though, it bothered me how Evan's chapters seems longer than Shosh here. Also, that Evan knew Shosh but not personally, just someone he heard before or maybe passed by at school someday but never taking notice.
Part Three: Fugue
I felt there's not much that happened here. Also, I just realized that every chapter of Evan is on the first perspective POV while Shosh is on the third perspective POV.
Part Four: Sonata
Evan and Shosh cross paths in this part that most of their POV's are still focused on their own lives (which is nice as we get to glimpse their insides thoughts). At the same time, though both characters seemed to be well-written, in a sense that they have their own lives and personalities, it felt that the plot of the story is getting nowhere and I felt like I'm reading two different books, like they are not that connected as what I initially thought. But maybe things will change especially now that both seemed to figured out that they both hear the Nightbird and that hauntingly beautiful voice and songs.
Part Five: Minuet
I think I may have finished this one the fastest, and I like the growing interaction between the two leads. I just felt bad somehow that Evan had purposely misses his submission to Headlands, and just like what Maya said to him, that eventually if he kept on waiting fir bad things to happen, it will eventually happen. Also, so fat, of all the end stories in each chapter, The New York one is the one I liked the most.
Part Six: Opus
The protagonists' lives seemed great, as both had decided to continue their dreams, even though that means Evan and Shosh will spend their time apart. Also, I was initially proud that Shosh was slowly avoiding alcoholic beverages but then she lapsed and that helped her to realize that she indeed needed help. Nothing wrong with that, just that, we're nearing the end and it felt so sudden, like rushed, as we're nearing the end. Not that it surprised me, more like it felt flat, like I could see it coming. And I now felt that the title dis so much for thus book and the book didn't live up to it.
Part Seven: Coda
So, I finished it till the end, and while I won't reread this book, it was nice that I was able to finished it. Something about changing for the better even if you've failed or that we feared things such as bad things will happen even if they aren't happening now, that we forget that we only have one life to live and that should not stop us from trying, from achieving our dreams. It is not too late for anything, we all have our own pace, our own time.
I think though, I might have liked this book when I was younger.
Part One: Requiem
I was genuinely thinking that I should dnf this book, but knowing myself, I knew I wouldn't. So far, it's not that great but I wouldn't say it's worse. This book seemed to have a good story, but there's something about it that felt like the story drags. We're introduced to both Evan and Shosh (somehow, very strange names) and their lives. So far, that's it.
Part Two: Nocturne
I think, for this part, it focused more on their own families, particularly their relationships with their siblings. Though, still waiting for something better (and a reason why I read this), so far it actually got good. Though, it bothered me how Evan's chapters seems longer than Shosh here. Also, that Evan knew Shosh but not personally, just someone he heard before or maybe passed by at school someday but never taking notice.
Part Three: Fugue
I felt there's not much that happened here. Also, I just realized that every chapter of Evan is on the first perspective POV while Shosh is on the third perspective POV.
Part Four: Sonata
Evan and Shosh cross paths in this part that most of their POV's are still focused on their own lives (which is nice as we get to glimpse their insides thoughts). At the same time, though both characters seemed to be well-written, in a sense that they have their own lives and personalities, it felt that the plot of the story is getting nowhere and I felt like I'm reading two different books, like they are not that connected as what I initially thought. But maybe things will change especially now that both seemed to figured out that they both hear the Nightbird and that hauntingly beautiful voice and songs.
Part Five: Minuet
I think I may have finished this one the fastest, and I like the growing interaction between the two leads. I just felt bad somehow that Evan had purposely misses his submission to Headlands, and just like what Maya said to him, that eventually if he kept on waiting fir bad things to happen, it will eventually happen. Also, so fat, of all the end stories in each chapter, The New York one is the one I liked the most.
Part Six: Opus
The protagonists' lives seemed great, as both had decided to continue their dreams, even though that means Evan and Shosh will spend their time apart. Also, I was initially proud that Shosh was slowly avoiding alcoholic beverages but then she lapsed and that helped her to realize that she indeed needed help. Nothing wrong with that, just that, we're nearing the end and it felt so sudden, like rushed, as we're nearing the end. Not that it surprised me, more like it felt flat, like I could see it coming. And I now felt that the title dis so much for thus book and the book didn't live up to it.
Part Seven: Coda
So, I finished it till the end, and while I won't reread this book, it was nice that I was able to finished it. Something about changing for the better even if you've failed or that we feared things such as bad things will happen even if they aren't happening now, that we forget that we only have one life to live and that should not stop us from trying, from achieving our dreams. It is not too late for anything, we all have our own pace, our own time.
I think though, I might have liked this book when I was younger.
Bunny by Mona Awad
adventurous
challenging
dark
hopeful
mysterious
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.5
Okay, so first things first. So just like how I reviewed The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue, I shall also review this book by its parts. Its in three parts. And because I have a memory of a freaking goldfish, I'll write everytime I think or feel something from reading this. Be warned, spoilers ahead:
Also, I do not know what kind of book this is only that I saw a synopsis that this is a combination of the Heathers movie meets Han Kang's The Vegetarian and sadly I am familiar with neither of them. Of course, that means that reading this might require a lot more focus and understanding, as I had no idea what this book is about or what is about to happen.
Part 1:
So, after reading the first three chapters of this, I still have no idea where this is going. Only that the Bunny title might pertain to the group of girls the protagonist hates in this book and then suddenly she is being invited in their inner circle. But like the protagonist, Samantha Heather Mackey loathes this group, because they look and sound obnoxiously condescending but I can't help but think that Sam's friend Ava is a bit contemptuously condescending to, particularly to this Bunny group. But like Sam has this inner struggle, like I can't help but think that she also want to fit in, like as much as she loathes this "Bunny" group, she also wants what they have, probably riches and comfort because it had also been heavily implied that Sam is struggling or is poor.
Also, it's been five chapters and I can't help but think that the protagonist uses a lot of animals to describe people? Kept thinking if there's a connection to the next chapters or will it be some sort of relevance in the further chapters. It might be because of the title itself.
I can't help but distrust the protagonist somehow. Is it really true, about the violence and rape and decapitations that she shares about her city? Or is it just to make this story better? Because the protagonist unintentionally admitted that she is in fact a pathological liar. Because lying makes her stories better.
But still, I can't help but empathize with the protagonist. I don't know why but sometimes she had this thoughts that she feels she isn't good enough and that's why she apologizes a lot, to mask herself. Also, if Ava really didn't care about Samantha hanging out with the Bunnies, why would she evade or ignore her for two weeks? Also, when Sam approached her, Ava acted apathetic and cold, but it felt like she insinuated the rabbit fur that she wears. Also, that annoyingly condescending tone Ava spoke to Sam, saying that she knows she's better than the bunnies (maybe true but still). I was hoping for a good female friendship, not infused with jealousy or envy to be honest.
Okay, so as I ended the last chapter on this part one, I felt like in a way, even I couldn't trust the protagonist fully. I kept thinking if what she saw is actually true or did she overdid her storytelling? Or maybe it is really true but because Samantha is already hinted as a liar that us, the readers, makes us distrust her? Is the storytelling bending towards that?
And also, I really like that it seems we're onto the horror part of this story. I mean the way that part one ended makes you questions what is happening even though we already had a glimpse of what's happening. But yeah, what is really happening? How is that happening? I mean how can they conjure that creature?
Part Two:
I think this part shows Samantha's descent into Bunnyness.
The first chapter of this is kinda chaotic mess because I think it was in Sam's perspective then I can't help but think it isn't because Sam addresses them the way the Bunnies addresses the people around them. And somehow, as Sam is slowly being integrated into the group, she's also been into their secrets, such as the Hybrids are all axed up. I genuinely thought they were and now I can't help but have this theory: is the Lion one of those Hybrids? I mean, it's bizarre how Eleanor/Duchess knew about Sam's writer's block. Also, it felt that she is the leader of the group, I think she is the one who recruited them all and manipulated them. Anyways, I'll probably comment on this as we read further.
Also, now I am very confused. Because everyone is addressed as Bunny, I do not know which of the bunny they are talking about or which bunny whatever it is.
I genuinely thought Ava would try her best to persuade Samantha of joining the Bunnies (I mean Ava was right on calling the bunnies a cult) but I felt saddened that she just left and said she'd be leaving the place. Also, apart from the brainwashing, I kept thinking how the bunnies was able to indoctrinated Sam. Was it something about the pills she was given or just the way they talk to her? Soothing and convincing?
And to the juicy part (I think?) where Samantha got to conjure her Hybrid but instead she failed. But did she really failed? I kept thinking that it wasn't a bunny that she transformed but the stag that she saw earlier on that chapter. Also, the guy that they think she conjured was shown again in the next chapters or so, I genuinely thinks he's Samantha's.
Also, I was a bit worried about Samantha as she was let go from the group. I meant atleast she was let go from that cult but she's alone as she Ava wasn't seen again, only for the very last chapter that Samantha was able to find her way to Ava's home.
Also, if the guy Samantha met on the bus stop is her "bunny", why does he seemed humane than the others? Was it perhaps, unlike the Bunnies, Samantha has a truthful heart. Like she actually know what love is. Though, truth be told, I actually thought that Samantha will end up in a romantic relationship with Ava, I dunno why, I just felt the chemistry between them.
Also, it's really easy to fall into madness when you're alone and poor. I still think that Samantha's upbringing also contributed but let's face it, being poor does bring a lot of problems. Having some money or more money would help, as long as you don't end up being materialistic and greedy about it.
Part Three:
I don't know but what the hell? Is Ava involved with the guy on the bus wearing a trench coat who's actual name is Max ? I genuinely thought it was Samantha's bunny. Oh well.
Also, as we are nearing the end, of course, there has to be a twist or something but so far, I still have no idea what it is. But my theories are still in the open, like the Lion might be a bunny. But now, I can't help but think, that what if Ursula/Fosco also is a Bunny, like one of the bunny girls? But so far those are just theories.
Okay but like as I read further, Samantha is convinced that Max is her bunny but like is it really? Also because of that cryptic message from the Bunnies? I also now felt confused reading.
Okay, so now I am really convinced that Max is really Sam's bunny which is kindly unsettling because he's having sex with Sam's friend Ava and maybe, just maybe, he's also screwing with the other bunnies. But I feel kinda terrified for Sam and Ava because I think there's something terrifyingly sinister with the bunny Max as he felt somewhat stalkerish? Couldn't really put my finger around it though.
Also, I have to agree with Ursula/Fosco on her takes of the Workshop. That the girls (so far, except Samantha) had let themselves be saved/destroyed by a boy and not just boys but a single boy in seems which actually brought the worst of them and their downfall. Though I like that they are somewhat disbanded, something about female's monstrosity when a man is involved doesn't sit right with me. I know it might be the narrative, how boys are such manipulators, I just didn't like the idea that the women were easily manipulated and broke their friendship over a boy (though, I think, it was easy to break as even Sam could feel that as much love they try to share with each other, there was somekind of a silent hate they also shared with one another).
Okay, so I didn't expect that the biggest twist was that Ava was also one of Sam's creations? But there were subtle hints and when Sam realized it, that was the time I also realized it too. The different eyes, the mesh gloves, and that we know little of Ava's past. That was such an awesome plotwist but like I am not too happy about it because I really love Ava and Sam's friendship. And the second to the last chapter, I also kept chanting that Sam should behead those girls or that her creation, Max, should do it. But like I like how they came to that conclusion. This book just shows how much ugliness some female friendships are, especially when they revolved around boys. Also, it's nice that it ended in a hopeful tone, that Sam is slowly back to reality, interacting with real people, and not those girl bunnies.
Also, I do not know what kind of book this is only that I saw a synopsis that this is a combination of the Heathers movie meets Han Kang's The Vegetarian and sadly I am familiar with neither of them. Of course, that means that reading this might require a lot more focus and understanding, as I had no idea what this book is about or what is about to happen.
Part 1:
So, after reading the first three chapters of this, I still have no idea where this is going. Only that the Bunny title might pertain to the group of girls the protagonist hates in this book and then suddenly she is being invited in their inner circle. But like the protagonist, Samantha Heather Mackey loathes this group, because they look and sound obnoxiously condescending but I can't help but think that Sam's friend Ava is a bit contemptuously condescending to, particularly to this Bunny group. But like Sam has this inner struggle, like I can't help but think that she also want to fit in, like as much as she loathes this "Bunny" group, she also wants what they have, probably riches and comfort because it had also been heavily implied that Sam is struggling or is poor.
Also, it's been five chapters and I can't help but think that the protagonist uses a lot of animals to describe people? Kept thinking if there's a connection to the next chapters or will it be some sort of relevance in the further chapters. It might be because of the title itself.
I can't help but distrust the protagonist somehow. Is it really true, about the violence and rape and decapitations that she shares about her city? Or is it just to make this story better? Because the protagonist unintentionally admitted that she is in fact a pathological liar. Because lying makes her stories better.
But still, I can't help but empathize with the protagonist. I don't know why but sometimes she had this thoughts that she feels she isn't good enough and that's why she apologizes a lot, to mask herself. Also, if Ava really didn't care about Samantha hanging out with the Bunnies, why would she evade or ignore her for two weeks? Also, when Sam approached her, Ava acted apathetic and cold, but it felt like she insinuated the rabbit fur that she wears. Also, that annoyingly condescending tone Ava spoke to Sam, saying that she knows she's better than the bunnies (maybe true but still). I was hoping for a good female friendship, not infused with jealousy or envy to be honest.
Okay, so as I ended the last chapter on this part one, I felt like in a way, even I couldn't trust the protagonist fully. I kept thinking if what she saw is actually true or did she overdid her storytelling? Or maybe it is really true but because Samantha is already hinted as a liar that us, the readers, makes us distrust her? Is the storytelling bending towards that?
And also, I really like that it seems we're onto the horror part of this story. I mean the way that part one ended makes you questions what is happening even though we already had a glimpse of what's happening. But yeah, what is really happening? How is that happening? I mean how can they conjure that creature?
Part Two:
I think this part shows Samantha's descent into Bunnyness.
