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readingwithkaitlyn's review against another edition
challenging
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Body shaming, Bullying, Deadnaming, Emotional abuse, Hate crime, Mental illness, Misogyny, Sexual assault, Terminal illness, Transphobia, Violence, Lesbophobia, Outing, Toxic friendship, Dysphoria, and Injury/Injury detail
Moderate: Child abuse, Death, Drug use, Infidelity, Suicidal thoughts, Toxic relationship, Medical content, Alcohol, and Sexual harassment
Minor: Alcoholism, Biphobia, Child death, Death, Physical abuse, Self harm, Sexual content, Suicide, Excrement, Vomit, Murder, and Fire/Fire injury
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1.0
Okay, let's address this hot fucking mess of a book, one point at a time. With headings and everything!!
Please, please check the trigger warnings below. This book is not what it seems like. It is better to be spoiled for the story than be caught completely off-guard and triggered when the scene literally creeps up on you.
Additionally, I'd like to say that while I don't identify as trans, I am genderqueer. I experience dysphoria on a daily basis and face casual transphobia and homophobia as well. Please read reviews from more transgender readers; they have very valid criticisms about this book.
- A Real Bad Romance: because, let's be honest, Georgia has as much personality as a sopping wet sheet of paper and that personality is... not good. Not only does Pony and Georgia's "romance" start way too early with absolutely no basis (their eyes meet once and that's a sign?), Georgia very obviously misgenders and is transphobic towards Pony multiple times. The attraction between them makes no sense because they knew as much about each other as I knew about them - absolutely nothing substantial.
- A Writing Class?
Writing teenagers is hard. Ways of conversing change wildly between friends, circumstances, and cliques. Some authors can pull it off better but McSmith is not one of them.
For the first 1/3 of the book, I am hit with completely random info-dumps about Georgia's past and Pony's coming-out story. They are relevant to the story but there is a way to write them and this is not it.
- All the Internalised Transphobia
- Plus the Internalised Homophobia!
I understand that the internal journey of coming to terms with your identity and with the way the world will ultimately treat you is very, very important. However, trans kids are surrounded by stories like this all day, every day in real life. I believe we need more stories of trans acceptance and trans joy, stories that show another side of being trans, stories that show hope. This story is not unnecessary but it IS misleading. It is not a cute, fluffy romance. It is ultimately a coming-out story with very extreme and violent consequences (check trigger warnings!!!!).
As a result, Pony deals with a lot (and I really do mean a lot) of internalised transphobia. I will be writing more details in the content warnings section, but please be prepared going in that Pony's and Georgia's internal monologues can be very triggering. Pony also uses (one) slur (that I can remember) near the beginning, to "fit in" with his outrageously homophobic and transphobic "manly" friends.
- Forced to Come Out? Jail.
Let's talk about Pony's friend Max and the incredibly harmful message the author spreads, even though it may be unintentional. I will say it as many times as I need to: NO ONE NEEDS TO BE OUT TO BE VALID. YOU DO NOT OWE ANYONE AN EXPLANATION OF YOUR IDENTITY. YOU CAN LIE AS MUCH AS YOU WANT IF IT KEEPS YOU SAFE!!!!!
And that is the gist of the matter, isn't it? Pony was very well aware that being trans in a conservative town, among people he heard being transphobic all day will not be safe for him and YET his BEST FRIEND Max only admitted to understanding Pony's perspective after Pony was literally assaulted and had to be hospitalised . It felt like a shallow apology at best and really showed the flaws in the overly-marketed and very young queer community of contemporary times.
Max insisted that Pony should be out and "proud" because a small, conservative high school like Pony's needed a transgender voice while Max himself was out at a "liberal" school where "being gay/trans was normal" (Pony's words; can't remember the exact phrasing). I'm not sure what message the author is trying to give, but I do not like this part of it. Not at all.
- Not the Homophobic + Transphobic Friends
That suddenly become not homophobic and transphobic once it becomes cool to be cool with it? But also I generally do not like how the book wraps up so neatly in the last few minutes, with Max's apology, Georgia's everything-phobic cheerleading team coming around, Pony's fathers total 180; the stakes were so high for the entire book. It was obvious the author just wanted to drop everything to get a cookie cutter "the queer/trans kid gets accepted by everyone and is so brave and finds protection" and god knows what else.
