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The Upside of Falling, by Alex Light

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  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.0

I thought this book was so cute, and I went into this blindly, didn’t even read the synopsis on Kindle Unlimited when I downloaded it. The cover just looked cute so I decided to give it a shot and absolutely loved it! 
We Used to Be Friends, by Amy Spalding

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emotional funny lighthearted sad
  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? No
  • Loveable characters? No
  • Diverse cast of characters? No
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

3.0

I will admit, I really hated this at first. I was not enjoying it at all and I almost marked it as DNF because it felt insufferable. But truth be told I felt like I was meant to read this. I’ve had my fair share of broken friendships that were so broken beyond repair and sometimes you just never get that back. Things can never really go back to normal sometimes, because the more you tear at a scab, at the end of the day, it’s still going to scar.

I do want to say, however, while the things the two main characters went through did shape them into who they were, I don’t believe some of those things were justified in how they acted. James reminded me a lot of myself, not very good with words, knows how she feels but doesn’t understand how to express how she feels and how to put those feelings into words. I struggle a lot with expressing my feelings and love for people, much like James. Kat? I wanted to like Kat, but I found she annoyed me almost the entire book. So dramatic, so over the top, and I was getting fed up with how many times she said “OMG!” I think both characters were extremely flawed in their own ways, and neither of them were perfect by any means. But they constantly threw things at each other that somehow justified their shitty behavior.

“Stuff was clearly bothering you! You didn’t say anything about that, either. If you thought I was being a crappy friend, you should have said something.”
“And you should have known. I just wanted you in my life, like before, like when it felt like it was me and you against everything.”
“But we weren’t against anything. You were my best friend, and then suddenly you weren’t. Suddenly you didn’t tell me anything and I had to find out stuff from Logan, and from Hannah Padilla”


This, for example. People are not mind readers, as well as I know my friends and stuff I do not ever claim to always know what they’re going through, if something is bothering you that your friend is or is not doing you need to speak up about it. “You should have known” is not an excuse to not communicate your needs to your friends. This part just rubbed me the wrong way because I’ve been there, I’ve had friends that acted as if I should just always know when something is bothering them and read their mind and confront them about it, instead of coming to me and communicating their needs to me that they need some reassurance or some help. I may be intuitive and know something could be bothering you, but it only takes me so far. And I’m not going to pry into your life if you haven’t told me and you have chosen to not tell me for whatever reason. This kind of behavior, even with friends, is very manipulative and it rubs me the wrong way that people think you should always just know how your friend is feeling and if you don’t then you’re the problem. 

I think that’s what ultimately made me give this 3/5 stars, it’s a YA novel that it feels like set for very impressionable teenagers that would think this way if their best friend doesn’t tell them stuff and just expects them to read their mind when something is bothering them. I’m almost 28 years old and I know people my age who act this way…
Sanctuary, by Andi C. Buchanan

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adventurous emotional mysterious reflective tense fast-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? Plot
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? N/A

4.25

This book took me by surprise. I didn't know what this was about going into it and I was pleasantly surprised by how the author wrote the characters. There was so much representation in this, different characters who all have different neurodivergent characteristics. Autism,  ADHD, ADD, anxiety, depression, disabilities, physical or otherwise. I found the ending extremely wordy
Spoilerwhen they were fighting the ghost eater
. But at the same time, the main character wasn't much of a talker either.  They communicated a lot with text messages or writing things down and no one gave them crap for it. I think it had to be wordy because the character themselves did not really speak. 

I give this 4.25 stars just because I felt like the ending was too rushed. Half the time I didn't really realize what was happening.
SpoilerHow do you fight a ghost that is taking over humans? How do you take the life force of a ghost that makes it fade faster?
Maybe I don't know that much about ghosts after all, or this is just someone's take on ghosts and how they respond to their environment and live through time. But overall I did enjoy it! I love that this wasn't your typical "ghost story" but rather how to get along with them and live among them. 