The first chapter of this is kinda chaotic mess because I think it was in Sam's perspective then I can't help but think it isn't because Sam addresses them the way the Bunnies addresses the people around them. And somehow, as Sam is slowly being integrated into the group, she's also been into their secrets, such as the Hybrids are all axed up. I genuinely thought they were and now I can't help but have this theory: is the Lion one of those Hybrids? I mean, it's bizarre how Eleanor/Duchess knew about Sam's writer's block. Also, it felt that she is the leader of the group, I think she is the one who recruited them all and manipulated them. Anyways, I'll probably comment on this as we read further.
Also, now I am very confused. Because everyone is addressed as Bunny, I do not know which of the bunny they are talking about or which bunny whatever it is.
I genuinely thought Ava would try her best to persuade Samantha of joining the Bunnies (I mean Ava was right on calling the bunnies a cult) but I felt saddened that she just left and said she'd be leaving the place. Also, apart from the brainwashing, I kept thinking how the bunnies was able to indoctrinated Sam. Was it something about the pills she was given or just the way they talk to her? Soothing and convincing?
And to the juicy part (I think?) where Samantha got to conjure her Hybrid but instead she failed. But did she really failed? I kept thinking that it wasn't a bunny that she transformed but the stag that she saw earlier on that chapter. Also, the guy that they think she conjured was shown again in the next chapters or so, I genuinely thinks he's Samantha's.
Also, I was a bit worried about Samantha as she was let go from the group. I meant atleast she was let go from that cult but she's alone as she Ava wasn't seen again, only for the very last chapter that Samantha was able to find her way to Ava's home.
Also, if the guy Samantha met on the bus stop is her "bunny", why does he seemed humane than the others? Was it perhaps, unlike the Bunnies, Samantha has a truthful heart. Like she actually know what love is. Though, truth be told, I actually thought that Samantha will end up in a romantic relationship with Ava, I dunno why, I just felt the chemistry between them.
Also, it's really easy to fall into madness when you're alone and poor. I still think that Samantha's upbringing also contributed but let's face it, being poor does bring a lot of problems. Having some money or more money would help, as long as you don't end up being materialistic and greedy about it.
Part Three:
I don't know but what the hell? Is Ava involved with the guy on the bus wearing a trench coat who's actual name is Max ? I genuinely thought it was Samantha's bunny. Oh well.
Also, as we are nearing the end, of course, there has to be a twist or something but so far, I still have no idea what it is. But my theories are still in the open, like the Lion might be a bunny. But now, I can't help but think, that what if Ursula/Fosco also is a Bunny, like one of the bunny girls? But so far those are just theories.
Okay but like as I read further, Samantha is convinced that Max is her bunny but like is it really? Also because of that cryptic message from the Bunnies? I also now felt confused reading.
Okay, so now I am really convinced that Max is really Sam's bunny which is kindly unsettling because he's having sex with Sam's friend Ava and maybe, just maybe, he's also screwing with the other bunnies. But I feel kinda terrified for Sam and Ava because I think there's something terrifyingly sinister with the bunny Max as he felt somewhat stalkerish? Couldn't really put my finger around it though.
Also, I have to agree with Ursula/Fosco on her takes of the Workshop. That the girls (so far, except Samantha) had let themselves be saved/destroyed by a boy and not just boys but a single boy in seems which actually brought the worst of them and their downfall. Though I like that they are somewhat disbanded, something about female's monstrosity when a man is involved doesn't sit right with me. I know it might be the narrative, how boys are such manipulators, I just didn't like the idea that the women were easily manipulated and broke their friendship over a boy (though, I think, it was easy to break as even Sam could feel that as much love they try to share with each other, there was somekind of a silent hate they also shared with one another).
Okay, so I didn't expect that the biggest twist was that Ava was also one of Sam's creations? But there were subtle hints and when Sam realized it, that was the time I also realized it too. The different eyes, the mesh gloves, and that we know little of Ava's past. That was such an awesome plotwist but like I am not too happy about it because I really love Ava and Sam's friendship. And the second to the last chapter, I also kept chanting that Sam should behead those girls or that her creation, Max, should do it. But like I like how they came to that conclusion. This book just shows how much ugliness some female friendships are, especially when they revolved around boys. Also, it's nice that it ended in a hopeful tone, that Sam is slowly back to reality, interacting with real people, and not those girl bunnies.
The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue by V.E. Schwab
adventurous
challenging
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
mysterious
reflective
sad
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.75
I've decided to do a more elaborate and orderly review (compared from the previous one). The reason that I'm a bit disorganized from my reviews is because I usually write what I thought while reading and absorbing them, kinda pouring all my thoughts thru notes but of course that takes time. And I tried to halt writing a review as I thoroughly enjoyed reading it nonstop but then I kinda have a memory like a goldfish so I'll try to divide my reviews and thoughts of this book by its parts on the book.
So spoilers ahead:
Part 1: The Gods that Answer After Dark
The whole part of this book was good in worldbuilding. We are introduced to Adeline "Addie" LaRue, basically everything about her that should be introduced, from where she was born and from and where she is in the current time of the book. Also, we are briefly introduced as to why she was cursed. Though most of the things mentioned in this part are introduction and worldbuilding, (though to be honest there's a kind of vagueness surrounding it, like she mention people, things or places but it felt like she was intentionally leaving out something), it didn't hooked me right at the start but I think the part where she was talking to the darkness itself and how she was cursed (though on technicality, it felt like she cursed herself too) sealed the deal with me. But like introductions, there are also parts of this part that seems unclear, like I said, there's a vagueness around it or maybe the storytelling is using that vagueness to tell the story, like how Addie is easily forgotten and she couldn't leave a mark, I felt that the storytelling is also covering something up or obscuring our view from the big picture? Though, I felt there's more to her all being cursed to living on her own and forgotten by anyone she happens to meet, like something must have happened during all those years she lived. Also, a question, if she was originally from France, then how the hell did she end up in New York? Like, did she happened to become a secret passenger? How is she able to secure a ride? Also, because of her curse, I also think it's safe to say that she was not able to work and thus might have been stealing most of her life. Also, can't help that she sometimes randomly tell stories about people she meet, even before she was cursed.
Also, what was her relationship to the Dark? Is the Dark a person or just a personification of the Darkness? Also,can't help but think, did the Dark lure her? Like think about it, Addie had been drawing a figure similar to the Dark so I can't help but think that maybe the Dark might have lured her? Like toy her, as the dark lurks, they might have seen her draw and they decided to infiltrate her mind to nudge her to draw the Dark? Yeah I know that sounds far-fetched but most of the stories I knew about maidens falling inlove with deities or gods involves said deities and gods to infiltrate their thoughts and dreams to lure them into thinking they loved them but really these deities or gods are just obssessive, lustful men.
Part Two
The Darkest Part of the Night
This part had me excited to continue reading. It must have been because of the introduction of Henry Samuel / Strauss and because we're beginning to see what kind of relationship Addie and the Darkness/Luc had over the centuries Addie had been living. Also, I like how Addie was able to adapt (though it must have been hard). Also, I felt overjoyed (I almost cried, but I didn't), when Henry from the bookshop remembered Addie. Like, Addie is basically a ghost, a phantom, haunting the living as no one seems to remember her, as everyone always forgets her and this Henry person (though he shared some similar feautures with the Dark), was somehow thru unforeseen circumstances, remembered her. Though, now that we're introduced to Henry, one can think that maybe, just maybe, there's also something supernatural around him that makes him remember Addie (like supernatural in the sense that Addie made a deal with the Darkness, Henry must have an association too with the supernatural). Also, I think I got it right when I said that the Darkness had been toying with Addie, that's why he transformed himself in the same likeness of Addie's dream guy (but not so dream guy anymore). But like the end chapter of the 2nd part ended it for me in a very confusing way because of that perspective from Henry. What does it mean? Is he secretly the darkness personified? Or did he also made a deal with the Dark? Souls be damned and I'm reading this thru October, welp.
PART THREE
THREE HUNDRED YEARS—AND THREE WORDS
It took me two weeks to read this part (very unfortunate tbh). So, my memory is a bit foggy on this part. I think, it's safe to say that (especially now that it's almost past half this book) I only enioyed reading the book when it's the present time. Though, reading Addie's journey the first time she had to deal with her immortality is a bit heavy, in a sense that she has this innocence on her as it was her first time. Also, the darkness/Luc really pissed me off, like maybe it is his character but I couldn't like him (though there's subtle hints, it may seem, that Addie likes him, even in the present?). Also, what's with Henry and Robbie? Henry did know that Robbie still likes him but why can't Henry like him back? What does it mean? Also, that time jump? I was kinda hoping Addie would go back to her village just to see what happened to her parents or to the people on her village, like even on Estelle?
Then again, I think I said that too soon because as part three reached conclusion, Addie had decided to visit her village (though I don't know if that was the last time she did) but it was the last time she saw her mother. Which really really made me sad, like I was perturbed of it or something. Also, that reveal that Henry also made a deal (though I'm curious of course what deal was it because I also have this feeling that the reason he was able to remember Addie was partly because he also made a deal). I just assumed that deal was similar to her immortality, something about life but we're just halfway, we'll reach that part someday, hopefully soon though.
PART FOUR
THE MAN WHO STAYED DRY IN THE RAIN
I guessed I should have assumed earlier (just by from the title of the part four of the book), that this part would be a bit Henry-centric, detailing how he come to deal with the darkness/Luc and what the deal was, what did he wished for and what was the price for that.
Initially, though, I kinda find it a bit boring (much like on the first part of the book, I find the chapters from Addie's initially normal life a bit tedious to read compared to when she is living in the present time, that is 2014), I felt like there's some vagueness somehow, though there shouldn't be or was I expecting it to be finally relieved?
Also, though I understand why Henry wished what he wished (and considering he's drunk), I find his motives for that to be a bit lacking? Also, though it was initially mentioned that darkness/Luc made deals with other humans before, I figured it be similar to what Addie wished. I just think personally that Addie's wish was heavier than Henry's. I can't explain very well in words (especially this is a second language for me) what I actually feel or what I really think of it. Though that chapter where Henry and Bea discussed her thesis and it felt that the portrait or the person on the portrait was Addie because of the seven freckles thing and because you know it could be Addie as she is immortal. Then the next chapter confirming it that though Addie can't leave a mark, in a sense that she herself cannot leave anything but she can imprint or implant ideas, which, in a sense is a gap or kind of a loophole , in that way, she was able to leave some marks, though they are received as an imaginative idea, whether it was real or not.
And like I previously said, this part is really Henry-centric as we are shown how he experienced his first year with his gift. Though initially I was a bit underwhelmed by the fact that that was his wish, as I read further, I kinda understand why he wished that. And I also understand how it also, though he benefited from it, affected his relationships and how he sees his life from then on. If a different person did wish his wish (though I don't think someone will), they might be able to accept and go with the flow with his wish but it was Henry's wish, and maybe at first it was kinda good to wish that, he further realize that from that moment on, people around him will treat him differently, though he is good enough for them, he isn't what he actually is. It was good on the side of his family and his friend Bea, but if you talk about strangers or like Tabitha or Mr. Melrose or even Robbie, it is kind of like he does want them to appreciate him more but in a way that its him and not something they want him to be, you know? He wouldn't be able to discern now if what was given to him was something he deserved or was it a result of his wish.
Also, because we get to see Henry's perspective, I kinda understand or I guess I began to empathize with him, as someone who also feels lost on their 20s (aren't we all?). But I think it's much harder on him because people does expect something more from him (especially his family). I just also feel genuinely lost myself, and relate to him, especially the way he talks about college and how choosing a certain degree will kinda set you up for life. And just choosing one when we only get one life, this life.
Also, because Henry wished for what he wished, but he could see if the person he is seeing or involved with is affected by his gift/curse, I initially thought that maybe Addie was affected by it. Because the way Addie described him was similar to the features of the darkness/Luc so I initially thought she might've been affected but then we are shown to Henry's perspective and even he initially thought the darkness looked like his brother (and him and his brother are somewhat facially similar) and Henry, though it was just a small part, also noticed that there were no frost in Addie's vision when she sees him, which means she isn't affected by his gift/curse.
PART FIVE: THE SHADOW WHO SMILED AND THE GIRL WHO SMILED BACK
Okay, so I'm genuinely bothered/frightened now. See, I think that the first four parts pretty much covered the story so I was thinking that maybe Part Five is the last part but then like the title and like I saw how many parts it still has (it has part six and seven) and it haunts me now that as Addie and Henry seems happy, seems to slowly figure out how they'll live from the day they knew that each of them made a deal with the darkness, I'm terrified for what comes next. See, I didn't read anything about this book before reading this, so far it deserved the hype that it got but I'm not fully sold on it yet (but I am interested). I am genuinely afraid that because it's halfway, means there's a lot of things that might still happen or change, for better or for worse. And I think I might be right.
As both Addie and Henry seemed to enjoy each other's company, and Addie tells her stories during her three hundred years of living like she does, there has been subtle hints from her stories, of how the darkness gets to decide to claim the souls of those who prayed/asked for him. Like in the last few chapters, we could see Addie slowly losing her mind (though I think it might have been the three centuries of living the way she did that my have amounted to that madness). Also, felt genuinely scares for Henry, had a feeling that when Addie saw him in Chapter 14 of this part, Henry saw the darkness/Luc and I think he came for the retrieval of his payment a.k.a. Henry's soul. I think, as it seems heavily implied, the darkness claims the souls of those they've made the deal over the years when they achieved or like close to achieving what they aim to. Like just before they get to experience the rewards, the darkness claims their souls.
Also, a bit disliking Addie's relationship with the darkness. I think it's because I can't help but think that he groomed her? Because in the very last few chapters of this part, the darkness seems a bit humane as they interact with Addie. Personally, there are villains that deserved a redemption arc or like they were initially hurt painfully which led to their evilness but I don't think that should be done to the darkness. Though, I don't think the darkness is necessarily the villain, but I think he is evil, not a morally grey character.
PART SIX:
DO NOT PRETEND THAT THIS IS LOVE
So, the opening chapter of this is very powerful. Like we're introduced to the opening of a war and somehow, it also felt like we're introduced to a war that is bound to happen later in this book.