- Not the H*rry P*ttr reference *cries*. I counted one. I don't want to know if I missed any more.
TL;DR: A potentially harmful book, given it's target audience with it's internalised transphobia, transphobic friend circle, and it's message of needing to come out to be true to yourself.
I highly DO NOT recommend this book to anyone.
Instead, I would suggest reading:
Cemetery Boys by Aiden Thomas for a similar set up -- trans MC; unaccepting family; some romance; a quest to prove oneself; fantasy
The Sunbearer Trials by Aiden Thomas -- for a queernorm world and some trans joy; no romance; fantasy
I Wish You All the Best by Mason Deaver
Felix Ever After by Kacen Callender
Lark and Kasim Start A Revolution by Kacen Callender
Gender Queer by Maia Kobabe
When The Moon was Ours by Anna-Marie McLemore
Fierce Femmes and Notorious Liars
Please, please check the trigger warnings below. This book is not what it seems like. It is better to be spoiled for the story than be caught completely off-guard and triggered when the scene literally creeps up on you.
Additionally, I'd like to say that while I don't identify as trans, I am genderqueer. I experience dysphoria on a daily basis and face casual transphobia and homophobia as well. Please read reviews from more transgender readers; they have very valid criticisms about this book.
- A Real Bad Romance: because, let's be honest, Georgia has as much personality as a sopping wet sheet of paper and that personality is... not good. Not only does Pony and Georgia's "romance" start way too early with absolutely no basis (their eyes meet once and that's a sign?), Georgia very obviously misgenders and is transphobic towards Pony multiple times. The attraction between them makes no sense because they knew as much about each other as I knew about them - absolutely nothing substantial.
- A Writing Class?
Writing teenagers is hard. Ways of conversing change wildly between friends, circumstances, and cliques. Some authors can pull it off better but McSmith is not one of them.
For the first 1/3 of the book, I am hit with completely random info-dumps about Georgia's past and Pony's coming-out story. They are relevant to the story but there is a way to write them and this is not it.
- All the Internalised Transphobia
- Plus the Internalised Homophobia!
I understand that the internal journey of coming to terms with your identity and with the way the world will ultimately treat you is very, very important. However, trans kids are surrounded by stories like this all day, every day in real life. I believe we need more stories of trans acceptance and trans joy, stories that show another side of being trans, stories that show hope. This story is not unnecessary but it IS misleading. It is not a cute, fluffy romance. It is ultimately a coming-out story with very extreme and violent consequences (check trigger warnings!!!!).
As a result, Pony deals with a lot (and I really do mean a lot) of internalised transphobia. I will be writing more details in the content warnings section, but please be prepared going in that Pony's and Georgia's internal monologues can be very triggering. Pony also uses (one) slur (that I can remember) near the beginning, to "fit in" with his outrageously homophobic and transphobic "manly" friends.
- Forced to Come Out? Jail.
Let's talk about Pony's friend Max and the incredibly harmful message the author spreads, even though it may be unintentional. I will say it as many times as I need to: NO ONE NEEDS TO BE OUT TO BE VALID. YOU DO NOT OWE ANYONE AN EXPLANATION OF YOUR IDENTITY. YOU CAN LIE AS MUCH AS YOU WANT IF IT KEEPS YOU SAFE!!!!!
And that is the gist of the matter, isn't it? Pony was very well aware that being trans in a conservative town, among people he heard being transphobic all day will not be safe for him and YET his BEST FRIEND Max only admitted to understanding Pony's perspective after
Max insisted that Pony should be out and "proud" because a small, conservative high school like Pony's needed a transgender voice while Max himself was out at a "liberal" school where "being gay/trans was normal" (Pony's words; can't remember the exact phrasing). I'm not sure what message the author is trying to give, but I do not like this part of it. Not at all.
- Not the Homophobic + Transphobic Friends
That suddenly become not homophobic and transphobic once it becomes cool to be cool with it? But also I generally do not like how the book wraps up so neatly in the last few minutes, with Max's apology, Georgia's everything-phobic cheerleading team coming around, Pony's fathers total 180; the stakes were so high for the entire book. It was obvious the author just wanted to drop everything to get a cookie cutter "the queer/trans kid gets accepted by everyone and is so brave and finds protection" and god knows what else.
- Not the H*rry P*ttr reference *cries*. I counted one. I don't want to know if I missed any more.