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House of Earth and Blood, by Sarah J. Maas

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adventurous challenging emotional funny lighthearted mysterious sad fast-paced
  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? It's complicated
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

5.0

If you would have told me when I first started reading this that I would enjoy it, I would have thought you were nuts. I started listening to the audiobook when I discovered that I had it on Audible because I wanted to get a head start. My dad bought me the book but it wasn't going to be here for awhile. Everyone was raving about it, and with the second book coming out it was all I was hearing about from everyone. 

I got this a long time ago, back when I was still really heavily into watching BookTubers and posting pretty heavily on Instagram. It was recommended by a friend, when that friendship got cut off, I forgot about it and didn't even remember it was in my Audible library. Several weeks ago, when I got back into bookstagram after my absence for some time, I started hearing about the second book coming out. My friend Emily posted about it and talked to me about it and I thought I would give it a chance. I started making a book wish list on Amazon and I added it to it, and got curious and looked on Audible and it told me I already owned it. This sent a surge of memories coming back to me, hearing about it for the first time, it being a Sarah J. Maas book when I've read her ACOTAR series, and I wanted to give it a chance. 

I work from home on a computer all day, occasionally making phone calls, and to pass the time I either listen to YouTube videos in the background, or I listen to music. I downloaded the audiobook and started listening to it while I wasn't doing tasks at work. And as I started listening to it I grew extremely confused. I had no idea what was going on, it was extremely detailed and (in my opinion) a lot of unnecessary world-building pages right at the beginning. It only started to get more interesting when Danika and the Pack of Devils died and even though I was still confused, at least there was a plot now. 

I kept listening and things kept getting thrown at me that made no sense. Who was Athalar? Who was Hunt? "Oh, they're the same person....What?" Last names kept getting thrown in the mix and then they'd be called their first name and I had no idea who that was, and then she'd switch it up and go back to their last name and I was royally confused. I didn't really start getting it until about 200 pages in and I really thought that was far too long without clarification. 

I'm going to be truthful and say what a lot of people before me have said: I absolutely hated Bryce in the beginning. I thought she was a know-it-all, rude bitch who took people for granted. Her attitude bugged me, and the way she treated people bugged me even more. And I was so tired of everyone fawning over her and just talking about how great her ass was. But I will also be truthful in saying that I actually grew to love her as the book went on. I looked back at how she acted in the beginning and gave her the benefit of the doubt. She lost her best friend, her best friend was killed in their apartment, and after Danika's death everyone just seemed to fall away from her, everything fell away from her. Her love for dancing, her love for life, her other friends distanced themselves and she felt she was just expected to move on because it had been two years. But she couldn't move on. And I give her a little credit for acting the way she did, even though it bugged me. Something she loved more than life itself died and she hadn't been there to save her from it. I would be pretty cold and distant as well if it were me. 

And then comes in Hunt Athalar. A fallen angel male, paying off his debt to Micah for the angel rebellion with the love of his life so many years ago. He is assigned to keep watch over Bryce while they work on a case together, a case to find out what got Danika and the Pack of Devils killed. It's your classic "we-just-work-together-and-you-happen-to-live-in-my-apartment-with-me-but-we're-not-fucking-we're-just-friends" trope. But you could tell there was something there. Even if neither of them wanted to admit it to the other. People said they saw no chemistry between them at all, I beg to differ. Each of them did things to protect the other without exclusively saying they cared for each other. That, in itself, to me is caring for each other. 

A lot of people also said this book was far too long, that 800 pages could have been cut down into like 400-500 pages. I also disagree. For me, personally, I felt that this was a good length for how the plot thickened and how everything came nicely together towards the end. I never would have guessed that's who had done it. I remember reading it and my jaw hitting the floor with a thud because I literally had no idea. It came out of nowhere. And I think the length of the book does that on purpose. It leads you into thinking you have it right, throws some problems at you and makes you think you're on the right track, and BAM, there it is. I was actually shocked. And I usually find books pretty predictable because I've just read so many books over the years. 