It's strange, because as we are nearing the end, I didn't expect there would be another twist such as Henry remembering Addie or that Henry also made a deal with Luc and now that Henry didn't exchange his soul to be loved for a lifetime but rather exchanged it for only a year. In which there's something so cunning about the darkness/Luc. Like he come for people who are really desperate? Also, I am not liking the fact that the darkness/Luc is really becoming a morally grey character because of how he is portrayed in the last few chapters. I don't know, maybe it serves as their character development as they interact with Addie over the years he becomes somehow a bit humane? But I don't know, it just felt like that was never enough for that.
On chapter 11 of this part, this was what bothered me on the whole ordeal. I have to agree with Addie here. She doesn't love Luc the way you love someone romantically. I think, her love for Luc was more of his companionship, as Luc is the only person who will always remember her (of course excluding Henry but more on this later). And also in this chapter we can see that Luc is kinda possessive about Addie. Maybe he did tell her the truth that he knew he can never win her over and probably why over the years he did what he did. But he did hurt her, maybe to keep her near him or more like she'd surrender but I think it is safe to say that Addie may have loved Luc but not romantically, just for the companionship of someone knowing you. But I wouldn't call it romance. It's borderline toxic possessiveness. In a sense, I think, the reason that I couldn't call the darkness/Luc as a morally grey character was he knows evil and he tries to validate his actions, that it neither his fault nor it was evil, but trying to validate your actions, claiming it in neutral just means your scared of admitting what it actually is. I know there isn't always two sides on the story, but if you claimed that you do things out of love but for your own selfish reason then it is indeed morally bad. I mean, if you really loved someone, you wouldn't keep them to yourself and manipulate them into choosing you. Also, I think, one of the things why Addie would never love Luc was because she doesn't trust him. I think, trust is important in any relationship for it to work, (I mean even enemies sometimes trust each other and that is how they sometimes find equal footing) and Addie could or would never trust Luc on anything, as Addie would be watchful and wary of him, as though he says he will keep his word but there's poison in the way he says it, like there's a price or cost for it.
There's something so profound about the ending of this part. It's maddening that after all those years, Addie surrendered herself because someone remembered her. And though I don't strongly support Henry and Adeline, I do not oppose it. I just felt sad that like time, it's fleeting, their story is short but a lot has happened in that short span of time.
PART SEVEN: I REMEMBER YOU
This part felt like a bonus part of the book. I felt somehow that the real ending was the part six, but I'm still grateful for this part.
The end felt an open ending, but a bit bittersweet. Though, I think, Henry and Addie did love each other but they aren't deeply devoted to one another. I think, Henry would move on and find someone else. As for Addie, she loved her freedom so much, she'd find a way to let go of Luc, no matter how long it will take which is why I don't think she's come back to Henry after this. Afterall, Henry will grow old and Addie, well, there's uncertainty on her future but there is a future. I guess, Henry is also grateful for Addie as Addie taught him how to continue living, despite the loss and sufferings while Henry reminded Addie how to be remembered and to be human.
In the end, I think this is a great book. Though sometimes I felt that the story itself drag way too much but maybe the book is a collection of stories, one might say. Still, it's worth the read though I don't see myself rereading this anytime soon.
So spoilers ahead:
Part 1: The Gods that Answer After Dark
The whole part of this book was good in worldbuilding. We are introduced to Adeline "Addie" LaRue, basically everything about her that should be introduced, from where she was born and from and where she is in the current time of the book. Also, we are briefly introduced as to why she was cursed. Though most of the things mentioned in this part are introduction and worldbuilding, (though to be honest there's a kind of vagueness surrounding it, like she mention people, things or places but it felt like she was intentionally leaving out something), it didn't hooked me right at the start but I think the part where she was talking to the darkness itself and how she was cursed (though on technicality, it felt like she cursed herself too) sealed the deal with me. But like introductions, there are also parts of this part that seems unclear, like I said, there's a vagueness around it or maybe the storytelling is using that vagueness to tell the story, like how Addie is easily forgotten and she couldn't leave a mark, I felt that the storytelling is also covering something up or obscuring our view from the big picture? Though, I felt there's more to her all being cursed to living on her own and forgotten by anyone she happens to meet, like something must have happened during all those years she lived. Also, a question, if she was originally from France, then how the hell did she end up in New York? Like, did she happened to become a secret passenger? How is she able to secure a ride? Also, because of her curse, I also think it's safe to say that she was not able to work and thus might have been stealing most of her life. Also, can't help that she sometimes randomly tell stories about people she meet, even before she was cursed.
Also, what was her relationship to the Dark? Is the Dark a person or just a personification of the Darkness? Also,can't help but think, did the Dark lure her? Like think about it, Addie had been drawing a figure similar to the Dark so I can't help but think that maybe the Dark might have lured her? Like toy her, as the dark lurks, they might have seen her draw and they decided to infiltrate her mind to nudge her to draw the Dark? Yeah I know that sounds far-fetched but most of the stories I knew about maidens falling inlove with deities or gods involves said deities and gods to infiltrate their thoughts and dreams to lure them into thinking they loved them but really these deities or gods are just obssessive, lustful men.
Part Two
The Darkest Part of the Night
This part had me excited to continue reading. It must have been because of the introduction of Henry Samuel / Strauss and because we're beginning to see what kind of relationship Addie and the Darkness/Luc had over the centuries Addie had been living. Also, I like how Addie was able to adapt (though it must have been hard). Also, I felt overjoyed (I almost cried, but I didn't), when Henry from the bookshop remembered Addie. Like, Addie is basically a ghost, a phantom, haunting the living as no one seems to remember her, as everyone always forgets her and this Henry person (though he shared some similar feautures with the Dark), was somehow thru unforeseen circumstances, remembered her. Though, now that we're introduced to Henry, one can think that maybe, just maybe, there's also something supernatural around him that makes him remember Addie (like supernatural in the sense that Addie made a deal with the Darkness, Henry must have an association too with the supernatural). Also, I think I got it right when I said that the Darkness had been toying with Addie, that's why he transformed himself in the same likeness of Addie's dream guy (but not so dream guy anymore). But like the end chapter of the 2nd part ended it for me in a very confusing way because of that perspective from Henry. What does it mean? Is he secretly the darkness personified? Or did he also made a deal with the Dark? Souls be damned and I'm reading this thru October, welp.
PART THREE
THREE HUNDRED YEARS—AND THREE WORDS
It took me two weeks to read this part (very unfortunate tbh). So, my memory is a bit foggy on this part. I think, it's safe to say that (especially now that it's almost past half this book) I only enioyed reading the book when it's the present time. Though, reading Addie's journey the first time she had to deal with her immortality is a bit heavy, in a sense that she has this innocence on her as it was her first time. Also, the darkness/Luc really pissed me off, like maybe it is his character but I couldn't like him (though there's subtle hints, it may seem, that Addie likes him, even in the present?). Also, what's with Henry and Robbie? Henry did know that Robbie still likes him but why can't Henry like him back? What does it mean? Also, that time jump? I was kinda hoping Addie would go back to her village just to see what happened to her parents or to the people on her village, like even on Estelle?
Then again, I think I said that too soon because as part three reached conclusion, Addie had decided to visit her village (though I don't know if that was the last time she did) but it was the last time she saw her mother. Which really really made me sad, like I was perturbed of it or something. Also, that reveal that Henry also made a deal (though I'm curious of course what deal was it because I also have this feeling that the reason he was able to remember Addie was partly because he also made a deal). I just assumed that deal was similar to her immortality, something about life but we're just halfway, we'll reach that part someday, hopefully soon though.
PART FOUR
THE MAN WHO STAYED DRY IN THE RAIN
I guessed I should have assumed earlier (just by from the title of the part four of the book), that this part would be a bit Henry-centric, detailing how he come to deal with the darkness/Luc and what the deal was, what did he wished for and what was the price for that.
Initially, though, I kinda find it a bit boring (much like on the first part of the book, I find the chapters from Addie's initially normal life a bit tedious to read compared to when she is living in the present time, that is 2014), I felt like there's some vagueness somehow, though there shouldn't be or was I expecting it to be finally relieved?
Also, though I understand why Henry wished what he wished (and considering he's drunk), I find his motives for that to be a bit lacking? Also, though it was initially mentioned that darkness/Luc made deals with other humans before, I figured it be similar to what Addie wished. I just think personally that Addie's wish was heavier than Henry's. I can't explain very well in words (especially this is a second language for me) what I actually feel or what I really think of it. Though that chapter where Henry and Bea discussed her thesis and it felt that the portrait or the person on the portrait was Addie because of the seven freckles thing and because you know it could be Addie as she is immortal. Then the next chapter confirming it that though Addie can't leave a mark, in a sense that she herself cannot leave anything but she can imprint or implant ideas, which, in a sense is a gap or kind of a loophole , in that way, she was able to leave some marks, though they are received as an imaginative idea, whether it was real or not.
And like I previously said, this part is really Henry-centric as we are shown how he experienced his first year with his gift. Though initially I was a bit underwhelmed by the fact that that was his wish, as I read further, I kinda understand why he wished that. And I also understand how it also, though he benefited from it, affected his relationships and how he sees his life from then on. If a different person did wish his wish (though I don't think someone will), they might be able to accept and go with the flow with his wish but it was Henry's wish, and maybe at first it was kinda good to wish that, he further realize that from that moment on, people around him will treat him differently, though he is good enough for them, he isn't what he actually is. It was good on the side of his family and his friend Bea, but if you talk about strangers or like Tabitha or Mr. Melrose or even Robbie, it is kind of like he does want them to appreciate him more but in a way that its him and not something they want him to be, you know? He wouldn't be able to discern now if what was given to him was something he deserved or was it a result of his wish.
Also, because we get to see Henry's perspective, I kinda understand or I guess I began to empathize with him, as someone who also feels lost on their 20s (aren't we all?). But I think it's much harder on him because people does expect something more from him (especially his family). I just also feel genuinely lost myself, and relate to him, especially the way he talks about college and how choosing a certain degree will kinda set you up for life. And just choosing one when we only get one life, this life.
Also, because Henry wished for what he wished, but he could see if the person he is seeing or involved with is affected by his gift/curse, I initially thought that maybe Addie was affected by it. Because the way Addie described him was similar to the features of the darkness/Luc so I initially thought she might've been affected but then we are shown to Henry's perspective and even he initially thought the darkness looked like his brother (and him and his brother are somewhat facially similar) and Henry, though it was just a small part, also noticed that there were no frost in Addie's vision when she sees him, which means she isn't affected by his gift/curse.
PART FIVE: THE SHADOW WHO SMILED AND THE GIRL WHO SMILED BACK
Okay, so I'm genuinely bothered/frightened now. See, I think that the first four parts pretty much covered the story so I was thinking that maybe Part Five is the last part but then like the title and like I saw how many parts it still has (it has part six and seven) and it haunts me now that as Addie and Henry seems happy, seems to slowly figure out how they'll live from the day they knew that each of them made a deal with the darkness, I'm terrified for what comes next. See, I didn't read anything about this book before reading this, so far it deserved the hype that it got but I'm not fully sold on it yet (but I am interested). I am genuinely afraid that because it's halfway, means there's a lot of things that might still happen or change, for better or for worse. And I think I might be right.
As both Addie and Henry seemed to enjoy each other's company, and Addie tells her stories during her three hundred years of living like she does, there has been subtle hints from her stories, of how the darkness gets to decide to claim the souls of those who prayed/asked for him. Like in the last few chapters, we could see Addie slowly losing her mind (though I think it might have been the three centuries of living the way she did that my have amounted to that madness). Also, felt genuinely scares for Henry, had a feeling that when Addie saw him in Chapter 14 of this part, Henry saw the darkness/Luc and I think he came for the retrieval of his payment a.k.a. Henry's soul. I think, as it seems heavily implied, the darkness claims the souls of those they've made the deal over the years when they achieved or like close to achieving what they aim to. Like just before they get to experience the rewards, the darkness claims their souls.
Also, a bit disliking Addie's relationship with the darkness. I think it's because I can't help but think that he groomed her? Because in the very last few chapters of this part, the darkness seems a bit humane as they interact with Addie. Personally, there are villains that deserved a redemption arc or like they were initially hurt painfully which led to their evilness but I don't think that should be done to the darkness. Though, I don't think the darkness is necessarily the villain, but I think he is evil, not a morally grey character.
PART SIX:
DO NOT PRETEND THAT THIS IS LOVE
So, the opening chapter of this is very powerful. Like we're introduced to the opening of a war and somehow, it also felt like we're introduced to a war that is bound to happen later in this book.
It's strange, because as we are nearing the end, I didn't expect there would be another twist such as Henry remembering Addie or that Henry also made a deal with Luc and now that Henry didn't exchange his soul to be loved for a lifetime but rather exchanged it for only a year. In which there's something so cunning about the darkness/Luc. Like he come for people who are really desperate? Also, I am not liking the fact that the darkness/Luc is really becoming a morally grey character because of how he is portrayed in the last few chapters. I don't know, maybe it serves as their character development as they interact with Addie over the years he becomes somehow a bit humane? But I don't know, it just felt like that was never enough for that.
On chapter 11 of this part, this was what bothered me on the whole ordeal. I have to agree with Addie here. She doesn't love Luc the way you love someone romantically. I think, her love for Luc was more of his companionship, as Luc is the only person who will always remember her (of course excluding Henry but more on this later). And also in this chapter we can see that Luc is kinda possessive about Addie. Maybe he did tell her the truth that he knew he can never win her over and probably why over the years he did what he did. But he did hurt her, maybe to keep her near him or more like she'd surrender but I think it is safe to say that Addie may have loved Luc but not romantically, just for the companionship of someone knowing you. But I wouldn't call it romance. It's borderline toxic possessiveness. In a sense, I think, the reason that I couldn't call the darkness/Luc as a morally grey character was he knows evil and he tries to validate his actions, that it neither his fault nor it was evil, but trying to validate your actions, claiming it in neutral just means your scared of admitting what it actually is. I know there isn't always two sides on the story, but if you claimed that you do things out of love but for your own selfish reason then it is indeed morally bad. I mean, if you really loved someone, you wouldn't keep them to yourself and manipulate them into choosing you. Also, I think, one of the things why Addie would never love Luc was because she doesn't trust him. I think, trust is important in any relationship for it to work, (I mean even enemies sometimes trust each other and that is how they sometimes find equal footing) and Addie could or would never trust Luc on anything, as Addie would be watchful and wary of him, as though he says he will keep his word but there's poison in the way he says it, like there's a price or cost for it.