TL;DR: A potentially harmful book, given it's target audience with it's internalised transphobia, transphobic friend circle, and it's message of needing to come out to be true to yourself.
I highly DO NOT recommend this book to anyone.
Instead, I would suggest reading:
Cemetery Boys by Aiden Thomas for a similar set up -- trans MC; unaccepting family; some romance; a quest to prove oneself; fantasy
The Sunbearer Trials by Aiden Thomas -- for a queernorm world and some trans joy; no romance; fantasy
I Wish You All the Best by Mason Deaver
Felix Ever After by Kacen Callender
Lark and Kasim Start A Revolution by Kacen Callender
Gender Queer by Maia Kobabe
When The Moon was Ours by Anna-Marie McLemore
Fierce Femmes and Notorious Liars
Content Warnings
Graphic: Bullying, Deadnaming, Hate crime, Homophobia, Physical abuse, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Transphobia, Violence, Outing, Toxic friendship, and Dysphoria
Minor: Lesbophobia
cryscries's review against another edition
emotional
reflective
tense
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? No
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
2.75
I’m being generous about the rating because genuinely the first half of the book was cute - cringe but cute. The second half was not as great and overall there was just a lot of things about this book that I wish was developed a bit better.
Pros: there is a trigger warning in one of the pages before the story begins in the paperback version.
Cons:
1. It was hard to root for the main two characters - especially the main love interest. Georgia is supposed to represent probably a typical cis person reaction but i found it so hard to feel bad for her and her issues. I find her to be rather self centered (even tho she is characterized to kinda be insecure) - throughout the story even though she “gets better” as a person it still doesn’t make up for how she’s acted in the rest of the book. Very passive with standing up for her friends and pony, thoughts of outing him out of jealousy, definitely needs new friends who should be supportive.
2. Everything kinda just works out in the end for pony but it feels a little lack luster in the end of how he gets to where he is - his change feels more said than done.
3. Major problems with the side character max- tho I feel there was a lot of stereotypes in this book, o felt Max’s character was rather toxic. FIRST THINGS FIRST, you do not need to come out if you are not ready and you do not need to come out to show that you are supportive of the community. Do things at your own time. I had problems with max being rather pushy towards pony in wanting him to come out when it is definitely not safe to, have him drop the friendship because pony doesn’t want to be out, and then says he’s proud of pony for coming out at the cost of being beaten up because “it happens everyday”
There were some cute moments in this book but there was too much problems to overlook that.
Pros: there is a trigger warning in one of the pages before the story begins in the paperback version.
Cons:
1. It was hard to root for the main two characters - especially the main love interest. Georgia is supposed to represent probably a typical cis person reaction but i found it so hard to feel bad for her and her issues. I find her to be rather self centered (even tho she is characterized to kinda be insecure) - throughout the story even though she “gets better” as a person it still doesn’t make up for how she’s acted in the rest of the book. Very passive with standing up for her friends and pony, thoughts of outing him out of jealousy, definitely needs new friends who should be supportive.
2. Everything kinda just works out in the end for pony but it feels a little lack luster in the end of how he gets to where he is - his change feels more said than done.
3. Major problems with the side character max- tho I feel there was a lot of stereotypes in this book, o felt Max’s character was rather toxic. FIRST THINGS FIRST, you do not need to come out if you are not ready and you do not need to come out to show that you are supportive of the community. Do things at your own time. I had problems with max being rather pushy towards pony in wanting him to come out when it is definitely not safe to, have him drop the friendship because pony doesn’t want to be out, and then says he’s proud of pony for coming out at the cost of being beaten up because “it happens everyday”
There were some cute moments in this book but there was too much problems to overlook that.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Bullying, Deadnaming, Hate crime, Homophobia, Self harm, Sexual assault, Suicidal thoughts, Transphobia, Outing, Gaslighting, and Dysphoria
dharma_'s review against another edition
emotional
funny
lighthearted
reflective
sad
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Plot
- Strong character development? No
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
3.0
It’s a pretty cliche romance story, so it was predictable. The romance is cute, but very childish/teenagery. Which made it both more and less believable. The main characters start falling for one another very fast; it’s very clear they have massive crushes on one another. This is very teenage and believable. But the transition from crush to love doesn’t seem super believable—there’s not a ton of evidence of connection before they’re saying they love one another. It’s still an enjoyable book though. And the ending is difficult to read, but it stresses the importance of love in it face of hate, which is an important message.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Hate crime and Transphobia
Moderate: Bullying, Deadnaming, Self harm, and Suicidal thoughts
ohnoits_arcturus's review against another edition
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
lighthearted
reflective
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? N/A
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Bullying, Deadnaming, Hate crime, Homophobia, Suicidal thoughts, Transphobia, Violence, Outing, and Dysphoria
Moderate: Death and Self harm
Minor: Vomit
caitlindee's review against another edition
emotional
hopeful
inspiring
sad
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? No
5.0
TW: transphobia, homophobia, lesbophobia, deadnaming, misgendering (purposeful), hate crime/graphic physical assault, suicidal thoughts (graphic), bullying, slurs, self-harm, public outing/forced outing, pressure to come out from a close friend.
