Reviews tagging 'Drug use'

I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness by Claire Vaye Watkins

8 reviews

tara3117's review against another edition

Go to review page

dark funny sad medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? No
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

1.5

Like everyone here, I was pulled to this book by the title. It was nominated for a ton of awards.

Nothing that happens in this book is good. The people aren't good. Any of them. Maybe Theo, but he's so minor. He's probably a good guy. The narrator is absolute garbage when faced with any type of possibility. We have no idea where she gets money from. Book royalties maybe? I don't know. None of this woman's lifestyle makes any sense to me. The tag is that it's about "one woman's reckoning with marriage, work, sex, and motherhood." But she doesn't reckon with anything. She literally walks away from all of it except sex. There is no reckoning. She doesn't even make decisions with any kind of forethought whatsoever. She's a trainwreck and I feel misled.

There is so much borrowing from her parents' stories. She spends way too long retelling her dad's story, which isn't relevant at all except that it's salatious and mostly true. She spends too long retelling her mom's letter chronologically backwards, so when people pop up later, you vaguely remember that they end up being garbage later on, but when she's 11, they're cute. The only thing the letters serve is to set the scene of how messed up Claire is because her mom is. If anything, this book is about generational trauma, drugs and sex and not about marriage, work or motherhood at all. All of the back story basically tells you that this girl's trauma (of having a dead dad and a poor, drug-addicted mom) is what makes her interesting.

However, the writing is really good. The dialogue is pretty and realistic. The descriptions are beautiful. So that's where it's unfortunate. The author can write a fantastic sentence. She cannot write a story. 

Expand filter menu Content Warnings

ashlurtis's review against another edition

Go to review page

dark emotional mysterious sad tense medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? No
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

2.25

Oof, this was rough. I still don't know why I didn't DNF this book honestly. For some reason, I thought I really liked this author, but now I'm second guessing how I felt after reading "Gold Fame Citrus." Possibly and probably, the same as I felt while reading this. The writing is like... good, sharp, smart, but the story is BLAH. 

I read this for a "semi-autobiographical" challenge at my local library and was constantly feeling weirded out about how the author and main character share the same name among other characteristics. Also, every character in this story, including and especially the main character, is super icky. There might be an appropriate audience for this book, and I am definitely not it, nor can I conceive of who would be.

The narrative switches between the main character's very unreliable point of view and these random letters from a character I wasn't even sure the identity of until near the end of the book. I am assuming there are a lot of heavy and raw emotions that went into the writing of this book and that for some people it might be very cathartic to read, but not for this young-ish Midwestern mom who loves her family... 

The content is just as icky as the characters and I kind of felt like I needed to take a really hot shower to wash this book off me. Probably will not be seeking out more work from this author.

Expand filter menu Content Warnings

rdebner's review against another edition

Go to review page

dark emotional mysterious sad medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? It's complicated
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated

4.5


Expand filter menu Content Warnings

kelsea's review against another edition

Go to review page

dark reflective medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0


Expand filter menu Content Warnings

bookishcori's review against another edition

Go to review page

dark emotional reflective sad medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.75


Expand filter menu Content Warnings

cocacolor's review against another edition

Go to review page

funny reflective medium-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

I don't usually like woe-is-me everyone-sucks no-relationship-is-a-good-relationship literary fiction about disaffected authors, but I tore through this. The descriptions of California are beautiful, the emotions are real and messy, and even though I hated everyone, so did the narrator.


Expand filter menu Content Warnings

generalalarm's review against another edition

Go to review page

adventurous challenging dark slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.75

This novel is auto-fiction, reading a lot like a memoir. It's a first-person narration of a depressed, self-destructive woman's flight from her husband and newborn daughter. The novel explores her family history through letters her mother wrote and a chapter on her father's time in the Manson family cult. The book contrasts the poverty, addiction, and tragedy with which she grew up, with her own discomfort and unhappiness in her privileged life. The prose is somehow both pared back and straight to the point while making gorgeous use of lush words and highly specific descriptions.

Expand filter menu Content Warnings

gm3116's review against another edition

Go to review page

dark reflective slow-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? It's complicated
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.0

Great if you're in the mood to immerse yourself in a desert setting. It offers a possible answer to the question a parent may ask themselves "What if I made the completely selfish decision and abruptly left everything behind with absolutely no plan?"

The story is also accompanied by her parents' stories which come together to offer a look into a bygone time with bygone hopes and aspirations.

Expand filter menu Content Warnings
More...