There's something so profound about the ending of this part. It's maddening that after all those years, Addie surrendered herself because someone remembered her. And though I don't strongly support Henry and Adeline, I do not oppose it. I just felt sad that like time, it's fleeting, their story is short but a lot has happened in that short span of time.
PART SEVEN: I REMEMBER YOU
This part felt like a bonus part of the book. I felt somehow that the real ending was the part six, but I'm still grateful for this part.
The end felt an open ending, but a bit bittersweet. Though, I think, Henry and Addie did love each other but they aren't deeply devoted to one another. I think, Henry would move on and find someone else. As for Addie, she loved her freedom so much, she'd find a way to let go of Luc, no matter how long it will take which is why I don't think she's come back to Henry after this. Afterall, Henry will grow old and Addie, well, there's uncertainty on her future but there is a future. I guess, Henry is also grateful for Addie as Addie taught him how to continue living, despite the loss and sufferings while Henry reminded Addie how to be remembered and to be human.
In the end, I think this is a great book. Though sometimes I felt that the story itself drag way too much but maybe the book is a collection of stories, one might say. Still, it's worth the read though I don't see myself rereading this anytime soon.
Persuasion by Jane Austen
challenging
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
lighthearted
reflective
relaxing
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
This is my 2nd Austen Novel that I read. And this does not disappoint. I understand why this was the most esteemed novel of Jane Austen.
We're first introduced to Sir Walter Elliot, (if I didn't know the synopsis of this story, I would have thought this was his story), of Kellynch-hall, whose vanity could rival those of younger women as his favorite possessions includes his looks and rank in high society. The funny thing is he is so self-absorbed and vain that he needs to retrench on his extravagance as he is in debt. Then we are briefly introduced to his daughter, Elizabeth, Anne and Mary. Elizabeth, his eldest and favorite (as she also possess her father's extreme vanity and extravagance) is nine and twenty and is unmarried. And then there was that commotion of her brief engagement to another cousin Elliot but it went nowhere. Then there's Mary, the youngest, who is married to a fortunate country gentlemen. And last but not the last Anne, the middle child who is often ignored both by her father and elder sister but is beloved by Lady Russell, her late-mother's closest kindred friend.
I think, like the story, the introduction seemed to ignore or sidelined Anne, probably establishing the kind of person Anne is.
Also, it pissed me off how self-absorbed and so self-important Anne's father is. I mean, he is already in debts but he would degrade someone who is not born from a rich household, particularly someone who has a rank in high society. It's so degrading the way he humiliates the navy and soldiers just because they had amassed riches even though they were from poor background. I mean atleast those people worked for their money, unlike him.
Anyways, back to Anne, in Chapter 2, it was said but not acknowledged that she was the one who made the plans on how her family could successfully retrench, however, Lady Russell presented this as she is a most trusted advisor of the family and Anne's father would most likely listened to her (probably hinting to on how Lady Russell is good at the art or persuasion, but more on that later). Also, Anne was bit by bit having a part, probably centering the story on her know and at the end of chapter 3 where:
Mr. Shepherd was completely empowered to act; and no sooner had such an end been reached, than Anne, who had been a most attentive listener to the whole, left the room, to seek the comfort of cool air for her flushed cheeks; and as she walked along a favourite grove, said, with a gentle sigh, “a few months more, and he, perhaps, may be walking here.”
I can't help but feel there's a certain nostalgia for what could have been or what would have been here.
Kinda nice that they finally told why Anne was feeling incredibly shy and timid from the first three chapters (I mean apart from her personality being actually timid). It's sad and regretful what happened to Anne's engagement to Captain Frederick Wentworth. I mean I could understand why Lady Russell was trying to persuade Anne to call off the engagement but it's sad that after that, there were no happiness that seem to engage on Anne's life. Furthermore, it was also said that Anne was offered an engagement to Sir Charles Musgrove, who eventually wed her younger sister Mary. Though Anne didn't hold a grudge against Lady Russell on her persuasion in regards to Captain Wentworth, I can't help but think that Lady Russell also felt responsible to the sadness that attributed to the once youthful Anne. Also, probably because Lady Russell is the second closest thing Anne could have as a mother that she held Lady Russell's opinions in high regards.
But I felt sad that Anne never loved anyone other than Captain Wentworth.
Chapter 6 was kind of a rollercoaster of emotions. One moment you can't help but find it hilarious that the Musgroves tell their complaints about Mary to Anne, and then Mary contradicting those complaints without either party knowing then the next moment you get punched emotionally by Anne's unfortunate circumstance of always being talked with but not talked about or noticed about. Sad knowing that after her mother's death, that was the last time anyone had listened to her or appreciated her (though maybe the last time was when she was with Captain Wentworth). I think what's sad about it is also Lady Russell discouragement on Anne's engagement to Wentworth when they were younger. This has probably totally closed off Anne to socialize, in a sense that she would also share her innermost feelings and turmoils.
Another thing on chapter 6, it's that the reason Anne was going to the Musgroves was because she likes to live in the country and at the same time evade the Crofts as this might cause an unexpected meeting with Captain Wentworth but it's like everything is against Anne's fate as the Musgroves really did got acquianted with the Crofts and all Anne can do is act insensible/indifferent to her past feelings to Captain Wentworth as he may suddenly appear.
I genuinely thought after chapter 6, I would be able to witness Anne and Captain Wentworth's reunion but due to unforeseen circumstances, their meeting was halted. I mean, Captain Wentworth was received by the Musgroves but no presence from Anne as she takes care of her nephew after suffering an injury from a tree fall. Also, I understand that during that time, more of child care are passed to the mother but it's disappointing that when one has a child of their own does not guarantee them to be a good parent. I mean, just because you have a child of your own does not necessarily mean you're capable and responsible being a parent. Sometimes too, one does not need to be an actual parent to care about children.
And of course, when they meet again, after eight years, all those initial thoughts from Anne had completely vanished and has been replaced instead with what Captain Wentworth said about her, that she looks so completely altered and I can't help but cry and sympathize with Anne. I know Captain Wentworth was sad and angry at Anne for her breaking her engagement and with just a mere persuasion from Lady Russell no less but I felt like Anne is too hard on herself. She knew that she was at fault too, that even though her decision had caused her unhappiness over the years, it was a decision she made. And now that the years have passed, she might regret it but it was her decision, there were nothing that could fix Captain Wentworths disappointment in her timidity and weakness or being easily persuaded.
Finally on chapter 8, the quote that got started me on reading this book:
there could have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison, no countenances so beloved.
Which was unfortunately preceded by this:
Now they were as strangers; nay, worse than strangers, for they could never become acquainted. It was a perpetual estrangement.
I didn't know that was the whole quote.
Of course, as Anne and Captain Wentworth kept meeting each other as they are in the same circle, I can't help but sadly think about how Anne was known to never dance and Captain Wentworth asked of her from the Musgroves sisters. Now, I can't help but think, as we read this story on Anne's perspective and she thinks that Captain Wentworth's cold politeness was worse than him completely ignoring her, does Captain Wentworth thinks Anne so indifferent, so insensible that she would readily avoid talking or interacting with him entirely than to actually converse with her?
The thing is, because we read it on Anne's perspective, we can't help but empathize with her. Of course, the sensible thing to do was probably avoid and act indifferent towards him but what if his cold politeness towards Anne was just a facade as Anne's indifference towards him rubs him off the wrong way?
Is it weird that even I could feel the tension between Anne and Captain Wentworth? As if I'm actually with them on that abrupt entrance of Captain Wentworth to the Cottage only to have found out that Anne and the little Charles is there? Also, very awkward when Mr. Hayter also came and wait with them and even though Captain Wentworth was about to initiate a conversation with Mr. Hayter, Mr. Hayter deliberately evade him as he chose to read the newspaper at the table contrary to Captain Wentworth near the window while Anne is attending the ill little Charles.
You can actually see how Jane Austen had mature on her writing. Social gatherings on any books usually bore me but the way she weaves the story, even if they aren't speaking or have any dialogue and even if the book is only told from a certain perspective, we also get a glimpse of how the other characters act and behave even without the dialogue. There'a something uniquely interesting on how this kind of story plays out in a Jane Austen work.
That conversation between Louisa and Captain Wentworth as they walked together, there's something that must have stung Anne's feelings as Captain Wentworth praises someone who is not easily persuaded and is a very decisive person, contrary to someone who's indecisive and it easily affected by the persuasion of others. Especially as how, thought it was indirectly done, Louisa told how Charles initially offered marriage to Anne but instead rejected him. I actually thought (because I've watched the movie first) that Anne rejected Charles Musgroves on the grounds that she might still have feelings for Captain Wentworth (or was it a fresh wound at that time) but it was rather because the Musgroves believed that Lady Russell had greatly influenced Anne and Anne had been easily persuaded that maybe Charles isn't characteristically bookish enough to appease Lady Russell's approval. This comment somehow agitated Anne, as she thinks how her character now is being perceived by Captain Wentworth after that conversation.
Also, I can't help but think, since Mrs. Croft is Captain Wentworth's sister, does she know Anne's attachment/engagement to Captain Wentworth? Because at the very end of chapter 10, wherein Admiral Croft and Mrs. Croft discuss Captain Wentworth attachment to the Miss Musgroves, both of them cannot tell which of the two Miss Musgroves does capture Captain Wentworth's heart but there's a hint, in Anne's perception, that Mrs. Croft knew that neither of the two sisters had enraptured Captain Wentworth's.
Also, just how Louisa and Captain Wentworth discussed Anne's rejection to Charles Musgrove and how Anne is heavily influenced by Lady Russell that it was obvious Lady Russell and Captain Wentworth disliked each other. I could understand why Captain Wentworth disliked Lady Russell but I can't wrapped my mind on why Lady Russell disliked Captain Wentworth. Is it because of his rank? If it was, then I don't think that Lady Russell is such a good-natured character. I mean, I understand that she only wants what's beat for Anne but the way she persuaded Anne that engaging herself with Captain Wentworth because of his rank or Charles Musgrove because he's not bookish for her taste seems outrageously suspicious to me. I mean, it just means that she held herself at a higher level compare to others, and the way that she is described as good-natured when it seems that being smart and philosophical such as herself gives her a right or an authority to give distasteful remarks on the opposite sex with lower rank. Sure, it's not the same level of vanity of looks and rank like Mr. Elliot but it's on the same page. She's just vain in a sense that she thinks she's superiorlly smarter and held a higher rank than others. Although, I could understand it that maybe because she's a woman who have everything (in a sense that she's comfortably able to do things she wants or rich) but it felt that she's a contemptuous woman who masks her proud superiority behind being "good-natured".
Also, there'a something extremely sad on how Anne perceived herself older when I mean I'm pretty sure she's around late 20s (or maybe because during their time, it's harder for women to get married as they grew older compared to men who could still marry when their past 30 as long as they have money). I think this because of her comparison of herself to Captain Benwick saying that Captain Benwick can still find love as he is still young. I still think it's sad that she completely closed herself to everyone since her rejection of Captain Wentworth. Might mean that their love was really something more or just might be the best she's ever have.
Also, during their stay at Lyme, I kept thinking that Captain Benwick is a bit attentive to Anne in a sense that he might like her or is starting to like her. Probably because they share this fascination to poetry (though on Benwick's case, it's particularly related to grief and melancholy). Unfortunately, this was cut short as Anne was chosen to go back to Uppercross and accompany Henrietta and Captain Wentworth to alert the Musgroves parents on what happened to Louisa.
Lady Russell's opinion of Captain Wentworth gets lower as she heard that Captain Wentworth seemed to have formed an attachment to Louisa Musgrove when it was eight years ago, he proposed to Anne. I mean I kinda understand that's irritating, seemingly choosing someone who's kind of naive and younger compare to someone who is matured and is good-natured and with a sound and philosophical mind but like isn't Lady Russell who persuaded Anne to break it off with Captain Wentworth? And also, I didn't also like that Lady Russell seemed to not like Admiral Croft because of his manner of talking and felt a bit uncomfortable around Mrs. Croft just because of her connection to Captain Wentworth. Also, why should Anne worry if Lady Russell and Captain Wentworth meet if there's anyone who should be worried it should be Lady Russell as Captain Wentworth had just proven that he could have given Anne a comfortable and happy life even if he doesn't have a rank. I know Lady Russell only wants was best for Anne and like how Anne admires Lady Russell as she is the closest mother figure she has and is the only one who ever gave her attention but like Lady Russell's contemptuous superiority complex is just irritating.
In chapter 15, as Anne arrived in Bath, she then is introduced to her cousin, a Mr. Elliot who will soon inherit the Kellynch state. But like even in this chapter, Anne's father and sister are really self-absorbed (especially her sister like I mean she's older than Anne and even she is not yet married).
Also didn't know that there was the matter that Anne's father, Mr. Walter Elliot might form an engagement with Mrs. Clay, though that was strange, I could understand why such a matter could be true as both are neither engage to anyone as of the moment. Plus we could also see how Elizabeth is cruel to Anne like the way she said that Anne meant nothing to her compared to Mrs. Clay. Also, the fact that Elizabeth is also vying for their cousin, Mr. Elliot's, attention.
Also, on chapter 16, when they are introduced to their cousins, the Dalrymple, there's something socially hilarious about the interaction. The Elliots, particularly the father and Elizabeth are so pre-occupied with their cousin Viscountess Dalrymple which is ironic as how they treat people they deemed beneath them (in social rank) and though not particularly excited as the other two, Lady Russell and cousin Mr. Elliot also thinks that renewing this connection with the Viscountess is a good addition to the Elliot's rank. I just think it's hilarious how the former two people (Mr. Elliot and Elizabeth) would insult someone of lower rank but they would somehow beg to be noticed by someone with a higher rank, which in this case they just became the people they were insulting while the latter two, (Lady Russell and the cousin Mr. Elliot) acted nonchalantly but would want that connection with high society too. Aren't the two groups of people the same, just different execution?