When I first went into this book I would have given it maybe 3 stars, it wasn't really capturing my attention and I didn't really see it possible that I'd even read the second book. But as I finished it, I was already reaching for the second book before I even started writing this review. I have my issues with Sarah J. Maas and the things I have learned about her over the last week or so, and that's not going to stop me from being critical of her writing or her in general. However, I do give this book 5/5 stars just simply for the writing style and how the plot developed and where it took me. The only thing I will be critical of SJM in this review is I hope going into House of Sky and Breath I don't have to read several hundred times of her saying the word "wholly" or "snarled" or "hissed." Because let me just say... it gets old. I remember reading ACOTAR and I think "wholly" was written on every single page throughout the entire book in every book of the series. 
Closer to Okay, by Amy Watson

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4.75

Disclaimer: I received an advanced copy of this book on Net Galley in exchange for an honest review.

Kyle Davies is in Hope House after some very traumatic events that took place that wound her up in the hospital. Hope House is a rehabilitation home and recovery center for those who are dealing with mental illness that need rehabilitation back into society. 

In the beginning Kyle plays it off like there's really nothing wrong with her, that she doesn't belong in this place and she's fine. But as the book progresses you really see that this is the kind of book we need to have when talking about mental health as a whole. This is the kind of conversation we need to have about mental health, that there's nothing wrong with not being okay but people really need to be taken seriously when they are not okay. Saying things like "Tell someone when you're feeling sad and down!" is wonderful in theory, but the resources for people who are depressed need to be better. And sometimes, unfortunately, people don't know how to ask for help, especially the main character Kyle.

Kyle finally decides to use her off-site privileges for the first time since coming to Hope House and goes next door to The Coffee Shop, a coffee house very set in traditional coffee brewing standards, the menu is what they've got, and if you're looking for something more, they quite literally tell you to go elsewhere. They introduce Jamie and Jackson, the big flirt is Jamie and all the girls are always fawning over him, and Jackson, the rugged "never-smiling one" that always looks pissed and is very gruff.

Kyle quickly finds Jackson is not as gruff and mean as he makes people think he is and they quickly become friends and he gets her out of Hope House to hang out so why not? This book was very real, very raw, cute, lovable, all while still remaining very serious about what mental illness can do to a person. The good, the bad, and the ugly. 

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oh, you thought this was a date?!: Apocalypse Poems, by C. Russell Price

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2.0

I wanted to like this so much, I really did. It's written by genderqueer author C. Russell Price, and it's a collection of poetry about sexual identity and gender discovery, but I just... did not like it. There are parts of it I did enjoy, especially the way it's written and the execution of the layout of the book and how each chapter is divided by words with definitions that are up for interpretation and kind of written out in the way the author interprets those words. But the next page after a definition of a word is a "Ritual" page, which every time I got to made absolutely no sense to me, most of the rituals sounded self sabotaging and really aggressive. I just do not think this was for me, and that's okay. All poetry can be subjective and taken differently by different people, so maybe I just wasn't understanding it the way the author intended.

I also want to mention there are absolutely no trigger warnings in this book, and this discusses several triggering and sensitive topics that may upset people. I was taken aback by some of these topics so I don't want anyone else to be surprised by it's contents. So since it doesn't give any trigger warnings, I will: molestation, rape, and self harm are the big ones. The only other one I can think of is self sabotage which I'm not sure is a major trigger warning, but just something to be aware of if you pick up this book. 

Like I said, I wanted to like this, I really did. I loved the representation that a genderqueer author wrote a book of poetry about their experiences and navigating life. The only thing stopping me from giving it one star is I did like the execution of how it was laid out, and the way it was written. With that being said, I give this 2/5 stars. 