Okay, please please PLEASE be mindful of these trigger warnings before going into the book. I didn't look into them before starting (this is my own fault 100%) and I was incredibly caught off guard by what happens in about the last third of the book. This is not changing my rating of the book in any way, just please be mindful and take care of yourselves. I couldn't stop reading this book; it was emotional, funny, relatable, heartbreaking, hopeful, devastating, and inspiring. I thought the pressure Pony was receiving to come out by a close friend was unfair, but it definitely feels realistic to how some people are pressured to come out before they're ready, especially when those people are in a dangerous situation that others don't believe is a dangerous situation (if that makes sense?). I appreciated the author having this character change their tune at the end of the book and the conversation they had with Pony. Should it have taken a severe physical assault for this conversation to happen? No, but unfortunately, that's how things play out a lot of the time. Overall, this was a really great read and I am definitely going to be reading Tobly McSmith's next book!
Okay, please please PLEASE be mindful of these trigger warnings before going into the book. I didn't look into them before starting (this is my own fault 100%) and I was incredibly caught off guard by what happens in about the last third of the book. This is not changing my rating of the book in any way, just please be mindful and take care of yourselves. I couldn't stop reading this book; it was emotional, funny, relatable, heartbreaking, hopeful, devastating, and inspiring. I thought the pressure Pony was receiving to come out by a close friend was unfair, but it definitely feels realistic to how some people are pressured to come out before they're ready, especially when those people are in a dangerous situation that others don't believe is a dangerous situation (if that makes sense?). I appreciated the author having this character change their tune at the end of the book and the conversation they had with Pony. Should it have taken a severe physical assault for this conversation to happen? No, but unfortunately, that's how things play out a lot of the time. Overall, this was a really great read and I am definitely going to be reading Tobly McSmith's next book!
Content Warnings
Graphic: Bullying, Deadnaming, Hate crime, Physical abuse, Suicidal thoughts, Transphobia, Outing, and Injury/Injury detail
Minor: Self harm
keelin's review against another edition
emotional
funny
hopeful
inspiring
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? No
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.75
Content Warnings
Graphic: Hate crime, Homophobia, Transphobia, Violence, Medical trauma, Lesbophobia, and Outing
Moderate: Suicidal thoughts
Minor: Self harm
ashheinrich's review against another edition
dark
tense
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? No
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
1.0
This was extremely frustrating to read. Everything was so misogynistic and the message was basically queer and trans people will suffer until they come out, at which time the suffering will escalate. Being trans was also compared to being a secret writer lmfao
Content Warnings
Graphic: Death, Emotional abuse, Hate crime, Homophobia, Mental illness, Misogyny, Panic attacks/disorders, Physical abuse, Self harm, Sexism, Suicidal thoughts, Transphobia, Violence, and Grief
endlessly_a_bibliophile's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
funny
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.0
Listen. This book was good, and I think it’s worth the read, especially considering who the author is, but do so at your own trigger risk. There is a very brutal scene towards the end that could be triggering for those that have experienced situations of bullying for being trans. It also leaned in the direction of the cis-woman being the savior because she realized it was actually okay to be trans and she fixes everything and I think came off as very “I fixed the situation so it could be used as a learning moment for me to become a better person” so I was frustrated with that. BUT! The author is trans and wrote this for a reason that is not for me to pick apart, I just agreed with the viewpoints of other readers about how the ending went down. Great writing, LOVED the main character, Pony, and it actually made me cry for sad and happy reasons.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Deadnaming, Emotional abuse, Hate crime, Homophobia, Self harm, Suicidal thoughts, Suicide, and Transphobia