Also, now I think, I initially think Anne is easily persuaded in a sense that she easily formed a connection with Captain Benwick and cousin Mr. Elliot but I understand that Anne's idea of good company is an acquaintance shared having a clever and well-informed conversation amongst them. This is why she holds Lady Russell's opinions high although she said that it took her years to realize that not everything Lady Russell agrees with is something that she also agrees with (I think one of these was somewhat related to Captain Wentworth too). Also, all the talk about the social ranks in this chapter also makes sense as how they treat other people without social ranks (like Admiral Croft, Mrs. Croft, Captain Wentworth and the Msugroves) even though they are rich (and in this case, the Musgrove's might have been richer than the Elliot's now as they are trying to retrench and pay off their debts).
Also, that character analysis of Anne's about her cousin Mr. Elliot is just understandably good. Like, everyone (even Lady Russell) praises Mr. Elliot as a clever, well-mannered and sensible man but for Anne, there's something that doesn't sit right with her about him. For Anne, I think, two things that bothers her is however clever and sensible Mr. Elliot is, he doesn't readily give his opinions, like he appears to agree or add something to what you've previously said but to readily give his opinion or impression, he most certainly doesn't (which is said that he have a general pleasant manner to everyone). Which could attribute to another thing he does, he isn't honestly open to Anne. All Anne's general opinion of him could have been attributed by the things and compliments she heard from other people who had the pleasure of meeting him and not actually an old acquiantance of his. In this case, he kinda reminds me of George Wickham, but unlike the female protagonist of Pride and Prejudice, Anne maybe timid but she's wonderfully clever, maybe because she's older and her mind had a maturity through her engagement of different morals and philosophies that might have enriched her mind over the years.
I know Mary is the lesser of two evils (between Anne's sisters) and I still think she's still sometimes condescending but not contemptuously like Elizabeth so I kinda find her letter to Anne a bit endearing. Although, sure it contained some prejudiced opinions of her about the society of the Uppercross tenants such as the Musgroves and its neighboring acquaintances (Admiral Croft and Mrs. Croft and the Hayters) and the Harvilles, but it's nice that though she thinks ill of them (because of their societal rank), she still give them truthful compliments (as though Mary maybe prejudiced but she's honest about her feelings, that though they maybe hurtful, atleast she didn't say it behind their backs). Though, she's still self-absorbed from time to time, I think being around the people from Uppercross had also done her good. Another thing is that in chapter 18, Anne is genuinely happy for Captain Benwick and Louisa's engagement. I think it may have astonish her but she understand how the couple came to be (or had an understanding) even though they have different minds. Add to that those subtle hints that though Anne is grateful for Captain Benwick's attention, Anne would only yearn for one's affection to her (obviously, that's Captain Wentworth).
And speaking of, in chapter 19, when Anne and Captain Wentworth meet happenstance (though Anne knew he'd be coming to Bath). It's adorable like you know they are in their late 20s and yet this scene plays like a meet-cute. Also, I'm really terrified coz it's only a few chapters left and Anne and Captain Wentworth doesn't have a lot of scenes together and there's this cousin Mr. Elliot who seems to like Anne and is heavily favored by her family and even Lady Russell. And I think, it's just disappointing that Anne really love Captain Wentworth and now that Captain Wentworth has some power/money compare from before and Lady Russell is kind of a surrogate mom to Anne as Lady Russell is a friend of her mom and had tried to give advices to Anne like how her mother would and Anne really wanted for the two of them to get along, unless Captain Wentworth let go of his grudge to Lady Russell's counsel to Anne about him (though I completely understand the grudge) and Lady Russell would not try to influence or persuade Anne or better yet the word is discouraged Anne on being engaged to Captain Wentworth. I think, the big problem that I find with Lady Russell is that she is a good natured and well-mannered lady but she still thinks that she and Anne should only closely associate themselves with people who has a high social class/rank.
Might be disappointing that Elizabeth didn't acknowledged Captain Wentworth (but that was expected as Elizabeth is self-absorbed and she thinks she's superior to others who doesn't have her rank) but if that was Lady Russell, then I don't know if her and Anne's relationship would be well.
I don't know if I should admire Anne of her intelligence or maybe it counts as her being delusional? But the way she seemed to memorize Captain Wentworth's mannerisms and their whole conversation (that somehow brought a brightness in her, or a glow in her that improved much her looks) screams her sentiments and feelings for him. Chapter 20 alone had invoked a lot of feelings, from high to low to high again, even though they've only attended a concert, it seems that a lot could happen on such short notice. I just feel sorry for Anne, because it is so clear that the only man she loved Captain Wentworth and she still loves him. But it frustrates her as her cousin Mr. Elliot seems to arouse Captain Wentworth's jealousy (though it excited a gratification for Anne), but Anne only wants to interact with Captain Wentworth, to know about his sentiments and whether those sentiments are the same with her. I think what frustrates her is that Captain Wentworth had finally approached her without anger or resentment but perhaps the same love she has for him all those years ago and it was unfortunately sabotage by Mr. Elliot's excessive vague compliments that pokes at Anne's curiosity but doesn't dissolve her devotion to Captain Wentworth.
Also, didn't know that as I reached the last few chapters, the chapters seemed to be longer compare to the previous one (I actually dreaded that I would soon finished reading this book and I meant that in a good way).
Finally, as I reached the last part, the fantastic thing about it is that prior questions about character's backgrounds are slowly getting answered. Chapter 21 particularly answered the cousin Mr. Elliot's character. Which, I must say is similar to Wickham from Pride and Prejudice, a wolf in sheep's clothing or a cruelly dangerous person posing as a gentleman. Though, I find certain similarities between Wickham and Mr. Elliot, Mr. Elliot seemed a superior being as an antagonist compared to Wickham. And also, maybe because Anne is much older than Elizabeth, Anne knew upon meeting Mr. Elliot that there is something vaguely bothering (which eventually end up as him being entirely evil) about his whole composure, despite hiding it on a gentleman-like manner. I think, Anne had solidified this gut-feeling when Mr. Elliot interact with her during the concert when Anne wanted to converse with Captain Wentworth. Also, maybe during the concert (as gossip seemed to thrive during those times as a form of entertainment), Mr. Elliot deliberately tries to get Anne's attention to him and through this action, a lot of people who have attended the concert might have gossip and spread this news, as to why Mrs. Smith also assumed that Anne is to be engaged to Mr. Elliot. Even I actually felt a hit conflicted during Anne and Mrs. Smith's conversation, as at the beginning of it, Mrs. Smith seemed to praised and approved of Mr. Elliot's engagement to Anne and them suddenly, when Anne confirmed and proved that in no way she accept a proposal from him nor if she would accept it in a future did Mrs. Smith unraveled Mr. Elliot's true intentions. I could understand why Mrs. Smith had done what she had done, as someone who is poor and is counting on any help she could get, and maybe she believed that somehow Mr. Elliot's intentions change and his feelings towards Anne is genuine, maybe Mr. Elliot would have listened to Anne (as she might've been his soon-to-be wife). Like even from the previous chapters, Anne could not make Mr. Elliot's character as most of their acquaintances are new and his acquaintances' character are not very known to Anne. But this, this newfound information of Mr. Elliot's attachment or connection to Mrs. Smith had solidified Anne's instance to Mr. Ellliot's character: that he's cruel, conniving, serpentine hearted acting like a gentleman.
Now we're nearing the end, I felt like that chapters are getting more and more intense (probably wrapping up loose ends). And on chapter 23, of course, it finally happened. At long last, our two protagonists were able to profess their love to one another. I cried during thay scene when Captain Wentworth left Anne a letter, especially at the parts "You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope." and
"I have loved none but you" something about that altered and stirred my soul. And also thay explanation of Captain Wentworth's action towards Anne upon their reuniting again after eight years. Also, it's the way that both of them somehow knew or memorize each other's manners, from the way their expressions changes and each of them knew what it meant even if they hadn't seen each other for so long.
Another to add is when Captain Wentworth acknowledged his anger and resentment towards Anne and how he came to terms with his pride/proud and he kept thinking that if he hadn't been so prideful, and he wrote Anne a letter when he acquired the riches that he has now, would have Anne replied to him and when Anne answered in a way that he understood that she would have, there was this momentary regret in him. But atleast now they still end up together. Something about men owning up their proud/prideful mistakes and change themselves for the better, not because their love interest says so but because they realize how wrong they were before.
Also, I find it kinda funny that in the end too, I finally know why Lady Russell just icked me but I completely understand that she was, afterall, a second parent figure to Anne and how Anne accepted Lady Russell's flaws and how also Lady Russell came to accept her flaw, that maybe she might not be a good judge of character as she always known and what I find funny about the entire ordeal was how Lady Russell just have to live with it too. Also, that Captain Wentworth had finally forgiven Lady Russell for her persuasion to Anne before, and he might forgive her sooner than he might forgive himself for all his prideful folly that almost cost him his happiness with Anne.
I initially read this because I've only seen a few people talked about this Austen book but most of them said that this was her most esteemed novel and I think they are right. Though maybe I am a bit biased as I've only read 2 of Austen's works so far, but I never knew I'd loved this book better than Pride and Prejudice (but I still love Pride and Prejudice). I think it must have been the undying devotion of someone, not just from Anne and Captain Wentworth but I think another devoted love I've witnessed in this book was Admiral Croft and Mrs. Croft. Of course, the main focus of this book is to Anne and Captain Wentworth's story, and that true love does not alter, even if years had passed.
We're first introduced to Sir Walter Elliot, (if I didn't know the synopsis of this story, I would have thought this was his story), of Kellynch-hall, whose vanity could rival those of younger women as his favorite possessions includes his looks and rank in high society. The funny thing is he is so self-absorbed and vain that he needs to retrench on his extravagance as he is in debt. Then we are briefly introduced to his daughter, Elizabeth, Anne and Mary. Elizabeth, his eldest and favorite (as she also possess her father's extreme vanity and extravagance) is nine and twenty and is unmarried. And then there was that commotion of her brief engagement to another cousin Elliot but it went nowhere. Then there's Mary, the youngest, who is married to a fortunate country gentlemen. And last but not the last Anne, the middle child who is often ignored both by her father and elder sister but is beloved by Lady Russell, her late-mother's closest kindred friend.
I think, like the story, the introduction seemed to ignore or sidelined Anne, probably establishing the kind of person Anne is.
Also, it pissed me off how self-absorbed and so self-important Anne's father is. I mean, he is already in debts but he would degrade someone who is not born from a rich household, particularly someone who has a rank in high society. It's so degrading the way he humiliates the navy and soldiers just because they had amassed riches even though they were from poor background. I mean atleast those people worked for their money, unlike him.
Anyways, back to Anne, in Chapter 2, it was said but not acknowledged that she was the one who made the plans on how her family could successfully retrench, however, Lady Russell presented this as she is a most trusted advisor of the family and Anne's father would most likely listened to her (probably hinting to on how Lady Russell is good at the art or persuasion, but more on that later). Also, Anne was bit by bit having a part, probably centering the story on her know and at the end of chapter 3 where:
Mr. Shepherd was completely empowered to act; and no sooner had such an end been reached, than Anne, who had been a most attentive listener to the whole, left the room, to seek the comfort of cool air for her flushed cheeks; and as she walked along a favourite grove, said, with a gentle sigh, “a few months more, and he, perhaps, may be walking here.”
I can't help but feel there's a certain nostalgia for what could have been or what would have been here.
Kinda nice that they finally told why Anne was feeling incredibly shy and timid from the first three chapters (I mean apart from her personality being actually timid). It's sad and regretful what happened to Anne's engagement to Captain Frederick Wentworth. I mean I could understand why Lady Russell was trying to persuade Anne to call off the engagement but it's sad that after that, there were no happiness that seem to engage on Anne's life. Furthermore, it was also said that Anne was offered an engagement to Sir Charles Musgrove, who eventually wed her younger sister Mary. Though Anne didn't hold a grudge against Lady Russell on her persuasion in regards to Captain Wentworth, I can't help but think that Lady Russell also felt responsible to the sadness that attributed to the once youthful Anne. Also, probably because Lady Russell is the second closest thing Anne could have as a mother that she held Lady Russell's opinions in high regards.
But I felt sad that Anne never loved anyone other than Captain Wentworth.
Chapter 6 was kind of a rollercoaster of emotions. One moment you can't help but find it hilarious that the Musgroves tell their complaints about Mary to Anne, and then Mary contradicting those complaints without either party knowing then the next moment you get punched emotionally by Anne's unfortunate circumstance of always being talked with but not talked about or noticed about. Sad knowing that after her mother's death, that was the last time anyone had listened to her or appreciated her (though maybe the last time was when she was with Captain Wentworth). I think what's sad about it is also Lady Russell discouragement on Anne's engagement to Wentworth when they were younger. This has probably totally closed off Anne to socialize, in a sense that she would also share her innermost feelings and turmoils.
Another thing on chapter 6, it's that the reason Anne was going to the Musgroves was because she likes to live in the country and at the same time evade the Crofts as this might cause an unexpected meeting with Captain Wentworth but it's like everything is against Anne's fate as the Musgroves really did got acquianted with the Crofts and all Anne can do is act insensible/indifferent to her past feelings to Captain Wentworth as he may suddenly appear.
I genuinely thought after chapter 6, I would be able to witness Anne and Captain Wentworth's reunion but due to unforeseen circumstances, their meeting was halted. I mean, Captain Wentworth was received by the Musgroves but no presence from Anne as she takes care of her nephew after suffering an injury from a tree fall. Also, I understand that during that time, more of child care are passed to the mother but it's disappointing that when one has a child of their own does not guarantee them to be a good parent. I mean, just because you have a child of your own does not necessarily mean you're capable and responsible being a parent. Sometimes too, one does not need to be an actual parent to care about children.