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Hell Followed with Us, by Andrew Joseph White

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  • Plot- or character-driven? A mix
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated

5.0

I cannot believe how much I loved this book. I had no expectations going into this despite what I read from the description on NetGalley. I couldn’t put this book down even if I tried, which is why I was so quick to finish it. I started reading it on the 22nd and it’s now the 27th, which if you know me at all you’d know that’s quick for me since I am a very slow reader. 

Benji is a trans boy who fled from New Nazareth, the main campus full of rebel evangelical Christians who are wrecking havoc on the world and killing and murdering nonbelievers in the name of god. I am going to try to keep this as spoiler free as possible but I may write a spoiler ridden review elsewhere. 

Benji is on the run when he and his dad are stopped by a group of Angels— the group of soldiers employed by New Nazareth to track down heretics and nonbelievers and do gods work by killing them— where his father is murdered and Benji has no choice but to run by himself. He is found by a kid named Nick who tells him to keep silent and he takes him back to his camp known as the ALC. The Acheson LGBTQ+ Youth Center, a center for LGBTQ+ teens and young adults to find peace and community with each other in the world they’re living in. 

The only thing eating away at Benji is the monster growing inside him, a literal monster that will eventually tear him apart and make him inhuman. 

This book is FULL of trigger warnings: body horror, violence, murder, blood, weapons, religious terrorism, transphobia, homophobia, gore, torture, apocalyptic themes, and grotesque descriptions of bodily horror. I was truly unprepared for some of what they talk about in this, and it starts right off the bat too. From the very first few pages it is filled with graphic descriptions that surprised me, and it only got worse from there. If any of this bothers you please be warned before picking this up when it hits the shelves this summer. 

I loved this so much I pre-ordered the physical copy of the book when it comes out and I plan on reading it again later on. It is written so well, but I would not say this is for young adults by any means. I think I would say this is more New Adult or Adult LGBTQ+ fiction. I don’t see this turning into a series or see a sequel on the horizon, it wrapped up so well that it felt perfect on it’s own!

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Mixed Feelings, by Abraham Rodriguez

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5.0

Absolutely heartbroken. This beautiful work of poetry nearly brought me to tears, opened my eyes and it was like looking in a mirror of despair of my past self. This book absolutely shattered me and shook me to my core. 

This work of poetry is seeing the ups and downs of a relationship, a very hard and emotional relationship at its very core and feeling the tense emotion and sadness that fills the page. Abraham Rodriguez poured his heart out onto the page when he wrote this book and I found myself reading the words on the page as if they were written for me. 

The raw feelings put into this book almost had me in tears because I related to it so much in the things that he talked about and the way the photographs in the book reflected on what he was saying in verse. The black and white photos really did something to the book as well, it was almost as if you could just see his broken heart in these photos as you read along. 

I did not post this part in with my Goodreads review because it’s a little too heavy for your average review, but the words Rodriguez wrote in this book made me open my eyes to the trauma and abuse I was put through at such a young age. I highlighted several quotes because like I said before, it really felt like this book was written for me or about me, as unimportant as I am. It makes me feel less alone, that I’m not the only one who’s been through things like this, that another person’s actions affected them so deeply that they are scarred forever. 

One quote that stood out to me above the rest was:

“You blame your mistakes and failures on the way you were brought up. You try to convince yourself that your daddy issues are the reason you’re so messed up.” 

I read this quote and immediately my mind started buzzing back to the past. I will not go into deep depths of what this meant to me, I don’t want to talk too much about my personal life here, but I’ve basically said this exact thing before in conversation to what happened to me at a very young age. People make excuses for the way they are, and sometimes, yeah it does make sense that certain issues like childhood trauma/generational trauma can cause you to make some not so nice mistakes or say some not so nice things. But that still does not excuse your actions. They may be the cause of your actions, but only you are responsible for ending generational trauma through help like therapy and counseling. You don’t mess up another person because that’s just how you were raised, you commit to changing yourself and trying to be better than those before you and better than how you were raised.