And of course, when they meet again, after eight years, all those initial thoughts from Anne had completely vanished and has been replaced instead with what Captain Wentworth said about her, that she looks so completely altered and I can't help but cry and sympathize with Anne. I know Captain Wentworth was sad and angry at Anne for her breaking her engagement and with just a mere persuasion from Lady Russell no less but I felt like Anne is too hard on herself. She knew that she was at fault too, that even though her decision had caused her unhappiness over the years, it was a decision she made. And now that the years have passed, she might regret it but it was her decision, there were nothing that could fix Captain Wentworths disappointment in her timidity and weakness or being easily persuaded.
Finally on chapter 8, the quote that got started me on reading this book:
there could have been no two hearts so open, no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison, no countenances so beloved.
Which was unfortunately preceded by this:
Now they were as strangers; nay, worse than strangers, for they could never become acquainted. It was a perpetual estrangement.
I didn't know that was the whole quote.
Of course, as Anne and Captain Wentworth kept meeting each other as they are in the same circle, I can't help but sadly think about how Anne was known to never dance and Captain Wentworth asked of her from the Musgroves sisters. Now, I can't help but think, as we read this story on Anne's perspective and she thinks that Captain Wentworth's cold politeness was worse than him completely ignoring her, does Captain Wentworth thinks Anne so indifferent, so insensible that she would readily avoid talking or interacting with him entirely than to actually converse with her?
The thing is, because we read it on Anne's perspective, we can't help but empathize with her. Of course, the sensible thing to do was probably avoid and act indifferent towards him but what if his cold politeness towards Anne was just a facade as Anne's indifference towards him rubs him off the wrong way?
Is it weird that even I could feel the tension between Anne and Captain Wentworth? As if I'm actually with them on that abrupt entrance of Captain Wentworth to the Cottage only to have found out that Anne and the little Charles is there? Also, very awkward when Mr. Hayter also came and wait with them and even though Captain Wentworth was about to initiate a conversation with Mr. Hayter, Mr. Hayter deliberately evade him as he chose to read the newspaper at the table contrary to Captain Wentworth near the window while Anne is attending the ill little Charles.
You can actually see how Jane Austen had mature on her writing. Social gatherings on any books usually bore me but the way she weaves the story, even if they aren't speaking or have any dialogue and even if the book is only told from a certain perspective, we also get a glimpse of how the other characters act and behave even without the dialogue. There'a something uniquely interesting on how this kind of story plays out in a Jane Austen work.
That conversation between Louisa and Captain Wentworth as they walked together, there's something that must have stung Anne's feelings as Captain Wentworth praises someone who is not easily persuaded and is a very decisive person, contrary to someone who's indecisive and it easily affected by the persuasion of others. Especially as how, thought it was indirectly done, Louisa told how Charles initially offered marriage to Anne but instead rejected him. I actually thought (because I've watched the movie first) that Anne rejected Charles Musgroves on the grounds that she might still have feelings for Captain Wentworth (or was it a fresh wound at that time) but it was rather because the Musgroves believed that Lady Russell had greatly influenced Anne and Anne had been easily persuaded that maybe Charles isn't characteristically bookish enough to appease Lady Russell's approval. This comment somehow agitated Anne, as she thinks how her character now is being perceived by Captain Wentworth after that conversation.
Also, I can't help but think, since Mrs. Croft is Captain Wentworth's sister, does she know Anne's attachment/engagement to Captain Wentworth? Because at the very end of chapter 10, wherein Admiral Croft and Mrs. Croft discuss Captain Wentworth attachment to the Miss Musgroves, both of them cannot tell which of the two Miss Musgroves does capture Captain Wentworth's heart but there's a hint, in Anne's perception, that Mrs. Croft knew that neither of the two sisters had enraptured Captain Wentworth's.
Also, just how Louisa and Captain Wentworth discussed Anne's rejection to Charles Musgrove and how Anne is heavily influenced by Lady Russell that it was obvious Lady Russell and Captain Wentworth disliked each other. I could understand why Captain Wentworth disliked Lady Russell but I can't wrapped my mind on why Lady Russell disliked Captain Wentworth. Is it because of his rank? If it was, then I don't think that Lady Russell is such a good-natured character. I mean, I understand that she only wants what's beat for Anne but the way she persuaded Anne that engaging herself with Captain Wentworth because of his rank or Charles Musgrove because he's not bookish for her taste seems outrageously suspicious to me. I mean, it just means that she held herself at a higher level compare to others, and the way that she is described as good-natured when it seems that being smart and philosophical such as herself gives her a right or an authority to give distasteful remarks on the opposite sex with lower rank. Sure, it's not the same level of vanity of looks and rank like Mr. Elliot but it's on the same page. She's just vain in a sense that she thinks she's superiorlly smarter and held a higher rank than others. Although, I could understand it that maybe because she's a woman who have everything (in a sense that she's comfortably able to do things she wants or rich) but it felt that she's a contemptuous woman who masks her proud superiority behind being "good-natured".
Also, there'a something extremely sad on how Anne perceived herself older when I mean I'm pretty sure she's around late 20s (or maybe because during their time, it's harder for women to get married as they grew older compared to men who could still marry when their past 30 as long as they have money). I think this because of her comparison of herself to Captain Benwick saying that Captain Benwick can still find love as he is still young. I still think it's sad that she completely closed herself to everyone since her rejection of Captain Wentworth. Might mean that their love was really something more or just might be the best she's ever have.
Also, during their stay at Lyme, I kept thinking that Captain Benwick is a bit attentive to Anne in a sense that he might like her or is starting to like her. Probably because they share this fascination to poetry (though on Benwick's case, it's particularly related to grief and melancholy). Unfortunately, this was cut short as Anne was chosen to go back to Uppercross and accompany Henrietta and Captain Wentworth to alert the Musgroves parents on what happened to Louisa.
Lady Russell's opinion of Captain Wentworth gets lower as she heard that Captain Wentworth seemed to have formed an attachment to Louisa Musgrove when it was eight years ago, he proposed to Anne. I mean I kinda understand that's irritating, seemingly choosing someone who's kind of naive and younger compare to someone who is matured and is good-natured and with a sound and philosophical mind but like isn't Lady Russell who persuaded Anne to break it off with Captain Wentworth? And also, I didn't also like that Lady Russell seemed to not like Admiral Croft because of his manner of talking and felt a bit uncomfortable around Mrs. Croft just because of her connection to Captain Wentworth. Also, why should Anne worry if Lady Russell and Captain Wentworth meet if there's anyone who should be worried it should be Lady Russell as Captain Wentworth had just proven that he could have given Anne a comfortable and happy life even if he doesn't have a rank. I know Lady Russell only wants was best for Anne and like how Anne admires Lady Russell as she is the closest mother figure she has and is the only one who ever gave her attention but like Lady Russell's contemptuous superiority complex is just irritating.
In chapter 15, as Anne arrived in Bath, she then is introduced to her cousin, a Mr. Elliot who will soon inherit the Kellynch state. But like even in this chapter, Anne's father and sister are really self-absorbed (especially her sister like I mean she's older than Anne and even she is not yet married).
Also didn't know that there was the matter that Anne's father, Mr. Walter Elliot might form an engagement with Mrs. Clay, though that was strange, I could understand why such a matter could be true as both are neither engage to anyone as of the moment. Plus we could also see how Elizabeth is cruel to Anne like the way she said that Anne meant nothing to her compared to Mrs. Clay. Also, the fact that Elizabeth is also vying for their cousin, Mr. Elliot's, attention.
Also, on chapter 16, when they are introduced to their cousins, the Dalrymple, there's something socially hilarious about the interaction. The Elliots, particularly the father and Elizabeth are so pre-occupied with their cousin Viscountess Dalrymple which is ironic as how they treat people they deemed beneath them (in social rank) and though not particularly excited as the other two, Lady Russell and cousin Mr. Elliot also thinks that renewing this connection with the Viscountess is a good addition to the Elliot's rank. I just think it's hilarious how the former two people (Mr. Elliot and Elizabeth) would insult someone of lower rank but they would somehow beg to be noticed by someone with a higher rank, which in this case they just became the people they were insulting while the latter two, (Lady Russell and the cousin Mr. Elliot) acted nonchalantly but would want that connection with high society too. Aren't the two groups of people the same, just different execution?
Also, now I think, I initially think Anne is easily persuaded in a sense that she easily formed a connection with Captain Benwick and cousin Mr. Elliot but I understand that Anne's idea of good company is an acquaintance shared having a clever and well-informed conversation amongst them. This is why she holds Lady Russell's opinions high although she said that it took her years to realize that not everything Lady Russell agrees with is something that she also agrees with (I think one of these was somewhat related to Captain Wentworth too). Also, all the talk about the social ranks in this chapter also makes sense as how they treat other people without social ranks (like Admiral Croft, Mrs. Croft, Captain Wentworth and the Msugroves) even though they are rich (and in this case, the Musgrove's might have been richer than the Elliot's now as they are trying to retrench and pay off their debts).
Also, that character analysis of Anne's about her cousin Mr. Elliot is just understandably good. Like, everyone (even Lady Russell) praises Mr. Elliot as a clever, well-mannered and sensible man but for Anne, there's something that doesn't sit right with her about him. For Anne, I think, two things that bothers her is however clever and sensible Mr. Elliot is, he doesn't readily give his opinions, like he appears to agree or add something to what you've previously said but to readily give his opinion or impression, he most certainly doesn't (which is said that he have a general pleasant manner to everyone). Which could attribute to another thing he does, he isn't honestly open to Anne. All Anne's general opinion of him could have been attributed by the things and compliments she heard from other people who had the pleasure of meeting him and not actually an old acquiantance of his. In this case, he kinda reminds me of George Wickham, but unlike the female protagonist of Pride and Prejudice, Anne maybe timid but she's wonderfully clever, maybe because she's older and her mind had a maturity through her engagement of different morals and philosophies that might have enriched her mind over the years.
I know Mary is the lesser of two evils (between Anne's sisters) and I still think she's still sometimes condescending but not contemptuously like Elizabeth so I kinda find her letter to Anne a bit endearing. Although, sure it contained some prejudiced opinions of her about the society of the Uppercross tenants such as the Musgroves and its neighboring acquaintances (Admiral Croft and Mrs. Croft and the Hayters) and the Harvilles, but it's nice that though she thinks ill of them (because of their societal rank), she still give them truthful compliments (as though Mary maybe prejudiced but she's honest about her feelings, that though they maybe hurtful, atleast she didn't say it behind their backs). Though, she's still self-absorbed from time to time, I think being around the people from Uppercross had also done her good. Another thing is that in chapter 18, Anne is genuinely happy for Captain Benwick and Louisa's engagement. I think it may have astonish her but she understand how the couple came to be (or had an understanding) even though they have different minds. Add to that those subtle hints that though Anne is grateful for Captain Benwick's attention, Anne would only yearn for one's affection to her (obviously, that's Captain Wentworth).
And speaking of, in chapter 19, when Anne and Captain Wentworth meet happenstance (though Anne knew he'd be coming to Bath). It's adorable like you know they are in their late 20s and yet this scene plays like a meet-cute. Also, I'm really terrified coz it's only a few chapters left and Anne and Captain Wentworth doesn't have a lot of scenes together and there's this cousin Mr. Elliot who seems to like Anne and is heavily favored by her family and even Lady Russell. And I think, it's just disappointing that Anne really love Captain Wentworth and now that Captain Wentworth has some power/money compare from before and Lady Russell is kind of a surrogate mom to Anne as Lady Russell is a friend of her mom and had tried to give advices to Anne like how her mother would and Anne really wanted for the two of them to get along, unless Captain Wentworth let go of his grudge to Lady Russell's counsel to Anne about him (though I completely understand the grudge) and Lady Russell would not try to influence or persuade Anne or better yet the word is discouraged Anne on being engaged to Captain Wentworth. I think, the big problem that I find with Lady Russell is that she is a good natured and well-mannered lady but she still thinks that she and Anne should only closely associate themselves with people who has a high social class/rank.
Might be disappointing that Elizabeth didn't acknowledged Captain Wentworth (but that was expected as Elizabeth is self-absorbed and she thinks she's superior to others who doesn't have her rank) but if that was Lady Russell, then I don't know if her and Anne's relationship would be well.
I don't know if I should admire Anne of her intelligence or maybe it counts as her being delusional? But the way she seemed to memorize Captain Wentworth's mannerisms and their whole conversation (that somehow brought a brightness in her, or a glow in her that improved much her looks) screams her sentiments and feelings for him. Chapter 20 alone had invoked a lot of feelings, from high to low to high again, even though they've only attended a concert, it seems that a lot could happen on such short notice. I just feel sorry for Anne, because it is so clear that the only man she loved Captain Wentworth and she still loves him. But it frustrates her as her cousin Mr. Elliot seems to arouse Captain Wentworth's jealousy (though it excited a gratification for Anne), but Anne only wants to interact with Captain Wentworth, to know about his sentiments and whether those sentiments are the same with her. I think what frustrates her is that Captain Wentworth had finally approached her without anger or resentment but perhaps the same love she has for him all those years ago and it was unfortunately sabotage by Mr. Elliot's excessive vague compliments that pokes at Anne's curiosity but doesn't dissolve her devotion to Captain Wentworth.
Also, didn't know that as I reached the last few chapters, the chapters seemed to be longer compare to the previous one (I actually dreaded that I would soon finished reading this book and I meant that in a good way).
Finally, as I reached the last part, the fantastic thing about it is that prior questions about character's backgrounds are slowly getting answered. Chapter 21 particularly answered the cousin Mr. Elliot's character. Which, I must say is similar to Wickham from Pride and Prejudice, a wolf in sheep's clothing or a cruelly dangerous person posing as a gentleman. Though, I find certain similarities between Wickham and Mr. Elliot, Mr. Elliot seemed a superior being as an antagonist compared to Wickham. And also, maybe because Anne is much older than Elizabeth, Anne knew upon meeting Mr. Elliot that there is something vaguely bothering (which eventually end up as him being entirely evil) about his whole composure, despite hiding it on a gentleman-like manner. I think, Anne had solidified this gut-feeling when Mr. Elliot interact with her during the concert when Anne wanted to converse with Captain Wentworth. Also, maybe during the concert (as gossip seemed to thrive during those times as a form of entertainment), Mr. Elliot deliberately tries to get Anne's attention to him and through this action, a lot of people who have attended the concert might have gossip and spread this news, as to why Mrs. Smith also assumed that Anne is to be engaged to Mr. Elliot. Even I actually felt a hit conflicted during Anne and Mrs. Smith's conversation, as at the beginning of it, Mrs. Smith seemed to praised and approved of Mr. Elliot's engagement to Anne and them suddenly, when Anne confirmed and proved that in no way she accept a proposal from him nor if she would accept it in a future did Mrs. Smith unraveled Mr. Elliot's true intentions. I could understand why Mrs. Smith had done what she had done, as someone who is poor and is counting on any help she could get, and maybe she believed that somehow Mr. Elliot's intentions change and his feelings towards Anne is genuine, maybe Mr. Elliot would have listened to Anne (as she might've been his soon-to-be wife). Like even from the previous chapters, Anne could not make Mr. Elliot's character as most of their acquaintances are new and his acquaintances' character are not very known to Anne. But this, this newfound information of Mr. Elliot's attachment or connection to Mrs. Smith had solidified Anne's instance to Mr. Ellliot's character: that he's cruel, conniving, serpentine hearted acting like a gentleman.
Now we're nearing the end, I felt like that chapters are getting more and more intense (probably wrapping up loose ends). And on chapter 23, of course, it finally happened. At long last, our two protagonists were able to profess their love to one another. I cried during thay scene when Captain Wentworth left Anne a letter, especially at the parts "You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope." and
"I have loved none but you" something about that altered and stirred my soul. And also thay explanation of Captain Wentworth's action towards Anne upon their reuniting again after eight years. Also, it's the way that both of them somehow knew or memorize each other's manners, from the way their expressions changes and each of them knew what it meant even if they hadn't seen each other for so long.
Another to add is when Captain Wentworth acknowledged his anger and resentment towards Anne and how he came to terms with his pride/proud and he kept thinking that if he hadn't been so prideful, and he wrote Anne a letter when he acquired the riches that he has now, would have Anne replied to him and when Anne answered in a way that he understood that she would have, there was this momentary regret in him. But atleast now they still end up together. Something about men owning up their proud/prideful mistakes and change themselves for the better, not because their love interest says so but because they realize how wrong they were before.
Also, I find it kinda funny that in the end too, I finally know why Lady Russell just icked me but I completely understand that she was, afterall, a second parent figure to Anne and how Anne accepted Lady Russell's flaws and how also Lady Russell came to accept her flaw, that maybe she might not be a good judge of character as she always known and what I find funny about the entire ordeal was how Lady Russell just have to live with it too. Also, that Captain Wentworth had finally forgiven Lady Russell for her persuasion to Anne before, and he might forgive her sooner than he might forgive himself for all his prideful folly that almost cost him his happiness with Anne.
I initially read this because I've only seen a few people talked about this Austen book but most of them said that this was her most esteemed novel and I think they are right. Though maybe I am a bit biased as I've only read 2 of Austen's works so far, but I never knew I'd loved this book better than Pride and Prejudice (but I still love Pride and Prejudice). I think it must have been the undying devotion of someone, not just from Anne and Captain Wentworth but I think another devoted love I've witnessed in this book was Admiral Croft and Mrs. Croft. Of course, the main focus of this book is to Anne and Captain Wentworth's story, and that true love does not alter, even if years had passed.
The Apothecary Diaries: Volume 7 by Natsu Hyuuga
adventurous
challenging
emotional
mysterious
reflective
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
5.0
I genuinely thought I'd finished this sooner than I expected. For the first few chapters, I felt the story kinda drag as we're introduced to another set of completely new and different characters. Also, of course, there was this subtle appearances from some of the minor characters from the previous novels. Though truth be told, a bit disappointed there's not much Maomao and Jinshi moments but the ones that are here are so worth it. Also, loved that we get to see Maomao and Luomen's relationship as daughter and parent.
All in all, I still loved this novel and thus I present to you some spoilers and my opinions of them:
Maomao's train of thoughts in Chapter 2, particularly her instance on giving birth. It's like you don't know how to feel because it sounds gross to eat your own placenta (I still feel it's cannibalism especially it's a meat of your own or a part of you as a woman) but at the same time, I could understand it as this is how her curiosity works. I think, in the name of medicinal experiment, that includes testing of poisons, Maomao doesn't know the line between when to actually experiment in the name of science and where it is consider insane. But, if you think about it, most medicinal advancement are also thanks to former medical practitioners who experimented on their own (though some used people and that's clearly a no).
Also, this part on chapter 2:
But she thought, This brings back memories. She was in a workplace full of women again, and the inevitable consequences of that nearly brought a warm glow to her heart.
I can't help but think about this. In this part, Maomao was partly ridiculed as she fell down face hard. But being surrounded by women her age and perhaps women who are involved in medicine does brings back memories and does warm Maomao's heart. Is it because she misses Shisui/Loulan and Xiaolan? I sometimes think this was it. I mean it felt like it had been ages since they last seen each other. And though Maomao only thought about it, I think she still hopes that somehow Shisui made it out alive. As for Xiaolan, I kinda hope they'll see each other again, although I know that during those times it might be more difficult for them to meet as Xiaolan is a serving lady or a lady-in-waiting to a sister of one of the middle or low consort (not sure) and Maomao is still near the capital. Oh female friendship.
Something to be said regarding chapter 3. I kept thinking how the other court ladies treat Maomao. Is it because Maomao doesn't have any high officer relation (although this is not true as she is biologically Lakan's daughter and Luomen's adoptive daughter, both from the La clan) or is it envy that Maomao's better than then in terms of medical practice?
Also on chapter 4, I also feel angry on how other people seem to treat eunuchs. For instance though, it wasn't really that bad when Jinshi was introduced as a eunuch everyone seemed to adore and love him despite knowing he is a eunuch (but on technicality, he isn't a eunuch). But now, I finally see how some people treat eunuchs like that Yao and En'en (though it's just strange for people to be so prejudice against eunuchs). Though, on the other hand, I understand it as eunuch technically falls under people who are trans or intersex and yet even now there are a lot of transphobia that's been happening although people who are trans or intersex already existed, even without the so called advancement we are now experiencing whether be in term of technology or medicine.
Also, I can't help but think how Maomao is such a girl's girl. Like Yao and En'en were initially cold to her but she couldn't care less. However, on chapter 5 and 6, we get a glimpse of Yao and En'en, particularly the latter as she and Maomao talk about Maomao's credibility as a medical practitioner. Maomo admitted she is an apothecary by vocation and during her talk with En'en that that different color of hairband she used during their first day was not because Maomao had some special favors from Jinshi but rather because she scored the highest on the court lady exam. Also, I kinda find Yao a bit obnoxiously childish then finding out she's just 15. I can't help if it was immaturity of age or being from a noble family, she also holds herself to a higher standard. I mean nothing wrong that but if you kinda act up just because someone scored better than you, shouldn't you to to do better? But yeah maybe it's too soon to talk about Yao like that as she's still a child and Maomao is four years older than her.
Also that subtle mention of what happened to the almost eradication of the Imperial bloodline from years ago. Although, truth be told, I kinda want to know what happened during that time (maybe in the next chapters or next light novel) as I think it would have been nicer to have the story be focused on the country of Li and its politics before introducing us to a new country and new set of politics. Chapter 8 had been a headache as it felt like a lot of things are happening at once and I can't seem to pick up.
In chapter 11 and 12, it was kinda funny that frog has been heavily mentioned. Like I was actually thinking on how way back on the 3rd Light Novel, when Maomao discovered Jinshi is not an eunuch, she kept saying his was a decent sized frog. Now back to chapter 11 and 12, frog was heavily mentioned and it was expected in a way that Maomao woild remember that scene that was dubbed by this fandom as the frog scene. I kept thinking now if the word frog or the frog itself will be related or will be significant on the story later. Though that end part on chapter 11, I felt apologetic and horrified for Yao.
In chapter 14, there's something suspicious about the Shrine Maiden. I think, like Maomao, there's something amiss but I just can't connect it yet. It's there and I also had a feeling that Luomen already knew what is the matter as he seemed unusually disturbed. I think Luomen knows but is hiding the truth, as it may be politically controversial plus I know he is smart but I think his lifelong experience handling stuffs like these had also made him smarter. It's just that, as Maomao tend to indulge her suspicions and assumptions based on her observations whether it'd be true later on, Luomen wouldn't jump into such conclusions as he believes assumptions are still in fact false suspicions.
Also, that unnervingly disturbing tale from Luomen about rituals and traditions that were practiced over time for great harvest. I know it happened, as people before easily believed in gods and deities showering them with blessings and fortunes if they sacrifice something. Reminds me so much of The Lottery by Shirley Jackson. And just like that story, the village from Luomen's story also had lost their rationality and minds as to why they were doing those rituals in the first place.
As much as I ship Maomao and Jinshi, I still sometimes get conflicted if Maomao really loved Jinshi, romantically. There were a few indications that she is like from the previous light novels. For example, (I think it was a foreshadowing,) I think Maomao said something about her biological parents before (particularly her mother) that in a way, her mother, Fengxian, wanted what happened with her and Lakan, because if Fengxian never wanted it to happened, she wouldn't initiate it and even if it did happened but she doesn't loke it, she could have Maomao aborted. But in the end, Fengxian did wanted it and even kept Maomao (though that resulted to Fengxian selling her body and acquiring STDs along the way).
Another example I think is how Jinshi forcefully kissed Maomao. I think before that, it was pretty insinuated that if a woman wanted it, she would have consented it. But does Maomao consented to Jinshi or was it to get back to him for choking him? Also, that's also not the problem. Jinshi felt and thinks that he shows his romantic affection to Maomao but I think he never really declared it before. He does these things, and gave vague insinuations but no actual declaration or confirmation. Or is it because, on technicality, both of them are still young (I mean, afterall, their age is still consider as young adults).
See, now it's kinda funny that after all my thoughts about Jinshi and Maomao seemed futile as I've read Chapter 18 of this light novel. I could finally agree that both Jinshi and Maomao do like each other but with all the politics involved, it feels that even if Jinshi finally declared that he'd make Maomaoas his wife, he also knew how much of a pain it would be to both of them, especially to Maomao and he didn't want that. I could finally agree that Jinshi does love Maomao as he doesn't want to take any consort because I think he only want Maomao as his only wife. Also, as much power he has as the brother of the emperor, he knew that even though he wants Maomao to be his wife, he wouldn't want Maomao in a difficult position (as there's a possibility Maomao would be an enemy of Empress Gyokoyou as marrying Jinshi would mean Maomao could have a take on the throne). Also, I think, Jinshi is kind of a romantic as he also wants Maomao's affection to him as genuine or real as his. Because like I've said, he could order that he'd married Maomao but still he wanted to earn Maomao's affection genuinely. Now, on Maomao's side, I think Maomao is on denial. I am now convinced that she also love Jinshi, and not just because he's a very important person (as Jinshi is the Emperor's brother and also does Maomao really knew Jinshi is Ah Duo's and the Emperor's son or is it just an assumption again? Have I missed it?). It was now heavily implied in this chapter how Maomao's concern for Jinshi surpasses their professionality with each other. Maomao is concerned about Jinshi's sleeping habit even though she no longer serves him. Also, whenever Jinshi tries to get close to Maomao, she may verbally recoiled or refused but she still lets him do as he wishes (though maybe it's because Jinshi is of high status). However, on this chapter, we can see that Maomao is in denial as when Jinshi opened up his and Suiren's topic of him getting a consort of his own. There was this part that said:
“Suiren feels quite urgently that I should take a consort of my own,” he said. “She claims it would mean less work for me.” “I’m sure she’s right.” Maomao was intent on acting as if the matter didn’t concern her. That, however, could only aggravate Jinshi.
Also, because I've noticed that as Jinshi and Maomao seemed to have less interactions, there were minute moments that Maomao would be reminded of Jinshi like the frog and other things. Just that alone could indicate that Maomao is slowly having feelings towards Jinshi. She may deny it all she wants, but I think she really does have formed a fascination on Jinshi, and not just because of Jinshi's pretty face but because of how he is as a person, not as the Emperor's brother too, just the person Maomao know as Jinshi.
Can I just also give a shoutout on Chapter 19. I loved how the story goes on that chapter. It was such an interesting read, even if if was just connecting the dots to form a concrete story based on numerous speculations from. Really brings out the Sherlock Holmes mystery of the novel.
Also that subtle remembrance of Maomao about Shisui from Chapter 21, pushing Maomao to remember how the politics had brought disaster to their lives. Also, I can't help but think that maybe this subtle remembrance will bear fruit, maybe Maomao would really have her hair stick back or even see Shisui again. I kinda hope she does, and Xiaolan too.
And like finally that revelation on how Shaoh politics works. Sure, there's two pillars but it'a still a patriarch, but having the shrine maiden as a woman also helped their people, especially the women. Plus that revelation that the shrine maiden is actually a man that was made as a woman, that was kinda upsetting as the shrine maiden recall her/his story. Also, I think Shaoh will be heavily mentioned or focused on the next novels.
Now, see, I usually type the spoiler everytime I get to finish a chapter and so don't be confused if it felt that the review are fragments of ideas from the light novel.
All in all, I still loved this novel and thus I present to you some spoilers and my opinions of them:
Maomao's train of thoughts in Chapter 2, particularly her instance on giving birth. It's like you don't know how to feel because it sounds gross to eat your own placenta (I still feel it's cannibalism especially it's a meat of your own or a part of you as a woman) but at the same time, I could understand it as this is how her curiosity works. I think, in the name of medicinal experiment, that includes testing of poisons, Maomao doesn't know the line between when to actually experiment in the name of science and where it is consider insane. But, if you think about it, most medicinal advancement are also thanks to former medical practitioners who experimented on their own (though some used people and that's clearly a no).