This book is so deserving of five stars because the power of the emotion on the page is astronomical, I get choked up by poetry anyway, but as I said, this was personal. I got an advanced readers copy through NetGalley but I absolutely want to buy this book when it hits the shelves, that’s how much it meant to me.
Serenity, by F.S. Yousaf

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3.0

Honestly, while this was beautiful, this was definitely not my favorite poetry book. It truly felt like it lacked something, there were emotions running through the words, however I felt no emotion from the author. It felt like Yousaf was pouring their heart and emotions out onto the page, but I felt none of that while reading. 

The author obviously went through love and loss, it just did not seem that genuine to me that they seemed particularly upset over that loss. Like me, they seemed pretty “meh” about it. That’s pretty much how I felt while reading it. It was very well written, and I’ve seen a lot of praise for it, I don’t know, it just wasn’t my cup of tea, perhaps. 
The Subtweet, by Vivek Shraya

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  • Plot- or character-driven? Character
  • Strong character development? Yes
  • Loveable characters? Yes
  • Diverse cast of characters? Yes
  • Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes

4.5

Everything follows us online, forever. You post something on social media and all at once someone thinks its about them, even if you’re just venting to an open space about something that’s on your mind. I’ve been guilty of this, and victim to this so many times in my online presence since I was a teenager. It’s dangerous, because it can really ruin friendships, relationships, put a strain on relationships in your life or even ruin relationships fully.

Neela is an indie artist who has been called a “has been” and a “nobody” but when RUK-MINI covers one of her songs and the internet blows up over it, Rukmini gets things thrown at her that Neela has been working towards her entire musical career. They become friends, but once Rukmini starts getting things thrown at her Neela becomes jealous and envious that these things hadn’t happened to her yet.

Rukmini gets offered an opening act spot on a famous artists worldwide tour, at first Neela is super happy for her and she is very supportive. As their texts become more and more infrequent as the tour goes on, Neela starts to feel like Rukmini only used her to become more famous than her. As Rukmini is on tour Neela creates an album by herself that she thinks will pull her career out of the water, have people talking about her constantly and blow up way more than Rukmini has. When her album flops and is only retweeted by four people she grows even more mad that maybe everyone was right that she is a has been, a nobody, so she checks Rukmini’s twitter where she finds a selfie of Rukmini surrounded by a crowd of white people. Neela takes this as an attack that Rukmini is “pandering to white people” as a brown, South Asian woman. So she subtweets about it with Rukmini’s original, leaked album hashtag #hegemony, we later find out was leaked by the same person Rukmini is on tour with.

Neela’s tweet blows up over night, the next morning and over the course of a few days her follower count quadruples, the tweet has since been deleted but attention is all over her and Rukmini’s feud on the internet. Rukmini has gone silent everywhere, attacks being thrown at her left and right. When news comes out that her best friend she recorded and came up with all the songs on Hegemony had died several years before according to Malika’s cousin, Rukmini deleted her entire twitter account and practically disappeared off the internet all together. From here Neela doesn’t know what to do. She can’t get a hold of Rukmini by text, no phone calls, nothing.

When Hayley (the famous pop artist Rukmini goes on tour with) confronts Neela and wants to sit down and speak with her, she finds out a lot that Rukmini didn’t even know about. Hayley had actually gone to college with Rukmini, they knew of each other and Hayley had been super supportive of both Rukmini and Malika and their music, she was actually the one who leaked the music they wrote together. Neela had no idea how to get a hold of Rukmini so Hayley and her came up with a plan: Neela was going to be the opening act for one of Hayley’s shows. At the show Neela decides to cover one of Rukmini’s songs off Hegemony to get her attention, and I thought that was cool because it came full circle, Rukmini covered one of her songs, and then Neela covered one of her songs.

I have a hard time rating this book to be honest, I wanted to love it, but the ending sort of ruined it for me. I really wanted to see them be reunited once more but Neela covering Rukmini’s song was the ending.
I kinda lean on giving this 4.5 stars, but I want to give it 4.25 stars.