Also, this part on chapter 2:
But she thought, This brings back memories. She was in a workplace full of women again, and the inevitable consequences of that nearly brought a warm glow to her heart.
I can't help but think about this. In this part, Maomao was partly ridiculed as she fell down face hard. But being surrounded by women her age and perhaps women who are involved in medicine does brings back memories and does warm Maomao's heart. Is it because she misses Shisui/Loulan and Xiaolan? I sometimes think this was it. I mean it felt like it had been ages since they last seen each other. And though Maomao only thought about it, I think she still hopes that somehow Shisui made it out alive. As for Xiaolan, I kinda hope they'll see each other again, although I know that during those times it might be more difficult for them to meet as Xiaolan is a serving lady or a lady-in-waiting to a sister of one of the middle or low consort (not sure) and Maomao is still near the capital. Oh female friendship.
Something to be said regarding chapter 3. I kept thinking how the other court ladies treat Maomao. Is it because Maomao doesn't have any high officer relation (although this is not true as she is biologically Lakan's daughter and Luomen's adoptive daughter, both from the La clan) or is it envy that Maomao's better than then in terms of medical practice?
Also on chapter 4, I also feel angry on how other people seem to treat eunuchs. For instance though, it wasn't really that bad when Jinshi was introduced as a eunuch everyone seemed to adore and love him despite knowing he is a eunuch (but on technicality, he isn't a eunuch). But now, I finally see how some people treat eunuchs like that Yao and En'en (though it's just strange for people to be so prejudice against eunuchs). Though, on the other hand, I understand it as eunuch technically falls under people who are trans or intersex and yet even now there are a lot of transphobia that's been happening although people who are trans or intersex already existed, even without the so called advancement we are now experiencing whether be in term of technology or medicine.
Also, I can't help but think how Maomao is such a girl's girl. Like Yao and En'en were initially cold to her but she couldn't care less. However, on chapter 5 and 6, we get a glimpse of Yao and En'en, particularly the latter as she and Maomao talk about Maomao's credibility as a medical practitioner. Maomo admitted she is an apothecary by vocation and during her talk with En'en that that different color of hairband she used during their first day was not because Maomao had some special favors from Jinshi but rather because she scored the highest on the court lady exam. Also, I kinda find Yao a bit obnoxiously childish then finding out she's just 15. I can't help if it was immaturity of age or being from a noble family, she also holds herself to a higher standard. I mean nothing wrong that but if you kinda act up just because someone scored better than you, shouldn't you to to do better? But yeah maybe it's too soon to talk about Yao like that as she's still a child and Maomao is four years older than her.
Also that subtle mention of what happened to the almost eradication of the Imperial bloodline from years ago. Although, truth be told, I kinda want to know what happened during that time (maybe in the next chapters or next light novel) as I think it would have been nicer to have the story be focused on the country of Li and its politics before introducing us to a new country and new set of politics. Chapter 8 had been a headache as it felt like a lot of things are happening at once and I can't seem to pick up.
In chapter 11 and 12, it was kinda funny that frog has been heavily mentioned. Like I was actually thinking on how way back on the 3rd Light Novel, when Maomao discovered Jinshi is not an eunuch, she kept saying his was a decent sized frog. Now back to chapter 11 and 12, frog was heavily mentioned and it was expected in a way that Maomao woild remember that scene that was dubbed by this fandom as the frog scene. I kept thinking now if the word frog or the frog itself will be related or will be significant on the story later. Though that end part on chapter 11, I felt apologetic and horrified for Yao.
In chapter 14, there's something suspicious about the Shrine Maiden. I think, like Maomao, there's something amiss but I just can't connect it yet. It's there and I also had a feeling that Luomen already knew what is the matter as he seemed unusually disturbed. I think Luomen knows but is hiding the truth, as it may be politically controversial plus I know he is smart but I think his lifelong experience handling stuffs like these had also made him smarter. It's just that, as Maomao tend to indulge her suspicions and assumptions based on her observations whether it'd be true later on, Luomen wouldn't jump into such conclusions as he believes assumptions are still in fact false suspicions.
Also, that unnervingly disturbing tale from Luomen about rituals and traditions that were practiced over time for great harvest. I know it happened, as people before easily believed in gods and deities showering them with blessings and fortunes if they sacrifice something. Reminds me so much of The Lottery by Shirley Jackson. And just like that story, the village from Luomen's story also had lost their rationality and minds as to why they were doing those rituals in the first place.
As much as I ship Maomao and Jinshi, I still sometimes get conflicted if Maomao really loved Jinshi, romantically. There were a few indications that she is like from the previous light novels. For example, (I think it was a foreshadowing,) I think Maomao said something about her biological parents before (particularly her mother) that in a way, her mother, Fengxian, wanted what happened with her and Lakan, because if Fengxian never wanted it to happened, she wouldn't initiate it and even if it did happened but she doesn't loke it, she could have Maomao aborted. But in the end, Fengxian did wanted it and even kept Maomao (though that resulted to Fengxian selling her body and acquiring STDs along the way).
Another example I think is how Jinshi forcefully kissed Maomao. I think before that, it was pretty insinuated that if a woman wanted it, she would have consented it. But does Maomao consented to Jinshi or was it to get back to him for choking him? Also, that's also not the problem. Jinshi felt and thinks that he shows his romantic affection to Maomao but I think he never really declared it before. He does these things, and gave vague insinuations but no actual declaration or confirmation. Or is it because, on technicality, both of them are still young (I mean, afterall, their age is still consider as young adults).
See, now it's kinda funny that after all my thoughts about Jinshi and Maomao seemed futile as I've read Chapter 18 of this light novel. I could finally agree that both Jinshi and Maomao do like each other but with all the politics involved, it feels that even if Jinshi finally declared that he'd make Maomaoas his wife, he also knew how much of a pain it would be to both of them, especially to Maomao and he didn't want that. I could finally agree that Jinshi does love Maomao as he doesn't want to take any consort because I think he only want Maomao as his only wife. Also, as much power he has as the brother of the emperor, he knew that even though he wants Maomao to be his wife, he wouldn't want Maomao in a difficult position (as there's a possibility Maomao would be an enemy of Empress Gyokoyou as marrying Jinshi would mean Maomao could have a take on the throne). Also, I think, Jinshi is kind of a romantic as he also wants Maomao's affection to him as genuine or real as his. Because like I've said, he could order that he'd married Maomao but still he wanted to earn Maomao's affection genuinely. Now, on Maomao's side, I think Maomao is on denial. I am now convinced that she also love Jinshi, and not just because he's a very important person (as Jinshi is the Emperor's brother and also does Maomao really knew Jinshi is Ah Duo's and the Emperor's son or is it just an assumption again? Have I missed it?). It was now heavily implied in this chapter how Maomao's concern for Jinshi surpasses their professionality with each other. Maomao is concerned about Jinshi's sleeping habit even though she no longer serves him. Also, whenever Jinshi tries to get close to Maomao, she may verbally recoiled or refused but she still lets him do as he wishes (though maybe it's because Jinshi is of high status). However, on this chapter, we can see that Maomao is in denial as when Jinshi opened up his and Suiren's topic of him getting a consort of his own. There was this part that said:
“Suiren feels quite urgently that I should take a consort of my own,” he said. “She claims it would mean less work for me.” “I’m sure she’s right.” Maomao was intent on acting as if the matter didn’t concern her. That, however, could only aggravate Jinshi.
Also, because I've noticed that as Jinshi and Maomao seemed to have less interactions, there were minute moments that Maomao would be reminded of Jinshi like the frog and other things. Just that alone could indicate that Maomao is slowly having feelings towards Jinshi. She may deny it all she wants, but I think she really does have formed a fascination on Jinshi, and not just because of Jinshi's pretty face but because of how he is as a person, not as the Emperor's brother too, just the person Maomao know as Jinshi.
Can I just also give a shoutout on Chapter 19. I loved how the story goes on that chapter. It was such an interesting read, even if if was just connecting the dots to form a concrete story based on numerous speculations from. Really brings out the Sherlock Holmes mystery of the novel.
Also that subtle remembrance of Maomao about Shisui from Chapter 21, pushing Maomao to remember how the politics had brought disaster to their lives. Also, I can't help but think that maybe this subtle remembrance will bear fruit, maybe Maomao would really have her hair stick back or even see Shisui again. I kinda hope she does, and Xiaolan too.
And like finally that revelation on how Shaoh politics works. Sure, there's two pillars but it'a still a patriarch, but having the shrine maiden as a woman also helped their people, especially the women. Plus that revelation that the shrine maiden is actually a man that was made as a woman, that was kinda upsetting as the shrine maiden recall her/his story. Also, I think Shaoh will be heavily mentioned or focused on the next novels.
Now, see, I usually type the spoiler everytime I get to finish a chapter and so don't be confused if it felt that the review are fragments of ideas from the light novel.
The Host by Stephenie Meyer
adventurous
challenging
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
mysterious
reflective
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
5.0
The Apothecary Diaries: Volume 6 by Natsu Hyuuga
It was hilarious when Lahan and Maomao was solving the bride's death on chapter 3. I mean apart from them being disrespectful (I mean it was a funeral afterall), there's something eccentrically funny about the scene where Maomao kept plunging her arms into the pond and Lahan beside her, using a twig to solve or write numbers with. Though as that chapter came to a conclusion, I realize how hard it was for women at that time (I mean it's still hard now, but atleast women now can vote and choose to marry or not to marry).
Also, on chapter 5, there's something so profound about the storytelling. I actually choose reading the light novels than the manga because I get to see (read) the characters inner thoughts (even though it's on third person point of view).
Something about Chapter 11, founding out about Maomao's situation before her adoptive father, Luomen, had adopted her. I kept seeing the manga panel on this part, depicting Maomao's childhood, one where she was still a baby. She knew it happened to her, but there were no resentment in her. She understood why it happened and why it did and she didn't resent anyone for it, strangely, she had been grateful, probably because she knew atleast, in a way, she was taken care of, unlike some people.
Also, that second half of chapter 11 is a really really great story arc. Although I felt partially angry and horrified at the story, it is so well written, reminds me of old urban legends (I use to read a lot about these things as a child and I thoroughly enjoyed reading them).
Chapter 12, Maomao said it was kinda anticlimatic that the White Lady easily apprehended. In which it kinda was.
Now at the last four chapters and the epilogue, I was initially going to rate this book lower than the previous ones. I think, the White Lady was not the much compelling villain but at the last chapters it all makes sense. I just don't know if associating the White Lady working with the west or Shaoh will establish a good complex storyline or a complicated one, that might result losing some readers in the way.
Also, I had this theory that I don't think Maomao and Jinshi will end up together (even though I ship them). Though Maomao has some royalty in her blood (by her association with her father Lahan of the La clan), I don't think she'll particularly settle with Jinshi. One way or another, one of them needs to compromise to be with the other and I think (so far) Maomao wouldn't do that. Also, even if theoretically Jinshi would step down and be with Maomao, I don't think Maomao would have wanted that. I think, in a way, coz Maomao seems to have a great sense of justice, in a sense that her curiosity towards mysterious questionable things needs to be answered and solved, she wouldn't want Jinshi to give his up his role and duty as he tries to help their country for the better.
Also, is it just me or the novel that Lishu translated is in fact Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet?
Overall, I still love this book, although I'm torn if I should read the next one or choose a palate cleanser, in a sense that I have to pick a different book but if I did that, I might forget all the things that happened in this one and the previous ones in this series. But then, I think it's better if I continue this hyperfixation rather than changing it.
adventurous
challenging
dark
emotional
hopeful
informative
inspiring
mysterious
reflective
sad
tense
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
5.0
It was hilarious when Lahan and Maomao was solving the bride's death on chapter 3. I mean apart from them being disrespectful (I mean it was a funeral afterall), there's something eccentrically funny about the scene where Maomao kept plunging her arms into the pond and Lahan beside her, using a twig to solve or write numbers with. Though as that chapter came to a conclusion, I realize how hard it was for women at that time (I mean it's still hard now, but atleast women now can vote and choose to marry or not to marry).
Also, on chapter 5, there's something so profound about the storytelling. I actually choose reading the light novels than the manga because I get to see (read) the characters inner thoughts (even though it's on third person point of view).
Something about Chapter 11, founding out about Maomao's situation before her adoptive father, Luomen, had adopted her. I kept seeing the manga panel on this part, depicting Maomao's childhood, one where she was still a baby. She knew it happened to her, but there were no resentment in her. She understood why it happened and why it did and she didn't resent anyone for it, strangely, she had been grateful, probably because she knew atleast, in a way, she was taken care of, unlike some people.
Also, that second half of chapter 11 is a really really great story arc. Although I felt partially angry and horrified at the story, it is so well written, reminds me of old urban legends (I use to read a lot about these things as a child and I thoroughly enjoyed reading them).
Chapter 12, Maomao said it was kinda anticlimatic that the White Lady easily apprehended. In which it kinda was.
Now at the last four chapters and the epilogue, I was initially going to rate this book lower than the previous ones. I think, the White Lady was not the much compelling villain but at the last chapters it all makes sense. I just don't know if associating the White Lady working with the west or Shaoh will establish a good complex storyline or a complicated one, that might result losing some readers in the way.
Also, I had this theory that I don't think Maomao and Jinshi will end up together (even though I ship them). Though Maomao has some royalty in her blood (by her association with her father Lahan of the La clan), I don't think she'll particularly settle with Jinshi. One way or another, one of them needs to compromise to be with the other and I think (so far) Maomao wouldn't do that. Also, even if theoretically Jinshi would step down and be with Maomao, I don't think Maomao would have wanted that. I think, in a way, coz Maomao seems to have a great sense of justice, in a sense that her curiosity towards mysterious questionable things needs to be answered and solved, she wouldn't want Jinshi to give his up his role and duty as he tries to help their country for the better.
Also, is it just me or the novel that Lishu translated is in fact Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet?
Overall, I still love this book, although I'm torn if I should read the next one or choose a palate cleanser, in a sense that I have to pick a different book but if I did that, I might forget all the things that happened in this one and the previous ones in this series. But then, I think it's better if I continue this hyperfixation rather than changing it.